The Last Christmas Chapter 13

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Believe it a not, i'm actually bickering with my dear didi these past few days. Buay Tahan. And yes, cat-dog fight occurred for simply no reasons. I, myself can't believe that i actually fight with someone that young...

Looking at our age difference, sometimes i really wonder whether he grow up faster than other kids or that i'm damn super ultimately childish. 11 years leh... Siblings with this age difference always mix around nicely and peacefully and i just don't understand why am i always quarreling and even fighting with him. Man, i really ku siao bu de.

And seems to everybody that i'm bullying him 'coz i'm older... maybe quite true but he damn qian bian sometimes... i can lay down comfortably on the sofa, watching my long-time-no-see television and he just pop up suddenly and block my view. Other than blocking my view, he can just slap me on the face without any reasons. Defending myself, i would just kick his butt unknowingly and cat-dog fight jiu zhe yang started. Man, *angry*.

Then, yesterday night bed time, i was having night talk with my sister and only then did i realise actually i've develope a habit... a bad habit and this habit... i only realise this habit until now. it has become very natural. Sometimes when i saw my didi doing something or that i'm bored and have nothing better to do, i would just flip him over and hit his butt super hard. HAHAHAHA!! To imagine for the past few years i've been doing that and i idn't realise that. I just hit his butt so naturally like it's a daily routine. HAHAHAHA!!

Okay, and he's also as stubborn as me so maybe that explains why i always quarrel and started fighting with him. Darn! And, i always pinch his cheeks super super hard to take revenge but he simply do something more abusive lor. Wa lao! You can see scratches on my hands and big red marks on his cheeks everytime after the fight. Sometimes, i have to chase him and sometimes he has got to chase me.

Anyway, everyone should jolly know that he's damn slow when running so i can never catch me and i always manage to catch him and throw him on the floor and start my pinching. HOHOHOHOHOHO!! Chou DiDi... Obi!

When he kena scolding from baba i'll simply laugh or grin at the back. Bleh! Who ask him... aiya his fault lah... and when i kena scolding he will run to my mummy and talk bad about me... har!! Don't think i don't know lor... he talk damn loud de lah... 2 rooms away also can hear him. CHOU DIDI!!! 4 years old only leh... My goodness... and he even learn the word "wa lao'. This is so infuriating!! =.=" my didi...

Wa lao my didi very qian bian de lor. *sigh*

The Last Christmas Chapter 12

28th December '06
7.28 PM
Thursday

Aw man, PMS bah i guess... i've been flaring up lately, scolding people because i'm very very dissatisfied with the work they have given me. Ask them to do simple things and none of them reach my expectations. For what i know, they are capable in producing better things but due to laziness, the work produced sucks like hell and i'm utterly disappointed.

For friends mah, i've been trying to spend more time with my friends le... HoHo!! Yes, this coming saturday, we're going to watch Night in the Museum... Wheeee!! Going to be so much fun lah and of course after that we're going to Orchard for our class t-shirt stuff. Meaning while spending time with friends, we can also do zhen jin shi. HaHa!! Smart right? I've really learn how to use time wisely.

It's still pouring and the whole house is like so icy cold even without the fans on la... Im still sneezing lo... dying very soon. My nose hor very painful... going to drop off very soon. And, today was school service day. I was so super tired lah 'coz i slept at 2plus last morning and woke up at 6.55 in the morning.

Actually Hong Xiang gave me a morning call at 6.30 i-think but i was still asleep lor... i answered his call then i go back to bed again. I was mumbling to him on the phone and i don't even know what i told him... blur-blur de... After laughing (i heard laughters), he hung up and i go back to sleep... char! Luckily got my mummy or else i would be late. So people, next time i ask you give me morning call must remember to call me the second time to ensure that i woke up liao. HaHA!!

Hmm, and i saw many classmates today. It was so superb lah, everyone chatting away and after school service i went back home with Camilia and Benny. Fun Fun Fun!! Talk a lot and scold a lot... ya, i did tell you that i've been very hot tempered recently.

Anyway, i met ah lian on my way to blk 201 with Benny outside tampines Mrt Station. Wa kaoz... ah lian your skin condition damn good la... complexion chao bang de lor... jealous... HAHA!! Mine is like oily due to lack of sleep + got lots of freckles due to the exposure to sun + a few moles due to i-don't-know + eye bags also due to lack of sleep + fats due to eating too much. Nah... can't be bothered liao lah. HoHo!!

Shall stop here... Sayonara!

Oh My Goodness! Daren Tan Sze Wei 陈世维 is really superb! I know he's going to pass revival round and because he's a potential singer. I actually thought that he will still use just his mouth to sing because singing using diaphragm is a hard thing to learn... never expect him to have improve and somewhat kick away the bad habit of singing using just his mouth. Good Job! H

e really impress me. And, just look at his dance. He's a potential dancer i-must-say. These few contestants really is much better than project superstar 1. Compared to dancing, face emotion, improvements, capability, maturity and singing techniques... they're a lot a lot better. Even if their basic singing skills are not good... but they are very fast learners unlike PSS1 So i expect higher standard now and i'm going to keep watching it starting from today.

The female contestants are like better the first fesw rounds but now, the guys improve a lot a lot and diya seems to be the the best out of all the female contestants. The reason for that is because she's good + the other female contestants did really improve a lot. She's outstanding but i feel that she still lacks something to become a superstar.

Daren is different. He has got face emtion unlike all other contestants. I was truely impressed by that because a lot of them overlook that area and though he dance vigorously but he can still sing without going out-of-tune and out-of-breathe. It's very challenging you-know?? HaHa!! Try singing while walking and i find myself already panting. VERY VERY VERY VERY IMPRESSED. He is a potential superstar.

For female, i'll support diya and for male, i'll support Daren. I'll continue to look forward to their improvements and surprises they will give me and of course, jian shi to see if i can learn anything from them. I think i do learn a lot from Daren. But, i hope his head won't grow big after hearing so much praises and compliments from the judges. He has to remember that he still needs the supoort from fellow fans. Well, i'm not, i just support his music. =)

The Last Christmas Chapter 10

Man, I've finally finish choir souvenir. though it's something cheap but it's nice. very nice. Now, i shall do up the choir website and update some area and my work will be done for today... tomorrow will be a long day and more to be done... *sigh* sianz.

The Last Christmas Chapter 10

27th December '06
1.16PM
Wednesday

Hmm, yes, i read up a bit yesterday because i found out that i can't do my homeowork. Anyway, it was fun to touch the textbook again and i can't wait to finish reading it. HaHa!! I guess i miss school. I would like to thank everyone who has lended his or her helping hand during the christmas carnival... though some of you really did give me problems...

5 more days to NEW YEAR!! Wheee!! Though new year is nearing but i'm not excited but just feeling happy and refreshing because i hope to start a fresh. I'm going to grow up and think like an adult. Nope, i'm going to think better than an adult because some adults just... anyway, Yes!! *cheers!*

Let's continue my sotong chapters...

it's going to be a short one though because i've many things to do later on... Hmm, yes manage to meet garyn and cedrick's dad said he could lobang me. Wheee!! I was so super duper happy. This is call Chuan Dao Qiao Tou Zhi Ran Zhi... we were waiting for sotong, i mean garyn and my two dear senior men arh... god knows where they are... ON THEIR WAY TO THE AIRPORT FROM ORCHARD!! HaHa!! Nevermind, expected, girls love to shop a lot.

Cedrick and i were waiting at the airport, walking around, chatting and talk like crazy, hoping that they will reach faster. We did talk a lot and i felt so chatty for the first time. We damn lame talk about melbourne exchange, and many many more things that were so damn random.. we even talk about our family state... financial state. And, looks like cedrick and my family were facing financial crisis and both families were in debts. HaHa!! Okay, shall not reveal too much.

we walked around the airport in circles, chatting and talking at the same time... then finally we decided to settle down outside burgar king... *sigh* then talk a bit more before the two girls came. Man, HaHa!! i couldn't see them from far because i lost my spectacles. Hmm, yes i'm still saving for a new specs. They talked a lot and do lame stuff and we proceed to Macdonald to have a small dinner to somewhat fill up our stomach.

I'm broke but still got some money for a packet of fries. Man, horrible. They started chewing bubble gums and bao hui and cedrick... YUCKS! chew dao hen e xin... ah lian was different she has got very big mouth 'coz choir de mah... HaHa!! Lame. No such logic but i was just trying to be funny... so ah lian can stuff the big ball shape chewing gum into her mouth and chew it without any difficulties unlike bao hui who can't close her mouth when she put that bubble gum into her mouth. i'm not interested to chew lah basically.

