Basking In Happiness

30th April '07
Monday
2.38PM

Yeah! Today's chinese paper is also another goner! I think i'm really doom this time. For sure, i won't be doing well for the rest of my papers... and looks like my sorethroat has gone worse... dead. I even slept when i was doing paper 2 today. I was so shocked to see myself sleeping i woke up and find my paper not completed yet. Crazy. Luckily i still manage to rush through all questions. TOo bad lah when one is sick hor, she just feels too drowsy to stay awake even when she has to take a test.

Hmmm, and today i realise how creative and innovative taiwanese can be... i've decided to go Taiwan after university... =) Yup, not staying in Singapore but stay at taiwan for a few years, learning things from the Taiwanese, before coming back to Singapore. Coming back to Singapore to visit my family... not for anything else. Sometimes, i find Singapore a country too serious for a fun career. You can excel in many serious jobs in Singapore. Jobs like doctor, pilot, scientist, engineer... but you can't develop your potential or talent here as an artiste, there is no challenges and we're too dead to be as creative as the Taiwanese.

Don't you find our programme losing out to Taiwan? Don't you find out host least outstanding then Taiwanese host? Don't you find our drama series too serious and always based on reality? i'm so sick and tired of our drama series i can never bring myself to support it again... except for the one and only PCK. However, now, we have no more PCK series. Our entertainment industry in Singapore can never make it out compared to Taiwan. So, i'm going to go there for more opportunities.

I still love and will forever love my country of course, just that i find it not challenging enough. Our entertainment industry is always circling around, it's not fun at all and our artiste don't have opportunities to showcase their talent, acting only in reality-based drama series. So bored. So sick. I used to support many of our drama series but that was in the past. Presently, i just hate seeing advertisements about our drama series... don't the artiste feel bored having to act on the same role over and over again? the character prtrayed in the drama series are always the same. same character, same story, stories that you can already guess what will happen next qithout having the need to watch it. It's so serious, you can't laugh out loud and freely you-see?

Television to me is now to relax to help me to divert my attention away from studies... but watching Singapore drama series arh... it's not that i wanted to criticise BUT I TRUELY HOPE there is a bigger change. Don't you agree with me?

We have very outstanding hosts and artiste here but because Singapore's scriptwriter are always writing about reality, the artiste here can never develop their potential to the fullest... they just probably gained more experience in the same role they have taken so many many times. More creativity, please!

Basking In Happiness 12

27th April '07
Friday
9.08PM

Though it is my sister's birthday today, i was in a foul mood. Ugly. Perhaps, it was due to the early morning English Test. Perhaps, it was due to the dumb headache that refuse to go away no matter how hard i tried to have it remove, without violence of course since i can't find any pain killers at home.

My pair of panda eyes that are filled with lethargy and exhaustion. My weak body slouched and leaned against anything that could provide me with support. My head that seemed to lost its balance (haha!!) swinging around, as if it's going to fall from my neck...

My brother as usual is damn mischievious and i just hope i could spank him on his bottom and let him forget about sitting properly the rest of the weekend. My throat is feeling so sore and dry and swallowing saliva means pain. Gosh, to think i've gone through this for the last two days. Noise pollution, disease infection, a swirly-whirly mind... HaHaHa!! Pardon my lousy english... guess i should start polishing my vocabulary and grammar from now on before it's too late.

Hmm, i can't shout or scream at my naughty brother who is now jumping like macaco on the bed behind me. HaHa!! I simply can't bring myself to open my mouth and speak another word. No amount of water can help ease the pain whenever i tried to swallow. Later, i will just take a small piece of cake... if not, it would take forever for me to recover from my sickness.

I'm troubled by lots of things but i don't know why i hope to let someone know but just don't wish to let anyone know all these troubles i have. Okay, this is so funny... i guess i'm just too sick to think properly now. Stupid ah lux still "beg" me to go help out at a event organised for the Tamils... what a friend! Instead of telling me to rest at home, he just keep sweet-talking me into helping out at this event... Well, not sure. 60% i won't be able to make it there, lying on bed and going through the torment of being viciously attacked by some dumb virus or disease... 40% i would go there and do no help but bring trouble.

Bad english... HaHa!! Forget it, since today's English test is a goner! I was so bored to death by the given topics and would just sleep half-way through writing. The clock was ticking away but every seconds seemed to be in hours. i was feeling so strange... with myself feeling terrified for fear that i might be unable to complete the papers in time while at the same time, anxious for the time to pass as quickly as possible so that i could get myself out of this awkward and sick situation and go back home and SLEEP.

Phew! I'm feeling a lot better now, though overcomed by fatigue. Want more sleep but will i be able to sleep? Maybe, i need sleeping pills.

basking In Happiness 11

25th April '07
Wednesday
8.33PM

Aaaaw, got a splitting headache. Still, i'm smiling non-stop, from ear to ear, today when i reach school or even before i reach school. HaHa!!

Hey Sherly!

Fine, fine, you're forgiven. I really hope you can understand. Understand what's the meaning of UNDERSTAND? And i don't wish to treat you like an enemy because hating someone is really tough and tiring and i feel so embarass to be facing someone i've labelled "idiot" or "hated"... it's really a lot better to have more friends then enemies. However, it doesn't really meant that way too because there are people who don't deserve to be forgiven because they have not realised their mistakes yet. Sherly, you're forgiven.

Now, i've got better things to do then to get myself so angry over this matter. I don't know why but someone has been criticising choir members or even comment some very very unpleasant things on the videos i've uploaded about choir. Cutiedragon?

I'm going to find out who is he or she... And, i might even go to the extent to inform the teachers about the happenings and incident happening these days... i simply had enough... OR TO MAKE IT SHORT AND END IT FAST, CALL HER MUM UP!!! READ THIS PART? Better keep your phone away and ban yourself from using internet or else, another trouble or problem caused by you that affects me directly or indirectly, i won't hestitate to loadge a complaint against you OR call your parents up IMMEDIATELY (please get this clear).

Hmm, for your information (i nearly forgot to remind you!), cutiedragon, *ehem ehem* and *ehem ehem's* friend... you might not take my words for real because you thought i dont have your numbers? THEN YOU'RE WRONG!!! i've got your parents' number and your house number. I've got my source. please don't forget my position in choir, THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

Man, i'm really very troubled by this matter and have no time to blog happiness down... i'm having wild thoughts... and i'm making guesses... i might be wrong, i might be correct but after all these happenings, it just can't stop me from thinking that it was her. I'll try to remove this bad thought from my brain and stop suspecting it was her. I HOPE i wasn't her or her pathetic friends, if not, SHE IS DOOMED.

You want to pick on me, go ahead. you want to criticise or curse or swear at me, go ahead. If you criticise, curse or swear or even threaten any of my choir members, then you're doomed. I'll amke sure i return you double or even triple the price. Revenge. If i think you deserves to be taught a lesson, i don't care what price i've to pay, you will have to get it. BLEH!!!!! So, people, don't hurt my love ones... (friends, family, choirmates... people whom i like) HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! (in a joking BUT serious manner.)

Mind, you're really pissing me off.

Basking In Happiness 11

25th April '07
Wednesday
12.16AM

Couldn't believe my own ears...

Basking In Happiness 11

25th April '07
Wednesday
12.16AM

Couldn't believe my own ears...

Basking In Happiness 10

24th April '07
Tuesday
08.30PM

A day worth cheering. Crying tears of joy!!! That's what i've been hoping for. However, i'm damn pissed off by Sherly's attitude. Guess what she said? Si Y2, blame the wrong person already then don't want to apologise? Hell, what does she meant? Man, it's her fault okay? she makes it sound as if it's MY fault... Hello?? Just to remind her she also has to respect me as a senior...

because we got a GOld i'm so happy i even told Si Jia and the rest that i won't scold Sherly the next session. But after reaching home, seeing her msn nick really pissed me off. She don't deserve ME to be lenient to her. She needs to know her mistakes.

