Prom Tonight!

Well well, i'm kind of sensing a little bit of reluctance... Hahaha. But i'll definitely go. Hey, you don't expect me not to turn up for prom when i've already invested a little percentage of my savings to it.

Mmm, yesterday k-box trip sucks to the max. So i don't feel like talking about it. Maybe just the end part. See ah, after we reach tampines mall, we went to get shi han's puff before we went to buy some eye patches thingy. We shared and though we shared, it still cost us three bucks each. Back at home i didn't start the same time as them...

At 9pm, i went to bath and wash my face then i put on my budget (but now it cost like $29.90 per box) face mask. At 12 then i put on that eye patch thingy. The result was good. Haha, perhaps because my dark circles condition is the worst of them all that's why it works for me. Of course, it would be a miracle for the whole dark circle to vanish. Ya, the dark circles are still quite obvious but slightly better than the past.

Alright now let's do the ranking of Naruto.

My top ten favourite characters in Naruto

1. Kakashi sensei
2. Gaara
3. Rock Lee
4. Naruto
5. Ero-senin
6. Sakura
7. Princess Tsunade
8. Gai sensei
9. Sasuke
10. Everyone else!

Actually, i love all the characters in the story so for the tenth position, i'll put everyone together. Wahahaha!! Kakashi and Gaara are still my favorite!

Everyone else consists of Gamabunta, Gamakichi, Gamatatsu, Shino, Akamaru, Kiba, Sasori, Chomaru (Chouji's Father), Chouji, Baki, Ebisu, Hayate, Haku, Hagane Kotetsu, Hiashi (Hinata's Father), Hinata, Neji, Kankuro (Gaara's Brother), Kinuta Dosu, Konohamaru, Zabuza, Ibiki, Idate, Shikamaru, Nidaime Hokage (2nd Hokage), Orochimaru, Sandaime Hokage (3rd Hokage), Sarutobi sensei, Genma, Shizune, Shodaime Hokage (1st Hokage), Tayuya, Temari, Tenten, Uchiha Itachi, Ino, Yashamaru, Yondaime Hokage (4th Hokage), Kurenai sensei, Pakkun, Kabuto, Iruka.

Sayonara!

Ciao!

The Creation of Utopia.

I wonder when such day will ever come...

Mmm, yesterday i went for a training session with Shi Han and the last-minute-join-in Cedrick. It was pathetic... i meant myself. Before i explain all that i just want to make an announcement that i've uploaded Meng Fei Chuan's bu zhi de!

I suppose this is from their album (the song you're listening to now)... if you ever heard their live performance on Spop, you're going to go mad. The solo might sound the same or somewhat a little better when you listen from the album. But the harmony is certainly way better when they perform live! Well, i would prefer the other members to sing slightly loudly to create a clearer harmony.

The part where they sing "zhe duan gan qing'' is so much nicer when they sing live... the one in album lacks the 'bright' and strength, it's too smooth with very gradual ups and downs. Their live rocks lo... they have the 'bright' and strength that is able to shake my heart. And of course very super obvious Ups and Downs.

Alright enough of my nonsense. I actually blog so much yesterday night and one click everything's gone! I'm quite lazy to blog now. I shall summarise.

Yesterday i wore my dumb heels to training because i have no black shoe. T.T So i have plasters on my little toe and the back of my heel because the skin there wore off and i even have a big 'water bubble' on that tiny toe of mine. I cut a hole on the dead skin and water flows out man! I thought it was only air leh! Scare me to death... i used to have one on my pinky when i was young because i played with the iron and got my pinky scalded. Hahaha, but i will never want to wear the heels again. If not for choir, i will never eeven get one de lor!

The training session tested us on our patience and perserverence. If you can't perservere, you wll doze off. And you got to be patient... the six slides of powerpoint slides took approxmately one hour. So it's like one slide ten minutes lah! And all those basics we know lo... we're not fools. Anyway, i did learn a lot yesterday and really "i will look cold storage at a different perspective from now on" just like what cedrick said.

O' and due to Shi Han, Cedrick and her wore their prom shirt to training! HAHAHAHA!! SO stupid can... everyone merely wear a polo t-shirt and both of them wear like they are going some performance.