Ah lian and i were the matured ones whereby bao hui and cedrick were... MINE... so damn childish. they were playing with the trolley people use to push their luaggage but cedrick were like... i don't know how to describe.

bao hui and cedrick were like taking turns to push each other on the trolley and cedrick was so overly-high. he was like "WOW-ing" + his hands raising up high, rotating in circles... He's totally SIAO lah... i don't wish to stay near him lor so dui lian with people looking at him. If they continue arh... i guess the security will just approach them and ask them to leave the airport.

Hmm, okay next i'll talk about garyn's arrival but now let's give me a rest and let me finish my undone work. HeHe... See Ya!

The Last Christmas Chapter 9

26th December '06
Tuesday
11.47PM

Hmm, sorry arh people, look at my previous entry de title... HaHa!! I can't even spell "Christmas" properly. I'm so... bad at it. Hmm, misunderstandings cleared. Life is back to normal and i'm back to a clown, doing silly things and making people laughing again... I always love to see people smiling or laughing because it means they are happy to be with me. Some people just can't appreciate my existence and treat me like an idiot who is making a fool out of herself. Ya, i do feel like a fool sometimes.

Hmm, what a fine day! i'm enjoying the rest of my holidays in peace. Hmm, would like to talk about Haunted House before continuing my sotong chapters. Sorry lor because Haunted House is something that really makes me feel like a failure. I need to whine ABIT about that so that i can learn from this experience. I've gave myself a few days to sort out my thoughts about it and i'm now prepared to blog about this dumb experience.

23rd of December. A day i've been looking forward to it. I didn't sleep early... slept at 4 plus so that i can complete some last minute stuff like the costume. Ya lar blame myself for not finishing it early so i've to burn midnight oil but i've got a lot to do and Choir is always my first pirioty... people who know me should know...

Hmm, i could wake up on time. i thought i will oversleep but i didn't guess because 3 hours of sleep couldn't get me near my lala land. Yes, meeting the rest at 8 in the morning because i would like to brief them a bit before starting work. I'm very scared. VERY VERY SCARED. i scared i will screw everything up. I scared we can't complete on them. I did tell Camilia when i called her the night before and ya, hahaha at least got someone to share my fear with... so i felt a bit better...

Then, i talked for quite some time with Vampire No. 2 and it was great too because at least got someone to talk to when i'm doing the costume... it's boring you-know? Hah! And, Maggie, Wee Ting, Hong Xiang, Camilia and Yan Jie have reached when i arrived at TECC mac. Man, they're fast and soon came Weslie. It was pretty fun to brief them. Relaxed. Ya, i look perfectly alright outside but i could feel butterflies in my stomach and chest.

They were good, very obedient, listening to everything i've said. i was just wondering whether everything get into their head anyway it's already over. Hmm, then michael came. Early huh? Then, the room was opened and we started preparing... what can i say? I wasn't satisfied with some people... (i cannot don't say or i'll die because they really really qian bian. i'll talk about them later...) Anyway, they are the reasons why i think everything is a failure.

Yesh, we did slack a bit in the room because the auditorium backstage isn't open for us yet. AND, i was going crazy when someone, i think michael, mention that there's a change in the 1st I.C. Man, i'm going crazy... Yes, i heard they wanted me to take over and the reason was because i know more and hello? i wanted to be the Vampire... i even bought the fangs and claws you think i'll accept this?

No way lor. Taking over 1st I.C. means no more vampir-ing for me because they need you anytime and you can't afford to go missing in the haunted house, busy scaring people, letting them to find you inside? Thank god the ending is a pleasant one... with CHAN YING YING still the vampire of the day. Thank you. welcome.

Hmm, things are going a little bit smoothly with the moving of the dividers all that. MY 1st I.C. and 2nd I.C. have not reach YET AND I'M JUMPING. There was a lot of runnings to do and i'm so sick of climbing up and down, up and down and up and down again. i did panick a bit, not a lot... Manage to move the divders in place and get every single team members in haunted house committee to do things instead of like having one or two slacking. GLAD TO TELL YOU THAT EVERYONE WAS VERY OBEDIENT. very happy. =)

Guess it was because everyone shares the same objectives and wanted very keenly to see the whole haunted house. How the Haunted House look like at the end was quite different from mine but it was great too. =) I was really glad to see everyone doing what they are assigned to do and they didn't grumble a bit!! Surprisingly, the Haunted House was not very dark but with a little sunshine shining inside, it did give the creeps!

Throughout the setting up, i was called by so many people and i was running around. Giving people their tasks, answering people's questions... sorting out things... man, i was really really busy and i'm going crazy. I was scratching my head and messing up my hairs, looking frantic and stressed. Camilia knew it and she somewhat laughed... =.=" Wait till her turn comes... ... bleh!

The next half of the day wasn't smooth... and i was greatly disappointed by my 2 I.C. especially the 1st I.C. and how i wish i could just kick him out of the Haunted House... Okay, high blood pressure rising up as i talk about him... HAHAHAHAHA!!

They can just go for lunch and took a long time to come back and help one lor... and i have to keep calling... though i might know more about the Haunted House but i might have overlook some areas and need reminder but the 2 hor... Man, anyway Qi Hao was tired lah he like never sleep like that... but that GAO YANG REALLY NEED TO BOX HIM... *angry* all the members busy doing and working the two of them went off for lunch...

Hmm, then it was lunch time and i was busy trying to sort things out in my brain while chasing everyone out of the Auditorium backstage to go have their lunch. Some just refuse to eat... sianz. We did some touch up and the music was up too. Creepy leh... ALL THANKS TO CEDRICK FOR PROVIDING THE WEBSITE!! HaHa!! OH AND Y2 FOR CHOOSING THE SOUNDTRACKS TO DOWNLOAD. Arh.. thank you. welcome. =)

Hmm,Credits go to adi to for bringing his laptop and speaker and nelson for bringing his radio but in the end we didn't use it. radio just serves as a back-up in case we couldn't get the laptop operating. Hmm, the bats are up in the air and i was begging people all over to get them to go back home to get postal paints or whatever so that we can do up the mummy area... well, maybe you can't understand this part.

Luckily, nelson saves the day! He went back home to get the paints. THANK YOU BERRY BERRY MUCH!! Qi Hao, the 2nd I.C., started his lousy art skill and it did come out quite GOOD. Haha!! of course, i got help him leh... Though i did get some comment that it doesn't look like those mummy signs and that ya... just lots of critising...

I got help from people like Alex and Desmond who are experienced people lah not experience in setting up Haunted House but they did help a lot. Jin Guang did praise us a bit... but i can't bother about that because it was only the starting... i wanted to see whether we succeed in scaring people... and it wasn't quite successful and it's all because of... WHO?!?!?! Man, talk about this i HUO DA...

Time was running out and i still remember the 2 ben dan I.C. talking rubbish earlier on that starting of the day. Saying that well, we are still on time... or something like we have plenty of time? alamak i don't know lah basically they mean that we can take things slowly since we've finished what we should have done before time... well, we might be working before time but it doesn't means that later we'll have enough time to complete the other stuff... Alex agreed. MAN, but i couldn't be bothered when i heard that because a lot of things are still not done yet.

We moved all furniture into geisha's room but then move the chairs all back to the mummy's room again... thanks to weslie, yan jie, nelson, wei quan and kelvin for helping me with the moving... it was really really heavy you-know? i almost knocked one stack of chairs down when i was stacking 3 more chairs on that stack of chairs... yes, 3 chairs are enough to kill me... HaHa!! But the guys are pro la they can carry more... the chairs are served as dividers because we can't get enough trashbags to do the job.

THEN, comes the time crisis. we have to finish our make-ups, face paintings and all that within a short period of time and everyone started calling me for help AGAIN. I was running all over searching for stuff and getting everyone their costumes. Aw man, might sound like i very important arh and very BIG right? BUT you never know how stressful i was.

Camilia the geisha... very pale and funny with her red lipsticks. Wee Ting and Maggie were begging me to let them to be in the haunted House and since we have got 2 missing people because they suddenly cannot make it... (WITHOUT INFORMING ME EARLY!!) i got Wee Ting and Maggie to replace them and so we got 2 juons.