WHY CAN'T SHE UNDERSTAND AND ADMIT HER MISTAKES? She thinks that i've been picking on her... or she thinks that the sectional leaders have been picking on her BUT let me just list down the reasons WHY EVERYONE IS "PICKING" ON HER:

1. Ms Fu told me she sang sharp AND LOUDLY (so she actually wanted me to tell her to sing softly) one example is that Ms fu actually told her right in her face in front of the whole choir to sing softly because she simply sang out loud despite going out of tune.

2. When i wasn't listening to her because she was facing yan Ting (mezzo's sectional leader), yan ting told her that she sand out of tune. (privately, yan ting told me her problems too.)

3. Ms Lye told me to stand beside Sherly because she either sing flat or sharp or out of tune AND SHE JUST KEEP SINGING LOUDLY despite going out of tune. Ms Lye even told her to NOT sing certain parts BUT she heck care and just sing lor...

4. Zhang Yun realise the problem and told me Sherly's problems that she is just too stubborn to accept any advice she gave her and just continue singing her way.

5. And but of course, I realise her problems.

I told her to change, to sing softer and correctly but she give me all kind of excuses. It's not that i want to spoil the happy mood or grumble after getting a GOLD (which is a happy thing) but i think she needs to change. When receiving punishment, she jusy say no while the others simply just DO IT. Tell me what's wrong with her? is pride really that important? i meant why can't she admit her mistakes? I really hate this kind of person lor. i know i'm stubborn in a way BUT i'll never EVER do or say this kind of thing. man, she got to seriously do reflection!!!

Soprano can even her her singing out of tune on stage today. Imagine how loud she sounded. To think i kept reminding her to sing softer minutes before SYF. She ought to know her mistakes. I'm not treating her as an enemy but seriously she is a very problematic alto member. Everyone came early today... I meant the altos, and she came late... Very late... to think qiu mei even called her early in the morning so remind her of the early sectional. Just look at her attitude!!!! And, forth row can hear her out of tune too when she's standing at the third row... Just see how loud she sang!

I'm not bad mouthing her because i'm going to see her tomorrow to talk to her. She needs to know her problems. SHE NEEDS TO!!! Altos cannot afford to have stubborn people like that. She got to learn to accept people's negative comments AND stop apologising when she don't even learn her mistakes. That's so lousy of her. BLEH!!!! Boiling now!!!!

I've no mood to blog down the happy moments.............

Basking In Happiness 9

23rd April '07
Monday
8.27PM

"kaying`s Friend", just want to tell you to stop cheating yourself. Your behaviour and action simply disgust me and i'm soon going to flood the toilet bowl with vomits upon seeing what you've tagged. University friends? Well, please tell us your identity then. I would be so glad to KNOW you.

I'm stil preparing for my choir SYF and have no time. However, i find the need to blog it down here to let you see and to serve as a reminder...

i find it so hard to accept Kaying as a friend anymore. Perhaps it's time for her to leave and find the RIGHT CCA, the CCA she's meant to be. Of course, definitely not choir. You-know-what? she has been causing so many troubles for me by stalking and messing with my choir members... i must be blind, to find her such an adorable pure little girl when i first saw her in choir. Time goes by and it proves that WE CAN NEVER SEE A BOOK BY ITS COVER. I've been tolerating her... tolerating her... my choir members made a little complain, i tried to explain, tried to resolve the conflicts, but this is getting my patience no where... i had enough of all these!!!

"Univeristy" friend (who claims to be kaying`s friend but she is actually Kaying...), Whatever you said or threaten, i don't give a damn about it. You think i'm scared of you? Then you're definitely wrong. There's no reasons to be afraid of someone as childish as you.

See! My friends, they are defending me, you know what are friends for? If you university friends can't even understand that, no wonder Kaying can't be accepted by so many of her friends. So many had tried to accept her but she simply force them out of her social circle. Man, university friends, please just go somewhere else to swear or curse and after all those silly deeds you've done, GO DO REFLECTION ABOUT IT!!

Well, to tell you the truth, i simply know it's kaying when she typed "`" as "'s", understand? I don't wish to say anymore mean words to you or your dear Kaying. Go care about her if you want to but stop bothering my life and my blog. Damn split personality.

So what if you're older than me? To me, you don't even have the EQ a 5 years old child should have. And, would a university student at least the age of 20 NOT think before he or she speaks? You're simply distorting the truth...

Oh yesh, i'm really angry to be seeing my tagboard flooded with your nonsense and yesh, i'm not going to ban you or blocked you or delete your message. I'm just going to see what you're going to do next. Come on! I shall take you on!! If i'm a bitch, then you're seriously worse then a bitch or bastard. Hah!!

For what i know, you're only a pathetic little someone (nope, i doubt anyone treat you as a human) and to my knowledge, I WILL ALWAYS HAVE MY FRIENDS THERE TO SUPPORT AND ENCOURAGE ME. sad to say, you're just a loner with no one to care for you and you have to resort into faking people's identity to gain people's attraction. Will split personality means people will stop hating you? Pleae lah, go and find out what causes all these before you bark here.

I shall remind you again that people don't hate you because you're Kaying, it's your character and attitude that has problem. Well forget it, a person like you who has got EQ less than that of a 5 years old kid? No amount of counselling can help to change you. You're simply just too HOPELESS!!

To think i used to be so patient when talking to you, hoping that you would understand, that you will change and let people accept you. Looks like i've failed and i should not have know you at all. My biggest regret in life is to know you. Before knowing you, i never know such person actually exist in this World. What a monster!! You're leading a sad life man, no pain no gain got it?

if you want to make things worse and continue your unforgivable act, then don't hide behind that computer screen and tag. I have limited patience. Show yourself and we'll talk... I'm boiling now, man. You've succeeded, i'm angry... Oh yesh, one more thing to let low EQ you know clearly that I SIMPLY HATE SOMEONE LIKE YOU. You're hated.

OMG OMG OMG!! I'm so childish to be blogging about someone like that... and scolding her this way... hahaha!!! Yeah, shall ignore this person from now on. Thanks my friends who defended me. I'm soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo damn touched. Haha!!!! Hao Peng You, I LOVE YOU GUYS A WHOLE LOADS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HaHa, but i'm not going to yi sheng xiang xu hor... hahahaha!!! Xie Xie, Terima Kaseh. Arigato, Thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! JG, you're so charming a of a sudden!!! Shuai Ge!!!!!

Whereas we did see an ugly monster here, trying to cause so much upstir and distress in my life. i shall not let her succeed. I shall not... even if i did, i will not... from now on. =)

P.S. Eh attention seeker, you've seeked my attention, you can get lost now!!!! Bye.

~ Smile. =)

Basking In Happiness 9

21st April '07
Saturday
7.57PM

Girls usually love fantasizing their own future, marriadge, hubby and children. While i do fantasize about all those, i fantasize about my career as well. Muahahahahaha, stepping onto the grand stage, performing for people who cheer and loves you dearly. Gosh, what a nice feeling!

Geeeeeeeeeeeeee, i just can't stop making up all those crazy imagination inside my brain. I thought of my future, thought of present, thought of everything and become so lost, so lost, so lost... I guess i need to have some peaceful time to strighten my thoughts, to piece the bits and pieces together and to clear all doubts and worries. Now, i can't afford the time to think so much, i hope i will have no trouble focusing on my exams. I hope.

Last year, i couldn't bring myself to focus my mind went wild, thinking and worrying about choir stuff, i simply can't get myself to sit down and study. T.T Love study. Enjoy study. Force study. Must study. Need to study. Will study. Study Study. Study study study. OMGOMGOMG!!! I'm going crazy once again. Singapore students are just so fortunate and unfortunate. Though we live in comfort but we are always mentally abused. HaHa!!!

Ironic. Laughing stock. We are always overcome by ultimate stress and pressure, being mentally tortured. It's somehow worst then physical abuse. We lost the ability to encourage ourselves... what determination? what motivation? Nope not at all, it's all about forcing yourself to do certain things. Force. Force. Force. Force. Because we force ourselves, we got to do it and CANNOT don't do it. Sad, isn't it?