Okay, story ends here.

Today, we're going shopping. So sorry Clinton, i can't help you 'pack' the dumb store. Hahaha! Oh yes! And something interesting... i dreamt that i'm out of SuperNova. Hahaha... And i was feeling weird. Sad? Happy? perhaps a mixture... i'm not very sure. Hahaha!

I'm getting my shoe and Anna's present with camilia today. And must apologise, 'coz i'm recently quite broke so the budget for Anna's present will be a little lower this year. Hahaha! Haiya, even though many keep saying "it's the thoughts that count" but sometimes the present that you want to get to show your thoughts is a little expensive you-know? Quite grumpy now when i think of this. I want to get her something that she really likes... but i've no idea what's that going to be.

I wonder who's going with us. Camilia... Cedrick and Shi Han... maybe vincent? Joel? Haiz... wasn't well-informed about that.

Oh! The super-sianz newspaper collection is on 15th December and 16th December and i was quite dumb to tell Jin Guang i can go. Actually cannot blame me lo, he called at wrong time lo! I was watching Naruto's third movie then he called and disturb me. So, i didn't really listen to what he said.

In the end, after the movie i realised i might already start work at cold storage lo! And we only have one off-day on one of the weekdays. We certainly, definitely, absolutely must work on weekends. SO... IF i didn't receive any calls from Kelly Service by 2nd December, i should be able to help out during the newspaper collecton. If not, too bad!

Alright, finish reporting. Enjoy the awesomely awesome song!

I'm singing this solo on Thursday's k-box trip! Wheeee... finally i'm going back to chinese songs. I suppose i watch too much Naruto and neglect music for weeks! After finishing Naruto, i'm returning to ying yue the huai bao. Mmm, maybe for you guys i might sound gross but i find it lovely. HAHAHA! And i shall put Michael Jackson's songs aside first until the k-box trip end! I might be going another KTV session with my cousins! I'm totally, completely falling in love with singing! My throat lar... voice box lar... mouth lar... and every muscles of mine are waiting miserably to sing and move to the beat!

Sayonara!!

Ciao!!

SPOP Hurray!

Well, i finally get to hear some very amazing voices and of course, one of my idol is there too. I ever told my friends i find his song getting overly rich sometimes and tonight, he simply sang some of his songs accompanied by the piano. Hooooo... simple and awesomely awesome! He should have kept more songs in a simple way. Those songs he sang just now really bring back loads of memories. Mmm, Michael is still way better, obviously.

But the way JJ sang his songs are somewhat similar to the way i sing. I always uses too much of my throat even though i tried hard to focus on my diaphram too. Professional singer like him uses diaphram also but you look at the way he sings... Mmm, maybe look at his throat lah... he kinda of pushing the sound out too much with his throat too. Either you get throat cancer easily or you get tired easily singing just a few songs. He got the stamina anyway. But i'm sure his jaw aches very often.

'Meng Fei Chuan' ROCKS! That harmony i would want to pursue! Yup, i wanted so badly to seek friends whom i can sing like that with! By the way, actually singing should be an enjoyable thing so not only should a singer be singing well... he or she should show on their faces that they truely, madly, deeply enjoy singing on stage! Facial expression is damn important de leh. Unfortunately, i only saw two fo the Meng Fei ChaunS enjoying.

Sayonara!

Ciao!

A New Dress.

Shi Han and i went job hunting today and ended up with a training sesson tomorrow! Hurray! Though it's 5 dollars per hour but the transport to work place is FREE! I'm going to work hard and go work punctually! Wahahaha!

And we went shopping for 5 minutes today. Can you believe after just 5 minutes of shopping i got myself a dress for prom! Hahaha... cool, isn't it? And it's within my budget. I don't want to spend a lot on clothes for prom night so buying a dress is certainly a very good choice. It's 40bucks... consider quite okay. Now, i'm left with heels and i'm done!

Maybe, i don't even exceed the hundred dollar budget! How nice! O' how terrible! I forgot i got to surprise everyone with my new hair style. But seriously, i have no idea which hair style there is for me to choose leh... Mmm, i only know one - LAYER! =.=

Nevermind, i'll go salon-ing this thursday for a mini 'rehearsal'.