We have a very nice mummy... i really love the mask and the toilet papers... and 1 grim reaper, played by Yan Jie, the silent one... 2 Skeleton, Hong Xiang and Timothy... (In the end, they drew themselves into some freaks that don't look like skeleton at all...) and 2 Vampires, weslie and I...

Okay this part is funny, i was handling everyone their costumes and then i put on mine AND I REALISED THAT weslie can't fit the fangs onto his teeth... can la but look out of place because of his buck tooth. Damn funny lah... like sabre tiger... I was forcing myself not to laugh at him but couldn't. Anyway, i know he wouldn't mind, 100% plus guarantee. Frankly speaking, i find his buck tooth damn cute so i was like WESLIE DON'T WEAR BRACES that kind of thing...

hmm, weslie helped Yan Jie paint his face black and HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! It was like -speechless- and Yan Jie out on his specs somemore... hell lah, grim reaper wearing spectacles? Funny leh... but no choice he can't see a thing without his specs. Maggie and Wee Ting were like is this white or pale enough and i was like NO NO NO!!! I wanted it to be damn white de but the face paint sucks.

Hong Xiang and Timothy mah... don't wish to mention about it le lah... draw until like the chracters in star wars? but they don't like exactly like them... i don't know how to describe the two freaks.

Hmm, then we have got rehearsals and it's was totally screwed up. Damn. Practice makes perfect but not everything is perfect. HaHa!! Ambiguous hor? Anyway, everything is screwed up, okay? I was angry but then glad to have rehearsald because then i made some amendments and it was quite good after the modification.

My temper wan't quite good when i have some problems later on of the day... because i couldn't get everyone to lsiten to my instructions AND THEY JUST SIMPLY SPOIL THE WHOLE ATMOSPHERE OF THE HAUNTED HOUSE MAKING THE PATRONS FEELING NOTHING WHEN ENTERING IT!!! DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN!!! *angry again*

Again, camilia knew my temper was rising and when i told her to do this, she did accordingly. HaHa!! Thanks arh if not i scared i might just bao at her... i don't wish to bao at my sister. =) I bao at a few because they simply can't follow instructions but glad to say they were not angry with me... Ya, you guys don't know hor? 'coz you're not in the haunted house team.

Then comes the part where by i BAO BAO BAO BAO BAO. hahaha!! the Santa girl keep coming in... i was glad to see her entering the haunted house once as patrons then later she keeps coming in with gao yang. HELLO? hell lor. i mean she comes the first time to experience the creeps but the second, third, forth and fifth time she just came in and ruin the whole thing!!! Damn la.

She did apologise but there she goes again coming in and chat with gao yang in the Haunted House. Want to chat go out chat la THIS IS HAUNTSE HOUSE LEH HELLO?? VERY VERY ANGRY WITH GAO YANG. i did told him to get out but he keeps bringing people in to mess things out. How are they going to get scared when gao yang keeps talking to them? I was BAO-ING behind the curtains. The Santa girl knew la that's why she apologise.

Then got another time, some patrons came in and then the santa girl and gao yang came in again... DAMN LA... spoil everything lor chatting and laughing... the patrons will epxerience the creeps meh, tell me? i thinki did scream at them lor. hell... and they really spoil everything coz a lot of people came in that's why the whole atmosphere is gone.

And, we can't scare people as we wanted to because the 2 of them are obstructing the way. though it wasn't dark but we still can't identify the patrons so we just kept quiet and i think tha patrons just went out without being scared. ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY!!!! He is like doing nothing but creating trouble and problems!!

Man, i was really disappointed over that especially when i trust that with him around the Haunted House would do a even better job! TRUELY DAMN DISAPPOINTED LAH!! I don't wish to work with him again. He like damn capable when i first got to know him in the end, it's such a disappointment.

Then another problem arises in the midst of the carnival. Fareez another qian bian de... he keep opening the door of the fire exit and peeping in. Many of the times, he just keep coming in from there. I SCOLDED HIM and told him to STOP opening the door because sometimes when he did that a patrons was already in the haunted house and he spoilt everything. GOT ONE TIME WORST LAH he open and enter from the fire exit and a patrons was just infront of him. atmosphere totally ruin and i SCREAM AT HIM AND ASK HIM TO GET OUT OF THE HAUNTED HOUSE!!!

i was very harsh but given a second chance i would have did the same. i was already very frsutrated with gao yang and santa girl and he still keep giving me problems. TELL HIM SO MANY TIMES NOT TO OPEN AND ENTER AND JUST WAIT OUTSIDE THE FIRE EXIT FOR THE PATRONS BUT HE JUST CAN'T GET IT INTO HIS BRAIN!!! WHY DO I HAVE TO MEET PEOPLE WHO ARE THE SAME? CAN'T GET THINGS INSIDE THEIR HEAD THE LEH...

super angry lah... then Adi also got give me a bit of problem. he also wanted to scare people... i tell you why Haunted House got so many people because everyone is interested that's why they joined and they're keen and happy... Adi also wanted to scare people then he don't know want to hide where.... sianz la... lots of explanations needed but anyway everything goes smoothly when it's near ending because we somewhat grasp it... "it" refers to how to scare people.

Alot of supernova campers was very curious about the Haunted House and i guess thus they made a trip there but i guess they ruin it too... 'coz they simply talked a lot and gao yang and qi hao was super talkative when they saw them coming... WAS VERY VERY ANGRY TO SEE THIS KIND OF SITUATIONS. *sigh*

My only shou huo is that i manage to really scare a few and that i learn a lot of people skill... i did tell gao yang if i see him again i'm going to scold him so he better get mentally prepared. i just can't swallow it leh... all the angers. sometimes i think it's good to tell him lor then he knows his flaws... will benefits him too.

There was once 4 kids went in and 2 decided to back-out. HAHAHAHA!! Then, left 1 girl and 1 boy the boy scared lor... want me to accompany him... HAHA!! Funny!! Then, another group... 1 girl and 1 boy... they scream through out and seriously they're frightened by us. FUNNY FUNNY!! Then, gao yang's brother just run across the walkway and we didn't manage to scare him.. this boy arh coward... don't dare to walk... so just run... in the end, still kena frightened by people inside the room... walkway never kena frightened... room got mah...

haiya funny lah but i was very upset to disappoint some people who went in and didn't get the creeps because of all the problems that we faced... (those i previously mentioned... =.="). CHAR!! We got change plan in the midst like throwing lightsticks at the glass panal to hint the geisha (camilia) to come out... and that dumb weslie can't even throw lightsticks properly... =.=" ya he kena wacked by me behind the curtains... because he never aim properly the glass panal and camilia didn't get the hint... in the end geisha never come out then not scary...

Then, hmm, when we didn't have any patrons... it was break time lor... everyone will just walk around the Haunted house and do silly stuff... FUNNY LA then i'll do dumb things. then Hong Xiang and timothy wil play star wars... the 2 siao de lar but how come i join in arh? i must be mad at that time... In the beginning we didn't get patrons so weslie and i actually went down to somewhat advertise... DAMN LAME DE...

We went down from the stairs then everyone was looking at us. WOW!! cool i was stealing the limelight lor... HoHO!!! then we went up and down and up and down using the lift and did something real dumb. we were back facing the lift doors and so, when we reach first floor... everyone outside the lift was staring at us... wearing dumb costumes and fangs...

HAHAHAHA!!! We got do dumb actions like opening our claws and scratching the walls of the lifts... when we turn back after a period of time... we actually saw the cameraman taking photos...!!! HAHAHAHA!!! funny till i canot stop laughing... then we went back coz costume super hot.

At first everyone criticise my costumes when they saw it and say they're not going to wear it... CHAR!! in the end, they still wear and think it's cool i-suppose... HAHAHAHAHA!!! cannot blame lah my home econ though top but i just top because practical is not counted... i top theory only...

HAHAHAHA i never mention that before right? DON'T LAUGH. Not funny hor... though cannot sew but i still can make costume leh... clever smart right? got my sister to help and use fabric glue too la... i did do some sewing but it was bad... if you got wear the costume you shld have notice the flaws...

Then, when it was ending... i got a sudden headache lor and my head was like swelling and my legs are trembling a bit. damn la. sianz... but i still manage to wrap up everything nicely... with everything packed and things carried and stored in the storeroom. =)

I've miss out a lot of details like kelvin dropping by but never kena frightened... (yes, i was chatting with him on msn so i just mention him here lor..) and dumb wei quang hiding behind the door and i kena frightened... DA MA DE... the room damn dark lah then walk in suddenly see one dark human shape thingy behind the door... i screamed out loud and hit him with the majong papers... DAMN HIM... and he say not bad he smart to come up with this... alah alah... bullshit.