Basking In Happiness 8

20th April '07
Friday
11.29pm

Yeah i came back from YEC meeting and it was damn fun though i was hinted so many times to shut those big mouth up. HAHAHAHAAHAHA!!! We played Cluedo after the meeting though some supernova campers were quite straightforward to tell me that they find my friends quite extra... just because of the clash in Qi Hao's birthday... well, no comments. they never eat the cake lor... My friends are people with high intelligence, they know what iniative means. Proud of my friends.

Hmm, shi han is so dumb today to tell all of us her weapon (ROPE)... Diaoz. she... can never be a murderer, she's going to give herself away. HAHAHAHA!!! the funny part is that... when she said ROPE all of us just started searching for pencils and pen to write down that ROPE is out of the list of being the Weapon to kill the victim. Damn funny. The whole senerio is enough to make you laugh till your stomach hurts. i just can't help but kept laughing and i just can't STOP! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! she's really... HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

And, i was quite dumb too but that was because i never think before making an accusation. After shi han said ROPE, it's so obvious rope is not the weapon anymore but i used ROPE when i was suggesting a place (crime scene), weapon and suspect. You won't understand unless you played cluedo before... hahahaha!!!

Well, basically i think Cluedo is so much like codebreaker... it's just a modified version of codebreaker.

Something funny to share... i just receive it from my Alto junior...

Story of a silly girl... Haha!!! i laugh till my jaw almost dropped!

she called me to get my phone number.
she spent 20 minutes looking at the orange juice box because it said

"concentrate."


she put lipstick on her forehead because she wanted to make up her mind.


she tried to put M&M's in alphabetical order.


she sent me a fax with a stamp on it.


she tried to drown a fish.


she thought a quarterback was a refund.


she got locked in a grocery store and starved to

death.


she tripped over a cordless phone.


she took a ruler to bed to see how long she slept.

she asked for a price check at the Dollar Store.


she studied for a blood test.


she thought Meow Mix was a CD for cats.


when she heard that 90% of all crimes occur around the home,

she moved.


when she missed the 44 bus, she took the 22 bus twice

instead.


when she took you to the airport and saw a sign that said

"Airport Left" she turned around and went home
Man she STUPID!!!!!!!!

Basking In Happiness 7

19th April '07
Thrusday
8.59PM

I've gradually lost interest in blogging. I just don't understand what is wrong with me... Perhaps i've too much to worry... Perhaps, i've too much things to write about... Perhaps i've too much to ponder to sort out to think to reflect to heal to cure to salvage to save... I'm a little confused and a little nervous... and a little more anxious then usual... and a little more unusual then usual... and a little more silly... and a little more lazy... and a little more... i don't know.

I seemed to be so lost now i don't know what to do first and what to do next... Even when i tried to take things slowly, one at a time, it just can't helped much. My mind is as white as a sheet. Tired. Exhausted. Worn out. I've no idea how to express myself here...

I fear of this, i fear of that... i fear and i fear and i fear and i fear and i fear and i fear... completely frightened completely paranoid completely crazy.

Beyond cure. Beyond hope. Beyond beyond.

Life is hard... hard to swallow...

Finding myself unable to coop with so much things piling up all at one go... Once again, i'm undergoing extreme stress and pressure... going to turn into fossil fuels if this goes on... and on... and on... and on...

Basking In Happiness 7

15th April '07
Sunday

Man, the sec. 1s are driving me crazy... I got to chase chase chase them for their work and they don't seemed to be able to listen to instructions... Man!!!!!!!! Gosh!!!!!!! I got the missions all printed out nicely for them and they don't even bother to read or check through. I am really worried for their future...

This pathetic group is giving me a lot of trouble. I can't stand them... the 1T10 group... =.= why can't they change our opinions towards them? AAAAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!

I'm really boiling now and i'm going to see them tomorrow after the performance 2pm at school hall. If they never turn up, i'll request for the teachers to send them to Mr. Ow or detention. They need discipline... i don't care and i mean it. they are given 2 weeks and they never use this two weeks wisely. They enver come on friday because they didn't do and they still have the cheeks to say sorry when i call them in the afternoon today and tell them to complete it by today. I've given them the second chance but sad to say, they are still... well, that's it man, tomorrow is their final chance.

i shall not tolareate them any further... they are just trying to test on my patience right? sadly to say, i had enough of this and i'll make sure they are disciplined before giving them to the next batch.

I'm in such a bad mood now and don't you come and irritate me again!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAh!!!! CANNOT STAND THE SEC. 1S!!!!!!!!!

Basking In Happiness 6

14th April '07
Saturday
11.19PM

She don't understand and i don't care whether she understands. If she reads this, good for her. Just for her information, everytime she sms me or email me, i didn't even look or read through them and i deleted them away... so yeah, i've no idea what she wanted to say to me and i've no interest. She shall be forever condemned. BYE!

Well, friends have to know i hate friends who lied to me again and again when i've trusted them again and again. So, once i've given up hope one you, you're a goner to me and you don't mean anything to me anymore. Seriously, so hah, no explanation can ever be clearer... I HOPE!

Hmm, something happier perhaps... HaHa!!! Hmm, Botak called and i was busy laughing away...!!!! Yeah it was so funny to talk about big business and small business and has to end conversation when it's lights OFF. Cool man, i really want to go see-see how's life in NS... Did some grumbling and complaining but not as much as in the past... because i was so into his NS stories... WOW!!!! NS looks so fun... i never know soldiers can joke with sergeants one leh... HAHAHAHAHA!!! And being in the jungle for 6 days means you have no PROPER toilet to SHIT!!!! HAHAHAAHAHAHA!!! poor thing!!!!!!! HAHAHAHAAHAHHAA!!!!

And imagine turning from a student to a riffle shooter in just one day... and you're holding real guns!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! his description damn funny... the whole room was filled with my laugher... and i laugh and laugh like crazy... Well, but poor him, he has got a blur partner... who will soon get him into nothing but trouble!!! HaHa!!! that means Punishments! Coooool... Army days seem to be a whole load of fun!!! But i'm interested to see not interested to experience... yeah, hahahaha!!

Oh boy! I've spent my days working on the sec. 1 thing and i've not got it done!!! HaHa!! A lot of sorting out and... Gosh! some still haven't send me their files... ... calling them tomorrow...

Basking In Happiness 6

14th April '07
12.19PM
Saturday

Yo tomorrow is officially Cedrick's birthday and i've thought of what to buy thought it might not be something he will like a lot a lot BUT i know he's going to at least like it. And, maybe you guys don't know about it but if i'm not wrong... Triple As freak is returning tomorrow... HaHa!!

Yeah talking about him, i got to adapt to a life without him. Man, he has helped me a great deal and now i got to depend everything on myself, i just find it hard to do that. Take the sec. 1 choir as exmaple, yesterday was a horrible mess. Large amount of time was wasted and everything seemed to lag. The sec. 1s though didn't complain but they were bored to death. The individual report they gave me, i've read them and some gave me very negative comments.

HAHAHAHAHA!!! Just kill me. And, i was so worried about the sec. 1s practice, even yan ting could sense that somehow i was a little silent during lessons. i was in deep thoughts about how to handle the latter situation... And, worst of all, ... *sigh* suan le, I SHALL LEARN to work things out myself from now on...

Yeah and yesterday YEC meeting was cool . There was a time when we got into random chattings. Kelvin, Steven, Ying Hui and I were talking about something. Steven said that if the girls are scared of tickling on their waist, then they will be very fierce to their husband. While girls who are not scared of that, are scared of their husband. HaHa!! The guys however are different. If they are scared of ticklings, then they are scared of their wife, and if they are not scared, they are fierce to their wife. Hey, ask yourself if you're scared of ticklings.

For me, i'm scared of them, so i'm most probably going to treat my future husband-to-be very fiercely. HaHa!!! Well, maybe it might not be true to some people...

Oh and we talked about the cycling thing which is coming on the 20th April '07. I think it's going to be real tiring and less fun... Because though there will be a lot of people going... but my friends won't have time for me lor. HaHa!!! That would be bad... no one will tell me to Jia You and i in turn has to say Jia You to the strangers. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAh!!! HAHAHAAHAHAHAHA!!! that's so funny.

I might even meet some bike retard who cannot ride properly and collide with my bike. Oh My God~! Am i thinking too much? But such things bound to happen... Or i might even collide with someone and kena scolded or kan bu shuang. HAHAHAHAHA!! I'm suppose to be helping but i'm there to create trouble... Oh No!!!

Cannot bear to think much...

Hungry... going for breakfast. Sayonara!!

Basking In Happiness 5

14th April '07
Friday
12.23AM

They went to celebrate cedrick's birthday today. well, what can i say? Haha!! Just say,"happy birthday to cedrick!" here lor. I was busy handling the sec. 1s when i receive this shocking sms at around 4 or 5 that they are going to meet at Tampines Mrt Station at 6.30 later on to celebrate Cedrick's birthday. So they expect me to reach home by 6.30 and get changed. HaHa!!! Don't care lah, last minute tell me hor, i cannot do any admendments to my schedule.

Tired. YEC meeting was alright, just that the 4 uncles that add up to the age of 100 were doing super childish stuff. Talking about age, i just took a test that really freaks me out! The Quiz said that i am a 3 years old kid. HaHa!!! Nevermind, i took anyother test and it sayd i'm somewhat matured. So, balance lah.

Hmm, too tired. shall sleep now and blog tomorrow.

Basking In Happiness 3

11th April '07
Tuesday
5.52PM

Someone has really spoils my day and i never thought she would lie to me AGAIN... Damn disappointed. Find no meaning in helping such person. She doens't deserves to have friends at all. I talked to her, explained and hope that she will understand but guess she doesn't understand and i think i'm just an idiot to be knowing such a someone making me so angry. I won't cry because she doesn't deserve my tears and i won't be mad too as she doesn't deserves my energy spent on being angry.

Whatever. Hate her. She always find excuse to make herself sounds pitiful and i just don't understand why she kept asking "WHY PEOPLE HATES HER?" when the answer is so damn obvious. Her attitude and character has problem and this is why people hate her. No sorry can make up for this one. No sorry. No matter how any she apologise, enough is enough, i had enough of her and just hope to graduate peacefully and visit my fellow choir members once in a while.

No matter how many times she denies that "kaying's friend" is not herself... she can't be trusted because the style of typing is her. It's definitely confirm plus guarantee KAYING is "Kaying's Friend". And yes, look at the time, oh please it's already 9plus and her friends are still there?

Don't tell me "Kaying's friend" are her so called "university friends"? I would really want to know them and let them clarify this. If she manage to get her university friends here to clarify everything with me. Fine, i accept the truth and i will apologise for suspecting and pointing the wrong finger at her.

First she tell heidi she went to her friends' house to use their computers... BUT what she told me was different. She told me that her friends came to her house to use her computer instead. OMG! How can i trust her when all her statements clashed???? If she continues to lie and refuse to admit her mistake with sincerity, she's going to suffer. And, even if she admit her mistakes BUT JUST ADMIT HER MISTAKES FOR THE SAKE OF ADMITING and not understanding. then there's no point.

Well, doubt she understands. And, i shall stop wasting my time and saliva talking logic to her. She's hopeless and not that i wanted to be mean to blog it down here so that she can see but i think i just need to be straightforward so that she understands THOUGH I THINK SHE NEVER WILL even though i am already blogging it down here so clearly, straightforward and being so frank about all these...

Go ahead and cry but mind you, you should only cry when you know your mistakes... don't cry because people said those mean words to you because you definitely deserves all these... BLEH!!!!!!

I really don't understand why you're doing all these... that's not the way to seek attention. I've tried so hard but you've disappoint me and i never know you........................ Whatever. I'm speechless...

Basking In Happiness 2

10th April '07
Tuesday
9.00PM

Okay, i shall finish the Night Cycling Post today. Kena stalked by a lot of people everytime i online. Not that i'm hao lian to be stalked but these few days i have no time to entertain them, so please pardon me if i never reply to you on msn or just simply give you one-word answer. Not trying to act mang but really now i've no time for that. Hmm, oh yeah today is 10th April, Tuesday...

Guess-what? Our dear senior Weslie must be having a great time being a soldier. I wonder when he's going to cut botak. HoHoHo!!! Now that he's gone to march march march for one week before he comes out... i'm totally clueless on how to handle the sec. 1s on Friday. Not that i'm going to see them on Friday but they have to hand in their project task on Friday and i heard some of them have not even started yet and some even intend to skip choir practice on Friday.

I was very very flustered and angry to hear that. Upset. And since they are doing this to me, i'll return them double the price for disappointing me and betraying the trust i had in them. I can be very very mena if i wanted to, it all depends on how they treat me. I can treat them like how cinderalla's step-mother treat cinderalla. of course, NOT all of them are not cinderalla... how can they be... given their attitude?

I'm somone who revenge. Bleh! They are going to do Physical Training as punishment. And, if they dare to skip choir practice and give me some dumb lame excuses (like sick and give me parent letter instead of M.C.), THEY WILL STILL HAVE TO DO PT. AS LONG AS THEY NEVER HAND IN THEIR PRESENTATION ON TIME!

If this coming friday, they never come then they will do PT as punishment the next time they come. Try skipping choir practice forever and i ensure they die a horrible death. I've no time to entertain them and they still don't know how to think. I've tried my best to give them so many chance and they just treat it like a game or take things for granted. Fine! With such attitude, choir don't need to have you guys de. I'm so sorry to be so mean in my words and i meant those sec. 1s who never do their project task. If you did, you will be rewarded. Trust me. =) I'm not totally fair but at least i'm not unfair. Well, i don't know how to explain.

That benedict is crazy, he loves to randomly talk to me on some random topic. So random. HAHAHAHA!!! He said it's better that i've got no boyfriend because my boyfriend is sure to mistook my sister as me. Diaoz... my sister and i look totally different lor. Maybe only that both of us have darker skin... Just that. Yeah, and for once, if i ever got a boyfriend and he really mistook my sister as Me, he deserves to be dumped, correct? HAHAHAHA!!!

Ohyeah! Something worth rejoicing! Today i did my health check-up and as usual, there were backbone (spine) checking and eye check. Thank God! Camilia and the rest saw my intention of cheating and indeed, i cheated. HaHa!! By memorizing the Numbers. HaHa!! The nurse told me that my eyesight was fine. YEAH!!! But it was a false statement. I'll get my specs soon, i promise. I've told Anna to accompany me to make my specs one day.

And my spine check was perfectly alright!!!! When i was in Primary 6, it was a serious case... 5 degree... then sec. 1 and 2, it was 4 degree then i got to go some hospital for another round of check-up. Gosh, it was so far away... what a waste of time! Even if i go for the check-up it won't help what... like the follow-up will help to straighten my spine back... =.= Now, this time round, Yeah! NEGATIVE!!! Perfectly FINE!!!! Happy! Happy! Happy!!!

Okay Enough!!!

Hmm, back to the night cycling thingy. So that guy is call Yi Kai and another guy is call Jun Li. HaHa!!! Nevermind lah, they remember my name can liao. HAHAHA!! Hmm, yeah must thanks all of them for giving me constant support and that really is one of the biggest reason that kept me going.

Our route arh is from Tampines TECC to East Coast (start to end) then to Lao Pa Sat. Then we took like 2 hours from Lao Pa Sat to Ubi then finally Bedok and Tampines TECC. It seems short if you don't know how far is Lao Pa Sat because i myself thought it's quite okay but guess-what? It took us around 5 hours to reach Lao Pa Sat with all the unexpected breaking down.

HAHAHA!! Andrew was damn sway. If i don't remember wrongly, he has been changing bike for more than 4 times. If it's not his gear got problem, then is his brakes got problem... i don't know lah. Thinking back, it's really funny. Mine was fine throughout... when you're sway, you're just sway lor.