And, i was somewhat inspired so i got wei quan to hide behind again and Maggie and Wee Ting to experience it. HAHAHA!! i told them weslie wanted them to help out so they will ahve to go in the room then they kena frightened too!! WHEE!! WHY AM I SO SMART?? Maggie a bit slow but she still screamed super loudly... seriously kena frightened.

Before that yan Jie and Weslie was covering the window with more trash bags to cover up the sun shine and i went in to check in the end... kena frightened. I was like looking at their work then Yan Jie said eh look back or something similar... then saw one dark figure in the mirror... xia dou xia si liao... i screamed damn loud de lah the the two of them laugh until stomach pain... it was weslie standing there... Ya, i wacked him and yan jie. i beat the two of them up. Instead of working, they scare people... qian bian.

okay, end. WOW!! i typed so much? So much to talked about...

Tha Last Christas Chapter 8

25th December '06
Monday
11:10PM

Yup, it's causing lots of commotions now. Sianz... But i'm feeling a lot better after listening to some music. So, when you're angry, listening to music sure helps but when you're sad, i suggest you do other things lor... 'coz listening to music doesn't help depression. Hah!

Shall continue my sotong chapters tomorrow. Today, i've got to practice a bit of Don't Know Why and Stand By Me. I'm going back to school tomorrow. Pray hard everyone learns their part well and tomorrow we'll sound good.

Now, i'm wondering what to get for weslie though it's a bit too late but well, he did get me a birthday present. Erotic books? Undergarment? Pron magazine? Porn VCD? Or just some cheapskate stuff? ya lor, since i'm broke now.

And, his birthday present for me also quite meaningless... some pooh chief. i just dump it somewhere in my cupboard... it's still there collectings dust. Still, it's because i don't want to dirty it la... and using it too many times means will need to wash many times... and it will also means might tear easily after washing too many times...

Broke. Broke. Broke. Sianz...

The Last Christmas Chapter 7

25th December '06
Monday
1.34 AM

No choir today and to those who sent me SMS, i apologise for not replying. My phone sort diao again... Hah! The sim card can receive calls... can call out... BUT CANNOT sms. Damn... I'm going to fix it tomorrow la, don't worry. I told you i've been very very sway lately. Now, i have got no mood to continue my garyn's chapters because i'm so mad. I'm venting my frustration here... now... once and for all... it's going to be very very crude so don't read it. I WARN YOU...

don't read it. don't read it Don't Read It. Don't Read It. DON'T READ IT.

DON'T READ IT. STOP READING NOW. STOP READING NOW.

DAMN YOU IDIOT FREAKO!! you think you're so great huh? know nothing and you can crap all you want. WHO DO YOU THINK THE HELL ARE YOU? FUCK OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! If weren't my HP sort diao... i would have sms you a warning... well, you might say i've no courage to call you... but will the fucking you receive the call? and i wonder what i might say to you if i ever call you... i might just start swearing.

I'm not going to swear infront of you lah since you're older and as some one younger than you, i shouldn't be rude BUT JUST TO TELL YOU I'LL SMS YOU A REMINDER TO REMIND YOU THAT YOU'RE STILL A LOT YOUNGER THAN MY MUMMY AND HOW DARE YOU SAID SUCH RUDE THINGS?!?!?!?!?! FUCK YOU YOU YOU YOU!!! damn you. Bai tuo lah get things clear before you want to trash things out okay? BY assuming can get you killed BY ME!!

Yup, you might be older than me by one years old but don't you think you should do some reflections... having someone younger than you to teach you how to respect the elderly? AND PLEASE HOR, you're embarassing your parents... and creating havoc in the family. Furthurmore you're big enough to think but i just don't understand how come you did such a thing. WHAT A DISGRACE TO YOUR FAMILY. and i'm so ashame of you... ashame of myself to have someone like you as my cousin.

My mummy is right. She said if i ever do such a thing she would have given me one big tight slap on my face. I think she's right about that and I WOULD NEVER EVER DO SUCH A THING!!! If my future children were to do something like that too, i guess for me, one big tight slap wouldn't be enough... i would have chase them out of the house!!! BE ASHAME OF YOURSELF and just let me see how are you going to face the rest of the family in the future... ... I'M STILL FUMING MAD...

Not mad about the money. MAD JUST BECAUSE OF YOUR ATTITUDE WHEN YOU TALK TO MY MUMMY!!! WHAT DO YOU THINK WE ARE?? Though we're not rich but we're not those people who take advantage of others... DUMB ASS!!! BITCH!!!! TA MA DE NI QU SI LA!!!! Not respecting you anymore... and well you better not appear infront of me in the future... i'm not giving you any hao lian se kan... RUDE GIRL.

I never expect you to do something like that... BUT I KNOW YOU'RE SOMEONE LIKE THAT LAH RIGHT FROM THE START WHEN I KNOW YOU... I'm not going to recognise you as my cousin. NOT ANYMORE!!! You're such a bad role model. so what if you're from JC? Man, you can't even handle such situations calmly...

shen me dou bu zhi dao jiu luan luan lai... just shut up if you don't know anything okay? you're old enough le lor... want someone younger to teach you such stuff... zhen shi @!$!%#%!@#!$!$!@$$!%$#%!#!#$! @#%@%@$!#!#%!%^@$!$#!#$ @#%#$^%#&^@$#^#$^# @#$%$^$%@%!#!%#!% @#$#&%#%@#$!

QI SI WO LA!!!!!!! I NEED A PUNCHING BAG NOW LA!!!! My mummy must be real upset now la... and my father shall never know this or he's going to be real real real angry AND EXPLODE!!!! WANG BA DAN!!!! man, someone teach me more crude word, this girl really hor... should sneeze till her nose drop...!!! serves her right.

FUCK OFF.

Man, this is the first time i ever scolded so many f-word. i apologise but i can't help it. just imagine someone hurt your family member... not violence la but just words... sometimes, words can be more hurtful than pysical attacks... and worst of all, i only know all these when i reach home. IF I WERE TO KNOW IT EARLIER... ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Turning so violent... piss... man, i'm still super duper extremely ultimately absolutely DAMN FREAKING ANGRY, MAD, CROSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! okay, the more i say, the more angry i'm getting... stopping now. I'm not going to sleep well tonight. SHIT. SHIT YOU SHIT YOU SHIT SHIT SHIT YOU YOU YOU!!!!!

The Last Christmas Chapter 6

21 December '06
Thursday
11.43 PM

Hmm, so sorry, i coudn't afford time to blog and of course my dumb internet connection was down yesterday. Now can lah but don't know when will go sort diao again... Anyway, let's continue my sotong chapters...

Hmm, yes, meeting sotong at the airport was certainly quite a tough challeng so i've to make some sacrifice in order to get myself to the airport. Lying. Man, a very painful experience but if i were given a second chance to choose again. i would have lie again. *sigh* Was talking to Calcium while trying very hard to think of a way to get home after the trip to airport and Calcium somewhat enlightened me and made me feel happier.

HaHa!! Nice friend i've got. And i then decided not to think of anything first but to get to the airport and see garyn first then i'll think of a way to get home. Either by cab or bus... just GO AND THINKING NOTHING OF THE CONSEQUNCES. And, i did make planings before leaving the house.

First, i get my sister involved. Get her to stay up late and if i were to make it back home, i could sneak in with her opening the door for me. Then, i would leave the house early to check if the nightrider bus is really available not... just in case... And, i would bring sufficient money though i'm broke) to make sure that it's enough for a cab trip back home. A lot of preaprations done la...

Hmm, oh and finally with cedrick's assurance that he would ask if his father could lobang just one more person back home. HoHo!! Got lots of back-up plans huh? HaHa!! Just in case mah... Singaporean very kia su de. Hmm, okay theni set off to the airport.

Man, when i left the house it was only 7 plus i-think and i met cedrick at tampines mall... he was about to get himself a black long sleeve shirt for his next day performance. Boo!! I can't afford to attend the concert and well, i've to go my granny's house anyway.

He was dumb. Very dumb. Not dumb lah... should be sway... hahaha... Buy things got budget de right? especially when we're super broke. poor people tend to have budget when they buy stuff. And he wanted to get himself the cheapest he could ever find BUT it doesn't have his size. TOO BAD!! HaHa!! we went around searching for the most economic price but well he still end up getting the 28 bucks if i don't remember wrongely.