While others met with some minor incident like crashing on one another and injuring themselves on the way to catch up with the rest. A lot of us were kena HONKED by the passer-by cars. For me, as you all know, i hate those honks and maybe i as just too lucky, no cars honked me that day... HAHAHAHA!!! Jason kena honked damn many times.

Hmm, when the cycling thing just started, i was so tense because i was really afraid i can't catch up or even darg the whole group down. In fact, i was quite alright maybe a bit slow as said by Desmond and Yi Kai.

Y2: I never drag the group down leh!!

Desmond: But everytime i turn back i can't see you...

HAHAHA!!! For your info. i am suppose to be behind Desmond... i know i'm slow la...

Another one.

Y2: Wa lao, i so slow.

Yi Kai: Nope, i'm the last one as you can see.

HAHAHAHA!! For your info. he is suppose to be right at the back and because i'm slow, he's slow too. Ooops!

And that Michael cannot sstop suaning me lor, saying that i look like ah ma. For your info. everyone who knows me should know my nose sweat a lot even if i'm in a cold weather. That time is because i cycled then sweat then my nose sweat even more then the sweat all coevered my nose but how to wipe it away when i'm cycling? So, i left it there lor... then, under the moonlight, i look like so ah ma... like no logic but if you see how i look with my sweaty nose, you'll get it.

Then, from the start till the end, i keep cycling with one hand while the other i used it to wipe my sweat. Luckily, my cycling skill not that bad... can cycle with one hand. My first goal when i started cycling is to endure until at the Jetty but i realise i can still go on so i simply followed on and went all the way to Lao Pa Sat. I wanted to give up half way to lao pa sat because the legs are so SUAN Liao...

Then, i don't know why i've got a sudden craze to drink Sugarcane juice. I asked if Lao Pa Sat got sugarcane juice and the answer is GOT!!! Of course i have doubt whether Lao Pa Sat is open until so late... but they assure me it is going to operate until THAT LATE and that there confirm got sugarcane. So on my way to Lao Pa Sat, sugarcane was my main motivation. HAHAHAHAHA!!!

Y2: I want to drink sugarcane juice.

Desmond: Jia You Oh! Sugarcane Juice!

Yi Kai: Gan Zhe Shui!!!!!

Then, i'll keep cycling... HAHAHAHA!!! Sugarcane juice deserves the credit.

Hmm, got something funny happen to Andrew... He cannot cycle properly de... whenever there is traffic and we have to stop. we all stopped. the light turns green and we started cycling, then you see Andrew struggling to keep his balance... then he will cycle nice-nice again. HAHAHAHA!!!

Alright, shall not laugh at him. Hmmm, The East Coast ride was fantastic! No one is there to block the cycling path and we just ride through. man, fun. However, it was then i realise East Coast Park is damn big... i was thinking when it will ever end you-know? HAHAHA!!!

And, got one damn part is where both sides are trees and i cycled through it ALONE!!! Damn scary... i was closing my eyes whiel cycling hoping not to hear anything or see anything... Actually got people in front of me lor but they wanted to act pro so they had a race while the others are so slow, lagging behind... i was screaming at the front people to wait for me BUT they don't know is act deaf or just can't hear me... they cycled away... T.T

Nevermind since everything is over now. And, on 20th April '07 got so many people... no need to be scared. By the way, some of them really loves to act pro and sometimes i think they should control themselves lor... They can just go on their own without following the original route and i've no idea to follow who because i don't know the REAL route... Then i just anyhow follow one person or simply SCREAM FOR HELP.

*sigh* Hmm, drank a lot a lot of water that day... and you don't have to eat anything. You just too bloated to eat anything. You will feel like you're going to throw everything out if you trying taking in some food. I wonder why when we reach lao Pa Sat they can still eat. And they looked like hungry ghost. Eat so much de lor... i was wondering if they can still cycle after eating so much, especially Jason who ate so much though he is someone with a lighter built, he even takeaway...

Kelvin and I and Desmond and Andrew didn't eat. I drank chrysanthemum... =.= Hah! No green tea, no ice lemon tea.... NO SUGARCANE!!!!!! got that kena cheated feeling... SUPER SWAY!!!

Realise Desmond damn gentleman or you can say he's a very good brother... i've been chanting sugarcane juice before i reach Lai Pa Sat and when we reach, he went to find sugarcane juice for me even when he haven't settled down... BUT SAD TO SAY, IT'S SOLD OUT!!!!!! Argh!!!! When you're sway, you're just plain sway... nothing goes right. THANKS DESMOND ANYWAY!!!!! Yuan Lai YEC got hao ren de leh... HAHAHAHA!!! i'm just trying to be sacarstic here... just joking lah...

Hmm, i was in-charge of guarding the bike because i sit right in front of the bikes... Man, i'm dumb enough to choose that seat. Ken was very ke lian... i never mention him hor? He has been the photographer, waterboy and his car, the ambulance. HaHa!! At first, Alex felt quite sick so he went to Ken's car... so his car serves as an ambulance. Then, everyone asked him for water so he is a waterboy. And, when we reach the Jetty, he helped us took photos so he was the photographer... And, sad to say he was not in the photo. Haha!! i'm an includer mah, i asked why he never join us in taking the photos then no one reply... So, you see the photos i posted on the last entry... i put his name at the bottom of the photo. =)

Hmm, everyone took care of me lah and i really see myself as "useless" because i never help at all lor... i just cycle cycle cycle... even when going down the underpass, Jason has to carried the 30kg bike down for me... Damn heavy lah, he carried two bikes somemore... fit wor... And when climbing up the flight of stairs, Jun Li has to carried the 30 kg bike up for me... that was even worst... HAHAHAHA!!! THANKS LAh~!!!!

Oh yeah, talking about that 30kg bike, it's really heavier than my brother that's why i deduce that it's actually 30 kg because my brother is only 15 kg and it seemed like the weight of the bike is twice the weight of my brother when i tried carrying it. The bike so damn tall i always feel i got cramp when i tried to put my feet on the ground. I got to tiptoe then can reach.

Because Jason see me slouching when i was cycling, he said the posture wasn't right and i got to push the seat higher... So...

When stopping at Upper changi road, Yi Kai helped me push the seat higher and i totally cannot touch the ground. Cannot touch the ground leh! Feel so insecure plus my cycling skill not very good arh, i can foresee myself crashing into some bushes or trees.

Then, luckily Desmond said it's better to give me the height that i'm comfortable with so the seat was lowered but even when it's lowered at the LOWEST, i still got to tiptoe. Horrible sia... got so many traffic lights and everytime the red light blinked, i got to tiptoe, really very uncomofortable and got so many many times i almost got cramp.

Talking about cramps, a lot of people kena cramps. Two of them would be Andrew and Desmond. HaHa!! Andrew cramp when we were waiting for the traffic. Dangerous!!! (i suddenly thought of Michael Jackson's song - Dangerous) Next was Desmond who cramp when we finish suppering at Lao Pa Sat and wanted to set off. His cramp lasted for a very long time. HaHa!!! And at first it was his right leg that has the crampy feel then after all the help and suggestion to CURE the cramp, the cramp move on to his left leg. HaHa!!!!

I know how it hurts to kena cramps but i usually got try to CURE it but leave it as it is. My cramp happens during sleeps and because i was too tired to think, i simply just grabbed my leg so hard, HUG it and goes back to sleep. It always happens like that and amazingly, it works! Always! So i actually suggested Desmond to sleep straightaway but he like never hear what i say.

HAHAHAHHAHA!!! Hmmm, Let me mention the Mr. unknown 1 or 2... hahaha... he is damn crazy and wild lor... at first i wanted to take this bike because it's smaller mah but Jason don't allow so never use. But this guy can just ZOOOOOOM and ALMOST KENA knocked down my car. If i never witness all these, i can never believe someone actually will do such a thing... and he can still laugh. His purpose was to stop the car after driving so as to let the cyclist cycle first but the way he dash arh, really is a close shave lor!! I damn scared i will witness a road accident leh... i can imagine that...

Another one left us when we almost reach Lao Pa Sat, maybehe was too weary to go on BUT i will never do that lor... so late at night liao then he alone cycle back... crazy leh... HaHa!!!! But his cycling skill arh... also damn amazing de... also very fast and i think he knows a few tricks here and there. Those tricks you play using bike. I don't know what's that called la but he has been playing those tricks with the mountain bike... HAHAHAHA!!! so big and yet he can still play!! those bikes they normally use all very small and without a seat one lor... he damn incredible la.

I did fantascise sometimes... that i'm a bike pro too then everyone was amazed to see me playing with the bike. They will think... "Wow! This girl damn COOL, can do those stunts we can't do de..." Man, i would be proud to hear this. However, i'll just wait-long-long lah for that will never happen.

Hmm, well, i was damn damn damn damn damn tired, all drained. Throughout the 7 hours of cycling, i've never been to the toilet so i headed straight to the toilet when i reach TECC. The feeling of getting down from the bike is... SOUR! HaHa!!! Suan arh!!! Mylegs don't seemed to belong to me anymore. And it turn jelly... I cannot stand properly and felt to floaty... HaHa!! When Ken arrived at the final destination with the losers (Kelvin and Jun Li), i boo them... How can they give up atht e last minute? Wa Lao, reaching TECC liao then i suddenyl see Ken's car driving past me, inside got the two of them... Lousy lah.

Kena praised for surviving throughout.

Ken: You-see, you can make it! Good Job!

Y2: Yeah! (then i jump and couldn't balance myself and knock against the side of a car)

HaHa!!! try it man, people! Really very shiok!!! The feeling of sweating, the encouragement you received from your friends... The sense of achievement upon completing the race. COOL!!! I can't tahan anymore but they still go debrief. Somemore we had to stand in the middle of the road... hahaha!!! The sun has risen and looking at everyone's face, you see two big words on their forehead "Yes! Finish!"

Hmm, did cooling down and i can't bend joints above my thighs anymore.... HAHAHAHA!! Hmm, maybe because of this colling down... i never kena muscles aches on my legs but instead my arms uscles are aching terribly. My hand got blisters lor but receovered liao... HaHa!!! And your whole body feels swollen i just don't know why.

I wanted to go Macdonald to stink the place and to rest since it's the nearest restaurant. In the end, kena convinced by Jason to go join the others at a AIR-CON COFFEESHOP. i think i'm too blur too think but since it's air-con and everyone is going there, then i followed lor... in the end, there is no such thing as AIR-CON COFFEESHOP. that coffee shop i don't know pass by how many times liao... ba wo dang bai chi... hmm, well shall forgive him since there got sell SUGARCANE JUCIE!!!! i didn't even paid a cent for it... Ken's treat. HaHA!!!

Hmm, i was so tired... i sat down and never thought of changing though i brought a shirt to change. Gosh... finish drinking my SUGARCANE JUICE and feel gradually asleep in the coffee shop. Bai Chi. I was half-asleep because i know i was at the coffeeshop and if i ever sleep like a log... ... yeah you know lor....

At first i was resting on my under side of my palm with my elbow joint touching the table. Then slowly slowly my head started dropping and you hear.. "BOOM!" and my forehead was resting on the table... HAHAHAHA!!! i know what happened but was too tired to do anything... and since they were talking happily and i have no wish to interrupt their conversation, my brain started to shut down. In the end, everyone hears the "BOOM!" and Andrew nudged me awake. Raise my head and saw everyone staring at me.... AAAh! so dui lian!!!!!! SO bai chi!!!!!! I'll never do that again! Hmm, Desmond was sleeping too. TAI LEI LE LAH!!!!!!

Something good... Perhaps they think i was too tired so we were dismissed straight after i woke up! HURRAY!!!

Went back home, took a bath and saw the water turning yellow. Yucks! Disgusted. Went to sleep after that and fater 3 hours of sleep, i got to wake up again to bai my yeye... Aw... really don't feel like going but no choice. My aunties and uncles and parents wanted t bring my nainai to gaint after bai bai and i requested to go back home first. Reach home, bath again due to the joss sticks smell i cannot tahan and sleep from 3-8pm. HAHAHAHAHA!!!! But until now i'm still tired.

Hmm, FUN FUN FUN and i'm looking forward to the 20th April real thing though for sure i won't be helping much because i'm just too dumb and useless to help. Ken said i'll encourage the slow ones to continue cycling... well, yeah i can only do that bah... HAHAHAHAHA!!! Anyone interested please go TECC to register lor. BUT do it before 18t April '07! Register fee would be 20 dollars (inclusive of bike) unless you've got your own bike then you just have to pay 10 bucks!!! You won't regret de lah. Though you'll feel so exhausted and drained after that but you should not miss such an exciting event!

Basking In Happiness

8th April '07
Sunday
9.42PM

Man, I'm definitely blogging about yesterday or maybe today or... Both days lo. HaHa!! I went to the cycling trial and it was soooooooooo damnnnnnnnnnn funnnnnnnnnn... though it's killing every piece of my muscles. My legs don't seemed to belong to me anymore and i feel it detached from my body. I'm going to be paralysed tomorrow for 2 days. Now, it's still not aching BUT wait till tomorrow i might have difficulties walking and climbing the stairs.

Now my body is still HOT!! Most probably the muscles cells are still heated and it's not cooling down!!!! WheeeeeZ! Does that means fats burning off my body? Or building muscles all over my body?!?! Oh No!!! I've no idea. HAHAHAHA!!! crazy thought, hopefully it's the first one.

Hmm, shall blog every single detail down because this is really a very meainingful experience and i think i've learnt a lot a lot of it. In the morning, i woke up at around 6.45am so that i can make my delivery together with my sister. i meant since she's going to school and i'm dropping halfway then might as well leave the house with her and i won't be late too. I really don't have any idea where to location was and can only depend on my instinct and of course, the map which i've printed illegally from the XXX. HaHa!!

Telling you the truth now, my wrist and hands are beginning to ache... Pray hard tomorrow my hands won't shake while writing. Hmmm, oh yeah then i actually saw the block BUT i went to a nearby coffeeshop. Haha... stomach ache... i had diarrhoea early in the morning because the day before that i actually ate a lot of junk food - fizzy drinks, hot drinks, snacks, chocolate and sweets - all at one go. HaHa!! i'm indeed crazy and wild.

Yeah, then i was quite lost when i get out of the coffee shop because i really had no idea where the hell am i. I just search my way through that dumb place then found toilet but i don't know how to go back. hahaha... luckily my map did help and i was back to that block in no time. At around 7.50 i was heading to the bus stop liao.

I almost took the wrong bus to school, damn scared. it was the bus with the correct no. but the direction was wrong lah... i wanted to board liao then i look at the map how come the school is that way and my bus is heading this way... Then, i stopped and cross over. Damn close. HaHa!!

Reach school quite early at around 8.05am and sat in the canteen like an idiot for quite sometimes before wayne came with the keys. =) Then, choir practice was aching but beneficial. My back aches but i learnt a lot of Dr. Chia. Hopefully, i won't forget what he has taught us and get a GOLD for choir in SYF! Jia You Choir!!! Never believe you can't!

Hmm, i don't know if i'm down in luck or what but something terrible happened but i forgot what was that. hmm, of course it's about choir. Nevermind, since it's bad thing so don't remember also good la.

Reached home at around 1pm and never rest. I thought no need rest also can tahan so i simply rot my way until 8 then i started preparing... what clothes to wear... what shorts to wear... what shoe to wear... what things to bring... what i must bring... what will happen later... everything all crampled up inside my brain and i slowly slowly unwind it and blast everything one by one... hmm, meaning i clear one problem at a time. HaHa!!!

Borrowed the jersey from my sister because they say wear white and i was like what the hell... If you can ever find a white shirt in my wardrobe, i'll reward you handsomely with 100 million... taking that the shirt MUST belong to me lah... My one and only white shirt with hood was long unwearable because of Weslie Khoo... That k-box trip hor dirtied my white shirt and well, damn, got brown stains at the back. ONE BIG BROWN STAIN!! Oh well, nevermind.