Okay, i'm moving very slowly... but more detailed then anyone i-hope. Hmm, shall talk about bao hui and ah lian hor... the two MODERN LADIES... LATE HOR!! I'll never forget that... hahaha... if my internet connection not down tomorrow then it will be up tomorrow... Keep reading!!! Bye!!

The Last Christmas Chapter 5

20 December '06
Wednesday
1.04 PM

This blogger thingy is giving me problem. I keep entering error pages... hmm, nevermind alas i'm finally able to blog. Later, i'll be going back to school again. And, then in the evening, i'll be going to TECC Mac. Yes, due to soe circumstances, i've no choice but to get everyone involved in haunted house together to hold a Emergency Super Duper Urgent meeting. *sigh* I really hope things can go a bit smoother...

Yes, i've not been given the chance to blog about GARYN. *Sigh* Now i'm at home, with a clearer mind... i miss him soooooooo much lah. Sometimes, i wonder if that would happen to my Singapore friends not... Conclusion is, depends. HaHa!! True leh. If anna and camilia, sure i miss like shit de though now school holidays we can't meet up much. Man, and worst still i can't imagine after sec. 4 we might go to different school. Nightmares. Don't want leh, i want same school leh. Don't want to think about that le lah, so sad. ='( Don't want to go different school... Don't want... Don't want... Don't want... Argh!

Man, Garyn, hmm, shall start blogging about it now? Mine is going to be a very long entry.

First Day.
Before Garyn actually came, i was squeezing my brain juice till it really dries up and refused to give in till the last minute. Yes, know why? Because his flight is arriving late at night and you think my mummy let? Char! 100% plus guarantee a NO because before that day i went out too much. Wait, but that was due to work. I emphasis it again... DUE TO WORK.

And thus, i lied to her that i was actually having some dumb SL chalet and has to stay overnight for just one night. She won't understand even if i tell her the truth. Took one look at her before i left the house... she has got the... i-don't-believe-you face. Mind, can't be bothered. But seriously not can't be bothered.. is afraid to think too much... it was the first time i've ever made such big lie. Bad girl, ying ying. Bad girl. Naughty. Liar! Aw... guilty.

Nevermind, mummy just can't understand. Xi Guan Jiu Hao. I look through the internet... found nightrider bus service... Man, the first time in my life i've ever heard of this... Singapore got such things one meh? It operates from 11.30 PM to 4.30 AM leh. Kinda shock but also relieve... because that means i've bus to go home after seeing garyn at the airport. =)

Then, lots of things happened that makes me change my mind and put that nightrider bus service as a backup plan. I've decided to stay at the airport instead. And, you don't expect me to stay alone at the airport doing nothing till the next morning? So, i tried to get my friends lor... and none is available. SEE, my friends. HaHa!! Cannot blame lah if they ask me, i also cannot de lor...

Shheeeeeeshh... tired la... buay tahan liao... i'll slowly slowly finish up Day 1 entry. HaHa!!

The Last Christmas Chapter Five

18 December '06
Monday
2.26 PM

Ya, i'm going crazy. BOO!!! After this Christmas Carnival, i'm skipping all the meetings until the next event (Supernova 2007) come close since i've promised to help out. Sheeeeeesh... i can't believe something like that would happen lor. Bullshit, so many things clashed and happened, causing me to have a sleepless night yesterday. I shall not torture myself furthur after this Christmas Carnival. BOO!!!

My Gor Gor is camping-hiking at Bukit Timah Jungle today... SO FUN!!! HaHa!! Sianz... So busy i can't blog properly, clearly and freely. Have to rush my blogging today. Ya, blogging now in case i burst. Sotong! I'm going to blog about it... maybe some times later... have to finish up my Haunted House stuff and rushing my Choir Stuff and my undone HOMEWORK AND REVISION!!!

Kill Me Bah!! Stop telling me the bad news. I'm so sick of it. BLEH!! Shhhhhh...

The Last Christman Chapter Four

17 December '06
Sunday
11.39 PM

A day without Sotong is really weird now. HaHa!! I spent the rest of my day thinking about the days we spent together. Man, this is awful. I miss those moments everyone came together and bring him around. Though i'm the least TB, but the definition of TB = teenagers who follows the latest fad or craze, as in dress or music. Ya to TB, i-guess it doesn't mean that. It means opening your eyes big, tilt your head down 45 degrees and stare at the horizon + sucking/biting the tip of your thumb. BOO!! HaHa!!

Oh who's sotong? hahaha Shit man, i was like sotong-ing here and sotong-ing there but no one knows who sotong is. Okay, now i shall reveal the real identity of sotong. actually you guys should be able to guess it because it's so pretty damn easy la. Garyn lor. BOO!! Everyone knows he's a sotong though he can read maps much better than me and got me back when both of us were lost in vivo. HAHAHA!! Okay, i'm making myself sound so dumb.

Man, sometimes i find adults so scary so that makes me wonder and hestitated to grow up. I don't want to live a life like the adults. we should all learn how to forgive and forget or you'll be living in pain. Adults tend to take things too seriously thus they can't let go.

My mummy is trying to dig-dig my privacy and uncover all my secrets... Hell~ So sianz... Don't care lah since i've no the boy-boy she's suspecting... BOO!! She'll never trust me so i'll just let her do her own ways unless she's too extreme then i'll stop her... i'm too busy to bother anyway... HaHa!! Busy Busy... I'm dead and so stop stressing me, okay?

The Last Christmas Three.

16 December '06
Saturday
11.22 PM

As Sunday is approaching... in 40 minutes time, something is welling up deep inside of me and i feel so 'soaking wet' all of a sudden. Hmm, speechless now. Boo!! Shall finish up my stuff and sleep early... ... ... i've lots to say BUT i can't put them into words. Damn. Forget it.

The Last Christmas Chapter Two

15 December '06
Friday
11.13 AM

Time passes so fast. HaHa!! I was sneezing yesterday after i came back and had a bath. Boo!! Now, it's coming again EARLY MORNING?!?! Whatever. Hmm, I'm falling in love with Christmas songs. These few days out of my homebitterhome, i heard so much christmas songs being played in malls, shops and many many other places. It was really really nice and i've bought M-Pact's album - Christmas Collection. Listening to "Away in the Manger". This might not catch anyone's attention because the climx wasn't very extreme but the lyrics and the way they sang... Oh My Goodness! HaHa!! Without a cappella, i believe it won't catch much people's attention. It was really really great. I'll try to get the song up here so that you guys can listen to it. =) I hope i succeed.


AWAY IN THE MANGER

Away in a manger, no crib for a bed,
The little Lord Jesus laid down his sweet head.
The stars in the sky looked down where he lay,
The little Lord Jesus asleep in the hay.

The cattle are lowing, the baby awakes,
But little Lord Jesus no crying he makes.
I love Thee, Lord Jesus, look down from the sky
And stay by my cradle til morning is nigh.

Be near me, Lord Jesus, I ask Thee to stay
Close by me forever, and love me, I pray.
Bless all the dear children in thy tender care,
And take us to heaven, to live with Thee there.

The Last Christmas Chapter One

14 December '06
Thursday

Wa!! SO damn fast lah it's Thursday! I've been spending all my holidays without any revision and i didn't even touch my homework! Boo! Congratulations!

Just to advertise for my Christmas Carnival...

Event: The Joy of Christmas OR The Joyful Christmas (Either one... man, i forgot lah but one of them should be correct.)

Time: 2pm to evening

Price: S$5 per person

Date: 23rd December '06 (Saturday)

Special: Ever find Haunted House in a Christmas Carnival? (Not many have it right? We Have It!)

HoHoHo... And, *sigh* I'm Broke Broke Broke and Broke... Later i'll be going ikea and vivo city to catch a movie. I swear i shall spend less then 10 bucks today. Anyway, i still got that bloated feeling though cedrick was cured long ago. Man, what's happening? Of course, i'm feeling certainly better as i find my appetide recovering but still, the bloated feeling lingers around... ... ... *point to my stomach and mouth*. somewhere there...

I do hope they will find time to costume shop because it was SO MUCH FUN LAH... There were so many costume and the people there were freaks... HaHa!! They might not know you but alamak... they'll just somewhat 'tease' you out of a sudden? Haiya i don't know how to explain la... Maybe when i have the time to.

BUT COSTUME SHOP SO FUN LOR but i only manage to get a very nice vampire fang and i gave it to Sotong instead. Man, i want one for myself... but well, since sotong is leaving i'll let him have it first. And, kaoz... i have to plead and beg and 'sa jiao' to get it de lor. Bodoh!

Tell you guys more when i'm free... OH YA anyone knows how to make costume? Make robes? I got the material but need people to do it for free... HeHe... Call me if you can hor... Arigato.

The Entry of the Dead 30.

12 December '06
Tuesday

Hmm, well, i've decided not to stop this blogging habit because it's actually used as a memory space to help someone like me suffering from short term memory to still have memories. Okay lame.

I'm still feeling so #$%^$%^#%&$%$^$%&$^$ after trying to keep myself busy these few days. guess i was still unable to calm down. i can still talk, laugh, sleep, eat and do my work... living shouldn't be a problem but... i couldn't explain it. The something that is tangling around here and there. And, i couldn't explain this here-and-there thingy. HAHA!! Luan ARH!!

Man, i'll just have to bear with it for a few more days and see if things turn out well or remain the same lor... quite worried about my won condition.

Hmmm, ya i've so much problems that makes me feel so vulnerable and weak. Hate it. How i wish i could just grow up now... sometimes i can't see the path leading to my future. sometimes, i tried to turn back. So Mao Dun.

Oh one more thing before i go off. After yesterday's game, i woke up today to find my whole body aching like hell and the most painful part was my butt. HaHa!! The ache stretched from my butt to my thighs. Damn la. i guess cedrick shld be experiencing th same thing as me because we played badminton without shoes. Barefoot la and thus, it's more challenging la and it's related to my aches today. Just use your brain and think or you would like to suft the net...??

However, when i saw him outside TECC today, he seemed alright. i wonder if he was only faking it... HaHa!!! Let's ask him later...

The Entry of the Dead 29.

Stuck here at home with my brother. Speechless too much to explain and no one ever understands and shall not talk about it anymore. And, i don't see people tagging me now. HaHa!!! Maybe i'll close this down. So sad...

The Entry of the Dead 28

10 December '06
Sunday
10.30 PM


Yo this is bad. Maybe i'm running out of time to finish my things. YEC arh YEC... man those people in my group doesn't have time for purchasing. BOO!! Nevermind i've tried to take it down... but hey!! Sotong is here leh and because of all these i cannot go stalk-stalk. Suan le, HaHa... all these are unavoidable. Just look on the bright side of life... Lame. =.=

Hmm, i've said i'll talk about Anna's birthday celebration but i didn't so i'll finish it now. Whheee!!

We went to celebrate her birthday last wednesday and camilia has got date on that day so she went to watch a movie and went to meet us after her movie. Met anna and camilia and i was late for 3 minutes. Ooops!! Hahaha!! I've lied to Anna that we're going to watch a movie at Jurong East but it was so obvious that we're going there to ice-skate. Duh! We knew that she will reject it straight away if we were to tell her the truth... and seriously when we reach there... we have to drag her in then she agreed. HaHa!! I was pretty exhausted but i insisted.

Camilia was broke and was left with 10 bucks while myself i had quite a sum of money with me... that's to buy some banner stuff.. hey-hey! I'm broke too. So, we went in and Anna was mumbling to herself. Whahahaha!!! She kept giving excuses but i can't be bothered, i've warned her a few months ago she's going ice skating no matter what on her birthday... ... ...

Hmm, let's see and i totally forgot how to ice-skate. The last time i went there, i fell 3 times and hurt my butt. the first two falls were just a little bit painful BUT the last one could kill me and made me faint. HAHAHAHAHA i got blue-black on my butt. Hmm, Anna was great. AW... jealous. She fell once ONLY. Man, she's a potential skater. boo!! HaHa!!

Camilia was trying to recall as hard as she could to balance herself... it was fun for a while but hmm, later after a few hours, i was pretty bored and tensed. Tiring to tense my body because i was afraid to fall... Char! Then, i could skate pretty good... hmm, not pretty good but just able to skate larh... not fast but very slowly... SIANZ...

Camilia hor... char!! she could skate so well lor... NoNo!! I shall practice more if i've got the money to... =o shall see shall see...

we talked a lot on the way back and on the way there and HaHa!! I've found out something... Shhh... that's a secret. Hmm, Anna fell right? i did mention that and she can't get up because it was far too slippery. HaHa!! I laughed at her before trying to get her up skating again. HaHa!! She was very dumb when it comes to getting up again. HaHa!!! Okay, shall not laugh at her... HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! In the end, camilia and i did get her up lar...

can't imagine what will happen if i were to bring her to the middle of the rink and let her fall all her way back... nope i think i'll kena scolding by the person-in-charge there... and i'm not very good either so i think i'll bring her there and we'll fall all our way back... HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

Hmm, went to camilia's house later to get annas present. This camilia lor... so blur. She forgot to bring the present leh... BOX HER!! Okay lah i think she's smart not to bring the present out or else we might have to spend one more dollar on the locker just to lock the present in to prevent it from being stolen at Fuji Ice Palace.

Eh, then we took a bus home. Can't remember which bus we took home but the day was really really fun... HoHoHo!!! It was Anna's birthday that bring the 3 of us together again lor... *sigh* HaHa!! and we met the next day to get anna's present change. The shoe can't fit her feet!! Mine... nevermind, now i know the size of Anna's foot and Camilia's too. Wheeee!!!! HoHo!!!

Okay, the end. =) =) I'm whining a lot right? Shit. HaHa!! The End.

The Entry of the Dead 27.

Hmm, i've found ways that i can fetch sotong. Ya, cedrick's dad de car sure cannot squeeze so many of them de so i won't be able to go... Yes, because sotong will arrive at aroun 11.40 PM which is super duper late then doubt there will be any transport. So the story continues... then, at first they suggest i don't go and i see that like the only option. BUT after thinking about it, i rather stay alone at the airport then not seeing sotong. i don't want any regrets in my life. Yes, i know i'll regret not going to the airport so well, might as well i stay at the airport after that lor.

Anyway, this is only option one. I've search the web and found out about nightriders bus. it operates from 11.35 to 4.35 in the morning so i guess i'll be able to take that home once i reach tenah merah ineterchange... i might have to take a cab from changi airport... to tenah merah interchange then take bus from tenah merah interchange back home lor. This is option no. 2. =)

I'll be broke by then lah but i hate regretting. Okay? spending money on this, i'm sure i won't regret. HaHa!! Hmm, option no. 3 is similar to option no. 1 i'll get some friends (near the adulthood or who's parents alow them to stay over night) to stay at the airport with me till morning lor!! Then, i won't feel bored. HaHa!!! I'm smart right? Now, i'm asking around lah...

So, anyone can just tell me whether you can make it tonight not... call me at 67845155. Arigatogozaimasu! Or just simply tell me online lor via msn lor. Haha!! Ya, i'm looking things at a postive side... i guess in the past i would have cried silently at home. Now, i'll think of ways to solve problems. =) growing up. good or bad?

The Entry of the Dead 26.

Whee!! I'm currently learning how to cherish people around me. Well, you might say wouldn't it be too late to start now? Hell lah, just want to explain that i long know this logic or whatever you call it but i'm unable to grasp the "meaning". I don't really know how to explain.

Previously, i was doing the wrong way. I tried to treasure them but well, sad to say it was tough. I may look like i was showing concern and all the stuff but it was only on the surface, and it doesn't comes from the heart.

Now, things are getting easier because i'm enlightened. HaHa!! How you know when you're enlightened? You'll feel naturally happy when you really cherish them lor. Not like asking yourself or just trying to force yourself to cherish people around you. You feel it naturally that you're worried and concerned when your friends or family are feeling troubled or having problems. And when they feel happy, you feel happy with them.

You'll try to tolerate everything and really enjoy spending time together with them. I used to dislike going to my granny's house a lot because i find it boring but now, i learn to adapt and instead to despise or to hate, i learn to like my granny's house. Visiting is such an enjoyable thing to do and i couldn't wait for Sunday to come!!

It was a time, my family and i can get together and really sit down and watch television lor. Even though we have television at home but granny's house was so different. At home, mummy kept herself busy with the housework while my baba simetiems went out to get some stuff. We hardly sit down TOGETHER to watch television. At granny's house, it's different. Mummy has got nothing to do and thus, everyone would get together to watch television lor.

Even though we hardly talk while watching television but this get-together was really very relaxing. We laugh together or boo together, following the Tv Show lor. If it's about something lame or funny, we would laugh together and talk a bit about this and that. If it's about something horrible, we would mumble something in our mouth, hoping that the ending would be good.