I went to blk 201 at around 8.30 or 8.15 and bought the elastic white band my sister wanted me to buy. Man, so expensive. It cost around $19.20 lor... i was so broke after that but i can't collect the money from her since i owe her more than that... HaHa!!! Luckily, she still got heart and lend me $10 and i got around 14 bucks to last for the rest of the night and day. It's enough but i'm afraid i'll have to sacrifice cedrick's birthday present with something cheap and lok kok. HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

Went back home because it was still damn early. Reach TECC at 9.25pm and Michael, Kelvin and some strangers were already there. Stupid Michael he has to suan me then he happy. H suan-ed me from the moment i reach until he was called to do something. I got a sour mouth too so i of course suan him back but not as much as him suan-ing me. He can just come and go as he likes and suan me. Well, suan le da ren you da liang, don't want to jing jing ji jiao.

Then, i was resorted to entertaining myself with mobile games because they were busy with the preparation and i don't know what to do so i simply sit and rot. The rest were late or you can say i was tricked to come early. AhLux said there would be girls and that's why i came but in the end, we set off with one nv-bu-xiang-nv, nan-bu-xiang-nan de... Y2. =.=" Wa Lao. I should have asked many many more times though i've already asked a lot of times to be sure if there would be girls going... they did tell me got but in the end really got lor... ME LOR!

I come liao you don't expect me to go back right? that's a dumb act so i followed and went to test my bike. Horrible experience! The bike is so tall for me my legs will feel like they are goig to cramp in no time if i were to ride it and reach for the ground. I even have a hard time sitting on the sit and getting down. Aw man, i was cursing at it and though i took the smallest one i can ever find, the same thing happened. I was grumbling and grumbling and grumbling and grumbling, talking to myself, behaving like a retard.

Hmm, the lorry came to unload and load the bikes were driving out and Andrew fell from his back because he tripped when he was retreating backwards to let the lorry through. The bike lor so BIG, occupy the space behind him and he fell... i never laugh but i was standing beside him and witness the whole thing. I wanted to save him, i meant to pull him when he fell but couldn't manage to grab his hand. He fell too fast.

hmm, found a small bike that suits me perfectly well, not the mountain bike, but Jason said i cannot use that. well said! I guess if i use that to travel all the way, i will die of exhaustion. i don't know how to explain lah but jiu shi zhe yang lor... I was feeling so tired already when i was at TECC and i felt so scared you-know?

Firstly, i was so tired i wonder if i can ever survive thoughout the journey there and back. Secondly, they were all guys so their stamina sure better then mine, i'm scared to drag the whole group down. Thirdly, later they blame me for dragging them down.
Forthly, i also scared Jason will scold me for dragging them down and for joining them in this trial since i've got no stamina for this.

yeah, i'm thinking too much because they were all kind people who will never said those mean words to me. And luckily Ken's car lighted up my hope of fire. Diaoz... my own words so well, just laugh if you want. Because Ken is driving so i can actually just hop on to his car if i cannot tahan or if i feel i was dragging the group down. =) That actually relieves me.

Assemble outside the seven-eleven and met SHI HAN!!! Wow! She so damn zai, so late still outside buying some stuff. Hi-and-bye and i continue my warm-up. I though someone would be leading the warm-up but in the end, it's the free-style warm up were approahing. i did my own silly warm-up because i only know those very very basic ones. Well, haha... stupid but it helps me to survive leh... and i never have cramps though i almost... almost!


Jason did a briefing and i suddenly feel so stress lor... my mind keeps telling me that i'm going to drag the group down... i'm going to grad the group down... i'm going to drag the group down... i totally have zero faith and confidence in me. Perhaps it was because i've never did such a thing before and i really don't know my limit. Fear overwhelmed me and i was looking into each and everyone's eyes with guilt and a little fear. HaHa!!! Maybe everyone knows about it and they are aware of this.

When Jason mentioned something something that is related to those who cannot tahan, i stare around and they were all looking at me... i swallowed one big chunk of saliva and smile fakely and bitterly. HaHa!!! I know it's me, i;m the one who cannot tahan de... Hahahaha...

Hmm, we set off and all the way i've been hearing, "Ying Ying, are you okay?", "ying ying, are you fine?", "Ying Ying, Jia You OH!", "Ying Ying, if you cannot tahan must tell me." and Jason is the weird one who actually laugh after i answered, "Yeah, of course i'm okay."

See! They really treat me like a weakling and showered me with SO MUCH care and concern. But i was very motivated by the "Ying Ying, Jia You oh!" that desmind has been telling me... Haha!! I find it gross for a big man to say "Jia You oh!". "jia you" is okay... "jia you oh!" is funny... but i didn't tell him but everytime he said that to me i'll laugh secretly and continue cycling... maybe a bit faster or sometimes just maintaining a constant speed. That "Jia You Oh!" is an effective morale booster!

Cycle here cycle there... over the hill, down the slope, under the road, along the road... a long long way i have to endure but the trip was soooooooo cool i wanted to cycle again! With the breeze blowing to my face and the sweat sticking onto my skin, man that is both a torture and a blessing! HaHa!!

I smile to have the wind blowing and smashing onto my face. I find it damn cool and AAAAAAAAAAAh!!! freaking nice! I have not been riding for more than a year and this is really a very good experience to test my stamina, determination, limit and give me a real good time to ride and to meet new friends.

Oh man, if you never come, you'll regret lor... damn damn fun but tiring. I'll introduce my new friends lah...

Hmm, start with who first?
some i don't know their names though they did introduce themselves but they never talk to me so i never talk to them... And, even if i know their names, i don't know how to spell so pardon me if it's wrong.

First, Jun Li (or Li Jun?), the guy that i get sweet from... HaHa!!! He has got a whole bunch of snacks and green tea... no comments since i get sweets from him. HaHa!!!!!

Second, Jin kai (or yi kai?) Man, so many people's name to remember and the YEC people and related groups people i met all got "kai" in their name so i simply mix them all up. He's one good man who's the last one in the group. Not that he's slow but because i'm slow. he was 'forced' to be the last. He got encourage me bah and though everyone shares the same "Pi Gu Tong" i guess he's the only one who kept shouting with me "Pi Gu Tong" the most number of times.

Third, Jason's Brother, Jeremy? (i have no idea.). But we never talk at all. He was speeding throughout it i don't remember wrongly. That's crazy. An army man means he's strong and pro! Bleh! HaHa!! We talked a little during the supper time and i forgot what was it about. HaHa!!

Fourth, 2 guys. They never talk to me AT ALL. I forgot their names too. They were also very good cyclists and they can speed if they wanted to. HaHa!!!

Fifth, no need mention lah, the same old uncles.... Michael, Desmond, Ken, Kelvin, Andrew, Alex... Did i miss anyone out?

Sixth, yes! A girl! My guess was she is Jason's Brother's Girlfriend. Smile to her once and said hi then we never talk liao... =.= HaHa!!

Okay, i've to say something. Though we might not have talked a lot or never even talk at all but each one of them actually helped me indirectly or directly without knowing lor. Thanks arh! Asking andrew to send me the photos then i can post it up here and let you see which one is which!

I'll get to see them again on the 20th April '07. Wheeeeee!!! Again Again!!! Shall do some editing when i've time.... Sayonara!

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No time to do a detailed blogging...

But i'm angry with the sec. 1s currently... some lah not all.

If they never hand in their work on time, the punishment would be all the physical trainings. I make sure they know their mistakes and never do it again. I have no choice. No one is there to help me handle it anymore... If they skipped choir, then their punishment shall be doubled. Trust me, i can be as mean as cinderalla's stp mother. BLEH!!!!!!!!!

Sleeping illness 7

7th April '07
8.5PM

I got to go very soon... Go cycling!! Finally managed to convince my mummy to let me go BUT baba and mummy seemed to be very worried. Luckily, the laptop arived today and she busy learning how to use it. Duh! So hopefully that will keep her busy LOR.