Whatever it is, i'm still learning... HaHa!! Learn to love. =)

The Entry of the Dead 25.

09 December '06
Saturday
3.14 AM

I make a lot of noises but i couldn't hear any sound... what's happening? Perhaps all was just my own illusion. I may be dreaming since i'm still as stupid as before. Ya, i guess it was time to smarten myself at least a little bit. I'm not upset for being laggy but i'm just upset why i'm always creating trouble and being such a bother to everyone. Duh! Sianz... ignore me next time when i "huh" again. I should try to learn to fake understanding before everyone starts turning away once they see me... HaHa!!

Just one good new! HoHo!! Sotong is coming tonight! Hurray!! Mine Mine and i've made such a super big mistake by... Yes, doing what i shouldn't do... i'll explain once everything's over... HaHa!! Or maybe try lah since i never keep any promise. BOO!!!

The Entry of the Dead 24.

Aw man, i'm here to whine the second time today. So many people are facing so many probems now and they are all so depress and unhappy. It's making me feeling so blue too. I tried hard to please them, to cheer them but there's no improvement. I sent cards, trying talking to them... but i receive no response. I didn't manage to fulfil my life second objective. I hope to bring happiness to people around me because i find myself revolving around them and if they don't feel happy, i feel so upset for them.

Of course, my first life objective is none other then sharing great music with everyone. I've been keep it up and doing quite an awesome job i-think. My second life objective seems so hard to fulfil. Can everyone please cheer up? Cheer up, please! Or maybe you would like to pour all your troubles or problems to me? I would like to know, even if i won't be able to help, but i guess sharing your problems with someone will help a lot lor. At least i can understand a bit. Don't people wish that others can understand you a bit?

Hmm, pray hard everyone's life i going smoothly. even if it's not smooth now, at least a bit smoother to give them a space to breathe. Nowadays, changes are occuring every single second. You never know what wil happen next...

I'm feeling so blue lah. I think i'll dream some horrible monsters tonight. Cheer Up, People! You will always have my support! And, i will change too. i will try not to be too frank. Hmm, haha.

The Entry of the Dead 23.

Plain Broke. HaHa!! Can't find any job this December Holidays and after thinking, even if i got a job, it must be some night job. (whatever you call it) Haha, that's because i simply can't find time in the morning or afternoon to work. Well, later i'll be going Tampines MRT station to meet Camilia and Anna. Anna's foot lor so big... HaHa!! Her feet cannot fit into the shoe we bought for her.

Superstition. It was said that shoe cannot be given as present. Boo!! Anyway, anna still accepted but gave camilia and i each 2 bucks, taken that she somewhat bought the shoe from us. I believe many many people has received lots of shoe as present le bah... don't tell me they will be sway their whole life or died straight away after that?

Hmmm, if that's the case, the news should ahve reported all these weird stuff happening all arund the world. Today i had another dream. It was about ancient times whereby i got shot my an arrow but feel no pain. So Lame. I wonder why i keep dreaming everyday. Perhaps this is the reaon why i can never sleep well or enough. *sigh*

My cell phone is faulty. Sending it to repair. I hope people who send me SMS will not find me dao for not replying. Not my fault, okay? Char!!

I'm going to behave myself thes few days so that i can tell my mummy the truth that i can stay out late on Saturday. If not, she won't let me step out of the house de. And, how to handle her? This mummy of mine is super super smart i-tell-you. Don't see her blur-blur de hor, she think de leh...

Of course, she's not as birlliant as Mrs Chua. Mrs Chua is real smart most probably because she went to university. I believe if my mummy studied in the university, i'll suffer a lot because i'll have more restriction. HaHa!!

I've invited my mummy to the christmas carnival on the 23rd of december '06. By doing so, she will know the reasons for me being so damn busy during the holidays. Char! I'm smart, right? HoHo!! Knew it.

Damn, anyone wants to help cedrick buy his Hou Lou Meng's Ticket? It cost around 21 bucks. Please help, if not just replace him for his skeleton job. =)

Eh, garyn is not replying me... Angry with me? Oh Shit. What did i do? Aw Man..., forget it... forget it... see how things go first bah... hmm, if i really angers him... what should i do? Man, this is so tough.

Learning to be a better person... I'm so frank and lousy.

Currently flipping through totto-chan. It's my sister's literature book. Haha!! I know a lot of my friends read it liao but not me. It's interesting... with a little sense of humour. I'll finish it... ya. Today's a little depressing but i shall try not to fall into depression again. it's simply too tiring.

The Entry of the Dead 22.

Plain weird. I woke up with aches all over my body. I was wondering what i did yesterday to deserves all these. HUH? And, that dumb music software hor... hell~ Now, i've to start everything again... Aw man, kill me. Now, i'm stalking everyone to send them each a few songs. Just to advertise lor... i hope to share music with everyone but i hope after hearing it, they will find it nice and go buy their album. I'm not going to send them the whole album OKAY? Alamak.

I met a very ma fan person... you know who you're.... Hmmm, so now everyone is very crazy over Princess Hours? I've already get over with it liao then you guys now super obsessed with Princess Hours. SO LAG! HaHa!! I was wondering what i wanted to blog today and i forgot.

Now that i remember, it's about my latest dream. The worst nightmare. Not very convinient to tell you guys everything but it's not wet dream. (Aw! SO sad...) Hmm, it was really a nightmare and the dream was so super super real. I sobbed hard deep in my heart when then in the dream, i controlled my etars from falling out. Damn. When i wanted to wake up, i could feel myself feeling so lost.

This is the first time i've ever feel so super duper extremely, absolutely, ultimately lost. And, it happened in a dream. I hope it was just to prepare me for future and that it's not going to happen in the future. I won't be able to accept that. Maybe i could, but i think, my heart is going to tear or simply just break into a million pieces and never going to piece itself together again.

The main character that was in this dream is none other than me, myself, him and her. Aw man, ya really cannot say. It has been quite a long time since i saw him and her and i ... whatever. I hate feeling lost. So, i pray hard no such dreams will ever turn into reality. Please!! Oh please!!!

Okay, shall not talk about that anymore and since my com is so super lag now, i shall talk about anna's birthday celebration tomorrow. HoHo!! See Ya~!! Gdnite!

The Entry of the Dead 20.

Hell~ Kill Me NOW!! I've finished Don't Know Why... But save wrongly when i attempted It's You. Now, Don't Know Why is GONE!! And left the not even half-complete It's You. Argh!!! Suay leh press wrong button... click... dumb mouse.

The Entry of the Dead 20.

Currently listening to Night and Day sung by m-pact. I have not gotten over them. Great musicians are always added into my hero list. +)

Yesterday burn midnight oil for Don't Know Why composer stuff but still can't finish... i shall finish it by today. I swear! Oh Ya, and people are so nice to me these days, i feel so not secured. HaHa!! Pity me arh? Haiyo, don't know what to say leh... speechless.

Hmm, today was a day of "adventure". First was going to TECC to deco the lobby. Hmm, not very satisfied with my work la... and the place doesn't really "shines" after the deco... very plain. However, i did have fun and at the same time, bore me half a day. I was wondering what i can do if i were to have my computer with me during the boring times... I can do lots of things! *sigh* Anyway, i did manage to play basketball. Whoooz!

It's been such a long time since i last touch basketball. Fun Fun Fun!! Oh ya and we met a thief and called the cops. Hmm, what can i say about Singapore cops? Very Very *cough cough*... but it was the first time i have to undergo such situation... i felt like a grown-up now. Having to decorate the TECC governemt properties) and meeting such situations... NO!! Don't want!

Basketball was so fun i shall love it form now onwards. HeHe... Oh Ya found out that that janan long still blocked me after so many years. i guess he has forgotten that he has blocked me. Bodoh! Suan le... HaHa!! End of today's entry. I'm following my plans now... living happuly cheerfully and full of energy though i'm tired. HoHo!!

The Entry of the Dead 19.

Fear. I went to the choir workshop remember? My result was very different from many others. While others are more to one personality, mine goes out to all 4. Now, i'm fearful to lose the sense of security. This a cappella thingy here is giving me problem. While mrs chua said that i can plan, but have trouble following my plans, i see myself having no troubles in following them. The problem now doesn't lies on me but my fellow choir mates who has been demoralising me. I'm not giving up. We must at least try even if we're not going to make it. I don't want to live my life with regrets.