Today was an exciting day not because Dr. Chia came. HaHa! It's because i went to Dr. Khoo's door step to deliver something. I was so clumsy and feel like falling apart on my way there... Too many bulky stuff to carry. I got to carry my costume to prevent it from cramppling... i got to carry that box and that box really attracted a lot of attention. Dui Lian.

Hmm, and luckily i'm smart enough to check the street directory or else i would have lose my way. Reach school at around 8. Damn early and when Dr. Chia came choir practice officially started. Hmm, I stood almost the whole session and my knees almost break and my back really aches. I always have back problem. If i stand too long, my back and shoulder will ache.

Oh now it's 9 so i've got 15 more minutes before i turn this off. If i cannot tahan this 7 hours and fall asleep along the way, i might end up in some drain. HaHa!!!! Sounds cool and i've never do such a thing before. EXCITING BUT SCARY TOO.

I've learnt a lot from Dr. Chia and hopefully the choir won't forget what Dr. Chia has taught us today then we will have a chance to attain Gold. I never thought of getting a Gold with honours... Ooops! HaHa!! But well, we just have to face the reality and be true to ourselves. Choir might be able to get a Gold for SYF but definitely not a Gold with honours... at least for now. It's a fact.

Sleeping illness 6

4th April '07
Wednesday
5.37PM

No comments.

Promised Mrs Chua i would stalk choir for life so... Well, haha... you know what i meant.

Sleeping illness 5

2nd April '07
Sunday
8.00PM

Today is a bad day. I wanted to correct Alvin his mistakes and got scolded by Ms Lye instead. Fine, i won't ever do that again... =.='' *Angry* Maybe i've used up my luck yesterday that's why i've none left for today...

I must say Alvin is really very weak. He can't sing in tune but still sang so loudly, i wonder what can i do to just soften his voice. He made me feel that i'm going to go out-of-tune as well. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAh!!! HaHa!! Nevermind, sectional trainings are needed. But, i shall not make it tomorrow bah... i got important things to attend to tomorrow.

Hmm, during English lesson i enjoyed myself the most bah...?? Or maybe just the 1st part of the story. I can't even bear to watch the 2nd disc. it's too cruel. I just hate to see something so inhuman happening... Can't bear to see the unfortunate suffering and i-guess i might commit suicide if i ever witness such horrendous thing happening right in front of my eyes.

Hmm, Today is just pretty sway. Shall go revise for biology le. Sayonara!!

sleeping illness 4

1st April '07
Sunday
11.30PM

Today's really april fool's day and i got a shock in my life when i look at my mobile early this morning... or you can say early this afternoon. 1.00PM i was suppose to be at TECC at 12 o'clock in the noon but i was still in bed. Ooops! I did set my alarm and it should be ringing at 10 but sasd to say, i guess i switch it off and not snooze it... Gosh! Bad luck! I slept from 10 to 1pm and when i woke up, i jumped to see the time!

I was cursing too because it's already one and no one actually called me up... wasn't i late? Hahahaha!!! well, i received a call from Andrew and i though he's going to scold me for not being punctual and i just mumble mumble something then i end the conversation and started panicking.

HAHAHA!! I reached TECC at around 1.30, i didn't take a shower or what BUT i brushed my teeth... HAHAHA!! Luckily, i bathed at 2-3am yesterday thus, i didn't feel very weird all over... Hmm, saw Micheal and Yao Xing... it was funny to see both of them because i never see them for such a long time liao... Micheal was there just to piss me off... everytime like that de... his suaning skill has improved i-must-say but suan le, i just woke up and still quite blur.

Then, i saw a few familiar yet strange faces, well, time to make friends! Joining this supernova camp thingy really broaden my social circle a lot. sometimes, it might be a blessing but sometimes, find it a nuisance. HaHa!! For today, i find it... ... a blessing. HaHaHa!!

My msn messenger still is a bit sort-sort de and to think i've already re-installed it more than 5 times. I really should curse that person who started off with this. It really cause me so much trouble. bloody hell... HAHAHA!! long time never use this 2 words liao...

Hmm, it was very tiring but i've know a lot of little friends and big friends. One who fake that he was secondary 4... =.= and 3 who are still very young but they are really very smart. I know Jia Juan the very matured little girl, Jaret the xiao dong gua and Justin the damn funny childish yet loves to learn boy.

Hahaha, have a great time with them and i really learn something from these kids. Modern kids are so daring i cannot tahan and will think thrice to have kids in the future... HaHa!! Justin can actually knock the door and said loudly, "Hey! you've gotten 88 dollars, please answer the door to get your prize..." something like that lah... i was so shocked to hear that... i would never had that courage to do that in primary 6.

hmm, jia juan listens to pop songs and she likes most of the songs i like so i think she share something common. HAHAHA!! Jaret however was only 9 years old so we don't really have much topic to talk about just humour him with some ice-cream and he gradually sticks to you. =) I got my own way to suck up to kids leh... Because i've a brother at home... =.=

But i faced a problem too. When i talk to them, i use baby language though they might be old enough to understand human language... all because of my didi... i got this habit of treating kids as 5 years old kids thinking that they won't be understand if i tell them something that is too chim for them to digest... in the end, ... i think i'm the one that they find dumb because they speak chinese got those chim chim cheng yu i don't understand one leh... kaoz, the idioms they learn hor, are not the ones we learn anymore... sianz, lose face. I shall never underestimate kids anymore.

Hmm, we're late. HaHa!!! The kids group is late. Kelvin, Jason and I went back to TECC without the kids and auntie because they are tired and since they are already at their home, they ask if they could just stay at home. So, i left with the other two lo... Throughout the don't know how many how many how many many many units we knocked, 90% not at home and only like 2 answered and are interested in the program... SIANZ. Plus their house situation not bad... so the result of today's survey thingy is a total failure and waste of time.

Suan le, at least i met new friends. Hmm, yeah bought bubble tea before returning to TECC and it was a treat (or was it?) whatever lah... i never pay so it was. Hmm, then go back hor we were really the last group. HAHAHA!!! everyone was waiting for us but it's better to wait for people then people waiting for us hor? Okay, that was a bad thought.

Yeah, got rojak. I have to say something... Mr. Ken's treat is always rojak... everytime see rojak, you sure know is mr. ken's treat. HAHAHAHA!!! it's okay since the rojak was nice most probably because after an afternoon of hardwork, eating rojak is something better.

And, i finally witness termites war!!! HAHAHA!!! frankly, i've never seen termites before and i finally get to see them today. I though termites are like bettles, round and big but it was small and stick-like so termites are not very nice-looking huh? Hmm, but the powder spraying was looking fun though i never try spraying those white powder on the termites... later, yue bang yue mang.

Hmm, meeting ended at 6-7plus and i never go granny's house because my sister was at home so i can skip visiting. Got such excuse? YES! Of course! Before that i was strolling or searching around blk 201 area for my sister's stuff... damn, the handcraft shop close on sunday and i've no choice but to look around for other sources to get her stuff. In the end, never got what she wanted and got my head on the metal pillar.

I'm just so sway today. i was just trying to shoo myself and go under the plastic roof but i never expect myself to raise my head to early and knocked my head on that metal pillar. When i raise my head to look at the front again, to my surpise, i saw andrew and alex sitting in front of me, starring at me... AAAAAAAAAAAAAh!!! Dui Lian, don't know if they got see not... Thought i'll never see them again after bidding goodbye BUT... today is not my day.

Hmm, but today really very dumb i think it's because i didn't had enough sleep so very gong and my brain is not functioning well lah... there are more funny things but too much of them to be mentioned here... it's related to april fool'd day though. HaHa!!!! I get to meet a lot of lamers plus dirty jokes today... -_____-

Suan le, and my mummy is driving me crazy but i'll not let such things happen to me. I'll perservere and fight this battle and make sure i win and she wins. No loser but only WINNERS!

Shall go now, sayonara!