Don't know why is a hard piece but i think with some help and all our hardwork and faith, we can do it. It's possible.

Anyway, i've got an announcement to make. STOP SENDING ME SMS if possible because my phone is now faulty after landing in a puddle of water in the toilet at tampines mall. *sigh* Stop laughing... =.= Stop laughing... Haiya nevermind lah, no phone also not bad... mummy won't be able to contact me when i'm out! Hah! Maybe all these are destined so that i won't feel too stress... holy!

Today's Anna's birthday! HoHo!! Otanjobi Omedeto! Whee!! HaHa!!

The Entry of the Dead 18.

Starting a new... Regardless whether it's going to be bad or good, i'm still living and i can make a difference! Well, shall lead my life happily and cheerfully and positively and super full of energy!!

About the dark side of my life, i shall not blog it here anymore. =)

The Entry of the Dead 17.

Exhausted. There are too much to do. Too much to digest. To much to take in. Need a break. I need to sleep! HaHa!! Hell~

P.S. Shazlin, if you've visited my blog, please tag! Welcome~

Hmm, since i still can't sleep now because the lights are still on... i shall blog. Hmm, these few days i'm totally living just like a living corpse. Gotten not much sleep and i still have to do these and that. I may sound busy but i still manage to find some free time for other things. =) I'm such a great person. And the reason for being so tired is not because i've too much to do.

Though i've always make myself sounds busy and have many many things to do... to me lah (mentally...), i've never find the things i've in hand overloading. I'm very happy and pleased to have things to do you-know? I don't like to waste my life away without doing anything. So, the reason for being so exhausted is because i'm expiencing very very bad insomia. I may get to lie on the bed at 10 pm, but i can only get to sleep at around 3am? (around that time.) and i have to wake up very early the next morning. Then, the next night is another sleepless night i've to endure. I may feel tired and sleepy but due to some reasons, i JUST CAN'T GET MYSELF TO SLEEP!!

infuriating isn't it? *sigh* Yes, i'm troubled and that's why i cannot sleep. Mine! I need someone to share my problems but that someone should be a stranger. A stranger that no friends will know him/her. A stranger that will not leak any any any things that i've pour out... to anyone. A stranger that will find best solutions to my problem. A stranger that will direct me and guide me through this whole horrible situations i'm entangled in.

Nevermind, that perfect stranger is so hard to get, i don't pin any hope to get one. I'll just have to let nature takes its course... Bah!

Oh Ya!! I woke up at 3pm in the afternoon. Feeling refreshed, at least a bit. I missed the morning activity. HaHa!! Luckily camilia never kill me. She's never ever going to resort to violence. Only i will do that... HaHa!! Yes, i'm suppose to meet a group of 3e7-ners to buy some BBQ stuff and i overslept for 5 hours! Wozzzz!! Cool Me. Never get any scoldings. They are too lenient.

Shazlin was great. HaHa!! I almost cried when she asked... hmm ho-hum. hahaha... Yes, i do need some comfort at times. Too much is bad of course. Hope you duys don't understand. HaHa! Lame.

Hmm, BBQ was great! I bet cedrick is going to regret for his life FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO ATTEND THIS BBQ. HoHo!! Poor cedrick. We had so much fun. It was successful. I'm such a great cook. I've the potential to be a cook. No, stop rejecting my food. No one believes that the food i cooked was edible until when Jing Ping tried and find it better then the ones Hong Xiang cooked. Da-Ta! Too think Hong Xiang said he has been cooking for 2 years and i only know how to cook instant noodles! Bleh!

Eh, play that twisting game so many times i'm going to suffer from spine disorder or muscles cramp or whatever. Camilia was so flexible next time when we have maths test and forgot to bring flexible curves... we'll just use camilia as a substitute. HaHa! This is super super LAME. =.+

Hmm, oo Poor Jing Ping has just recovered from food poisoning so OH NO! She can't eat too much BBQ food because you-know sutdents' cooking skill not very pro (unliek mine!) and thus the food can't be trusted. Aiya in short, she scared the food not cooked and she might suffer again...

I ate a lot, cook a lot, laugh a lot, took a lot of photos, blink a lot (due to the fire), and scream a lot (to get everyone's attention and because of dominic's lame ghost story...). Fun Fun Fun, next time we can have another one similar to this. Good to know that everyone is not staying overnight. I think don't stay overnight is a good thing lor... Don't you think so too? HaHa!!

Have not been talking too much on my life lately partly because i was lazy and ya... ho-hum. So, i'm grumbling a lot now.

Eh, let's see... we went home at aroung 10.30 with everyone running about, screaming about, holding hands because we're so afraid to see something... bahaha! SO lame. i was afraid to look around too because i was so afraid so afraid so afraid to see... Oh My Goodness... shall not mention. I hope Hong Xiang and Dominic's ears will feel a slight pain after tonight... Mine! Balem themselves for pointing at the moon.

Took a lot of photos and i want to scream at those who touched my camera... Oily hands arh... now my camera is so super oily lah... Ooops! Not mine, my mummy's... Shit You Guys. I'll get nagged for all these... Boo!!

Eh, will post the photos here and at class blog and then, you guys will know more lor... haha!!

Now, will be yesterday's happenings...

Yesterday's choir was great. We met 2 guys who made the entire workshop fun fun fun! I've been back to my normal self everytime i step into choir. I don't wish to spoil the whole fun with my problems so i just focus on the workshop. After the end of the workshop, i really can't tahan anymore. Tired, tired, tired. Man... went to YEC meeting one hour later... Reached late and yet the meeting has not started...

Hmm, did some stuff and has no energy to talk much. I hope to reserve them for meeting later on mah... my eye bags are OMG super dark and huge. I can feel myself slightly floating... HAHa!! I can still joke when it's necessary but i'm not focussing man. Beginning was still okay, i was updated with all the information and changew qi hao has made and discuss with the group members the thigns we need to do and all the stuff la... until when it was quite long after did i feel myself unable to process information...

Horrible. I need people to repeat their statements 4 to 5 times. I can only smile foolishly when they were talking to me... Damn. Well, that's because i know i'll be asking them to repeat for so many times, they're going to feel so fed up. A smile on my face hoping they won't lose their patience too fast. =)

Hmm, they talked about lots of funny things that i'm unable to understand. felt so alien and outcast? Talked to bernice. Wow! She's a nerd! NTU's student. Clever lah... She's super kind lor i-must-say. Hahaha!! A friendly person. I only know we can leave after 45 minutes. Meaning we can actually leave but i don't know until 45 mintues later... Never say louder... i can't hear one lor. Kaoz...

And thus, that 45 minutes... i find myself listening to nonsense and mumblings that i can only understand part of it... example, "hey! this is... ... ... i like it lor!!". HaHa!! Not a full sentence. And they talked a lot a lot of bullshit. From BGR i-guess, to squid... to chanting spells, to haiya, i don't know lah... Many many very very weird topics. Anyway, i was sitting there listening and reading some stuff and wasn't really involved in their conversation. Funny bunch of people.

However, there are some things i don't think i should mention here. =) Well, conclusion is that YEC people arh... there are good-ies and bad-ies la... no one is ever perfect. =)

Sa-yo-Na-nLa (pronounce: Sa-Yo-Na-nLa) with the more emphasize on "N".

The Entry of the Dead 16

1st December '06
Friday
6.13 PM

I was sobbing hard yesterday night. Felt like a weakling and total failure. Well, today is fine. I usually take some time to cool down and go back to normal. Wonder if it's considered as fast r slow. Hmm, today was a fine day. Smooth day. I find choir amazing today though i still feel weird... with a mixture of different feelings lingering here and there... and i couldn't really grab it and figure out what they are...

Eh, i shall need a few days to allow my brain to process all these information then i should be able to understand more and be somewhat MORE enlightened. Today's sec. 4s prom night. Have fun my seniors! HaHa!! I'm feeling so excited for them. Bahahaha!! Next year i wonder if we can have it at our new school hall. I wouldn't mind... you-know? Don't know? Now, you know. (Mdm Yue.)

Later, i'll be visiting TECC again because of YEC meeting... Man, i don't know what will happen... but i'm so tired. Haven't been sleeping well lately due to my narrow mindset. Not really narrow, just that i was defeated by time... and i felt... i don't know how to explain. Hmm, very chim.

Eh choir member, go vvisit choir web to get the photo we've taken today. Okay? HaHa!! For your convinient... i shall leave the link here: http://prsschoir.blogspot.com =)