Today is a lucky day. Thanks to Shi Han.... She's currently in a salon... doing facial. HAHAHA!

Sayonara!

Ciao!

Cold war breaks out.

Throughout this period, it had been such a challenge for me to endure. And worse, i can't really pour everything out and find a suitable someone to listen to how i feel... to share my worries... and anger. I really wish i had a pet to talk to. Yeah, at least, they listen and don't give comments or opinions that is hard for me to take. I'm somewhat always 'correct' with pets.

Mmm, a lot of things happen at home and a lot of things happen outside. Time will tell if my decision is right. But one thing i realise today is that fear discourage your belief in someone. Don't know how to explain lah...

I'm troubled. And it's by a lot of things but well, the main factor would be the possibility of a very dreadful ending... Mm, and the conclusion of today - One thing to add when finding future spouse... he MUST NEVER love and know and want to learn gambling. That's it.

Alright, i shouldn't end this entry in such a sad tone. Let's talk about today's PRSS open house. Mmm, the beat Your Shit a cappella did a fairly good job. Mmm, of course that 2nd song would need more practising... maybe i can help them out a bit before they throw my face on 22nd December '07. I've been waiting for such a chance to show my friends in SuperNova how a cappella is a powerful tool of music!

Yeah, they with a very dead expression but still, that harmony once again ignited the passion i had for singing. Though i wanted to form an a cappella but it was such a tough job getting people. Well, you can jeer me by telling me i'm just not working hard. But that's very mean and harsh of you to say that, okay? I already did my best. And if someone ever said that to me... i'm going to give him/her a good beating for sure and ignore that person for a month! I, seriously, can't take that joke. Joke whatever you want about me... but never about choir/ a cappella or anything i love.

I hope time will help me find my a cappella member. There's no point forcing people to join and then they stand on stage and sing like pieces of log. I can't stand seeing people standing on stage and sing without feeling for the song. More effort please! Well, seriously, you guys didn't even try!

Sayonara.

Ciao.

Dreamer.

Yeah, i've been a real dreamer these few days. Just two days ago, i met choir and YEC people in my dream (same dream). I even saw Dr. Ken talking to me. It was kind of weird to see choir and YEC people in that kind of situation but this also prove something... which i shouldn't be talking about here.

Anyway, it was not only a dream but a silent nightmare. I can only scream in my head though all that was happening was simply horrifying. This can means that i worried too much i-guess.

I'm not intending to attend the 8pm meeting. Hahaha, i am kind of sick today though felt better after eating a bowl of damn nice porridge. I was panting when i shouldn't... it was like asthma attack but then i don't have asthma from the beginning so i wonder why do i suddenly feel so breathless. Mmm nevermind, i guess food really is one of the best medicine FOR ME. I can recover so quickly with a cup of milo or a bowl of porridge. Simple neh... as long as the food is hot of course.

Haiz... jobless, still. i'm worry-sick.

Sayonara!

Ciao!

Met a foolish Auntie.

I can't believe i slog half my life away and only manage to get seven bucks! What cheap labour! And i met ridiculous people. What's wrong with asking the amount of pay? What's with his "no one ask such question on phone de."... I just feel like giving that guy one tight slap on his face. Alright, i hope no one wants to work him... and of course, you simply refuse to tell us 'coz you're paying workers cheaply. Trying to con us, right?

And I'm super bad-tempered now lo. Can you believe distributing 10,000 flyers in 2 and a half hours' time DOOR-TO-DOOR? That's approximately 2 seconds per flyers to have 2 people distributing those damn flyers. How naive can that auntie be! Those two must have threw like 2/3 of the 10,000 flyers away. Hello, 2 seconds per flyer leh... you got to count the time you need to walk from blocks to blocks and take the lift... They must have been conned lor! Foolish aunties.

I'm not going to see them ever again man. Slog half my life away... and i was somehow 'scolded' for taking a long time to finish distributing. Not to say, i even slipped and fell... and got myself soaked in prespiration and water. Man, O' Heaven, money is hard to earn!

Seriously, i am definitely willing to work hard but why am i not given this chance to? And my mother are saying things in a ironic way... she wanted me to get a job and yet asking me why am i going out so often lately... tell me exactly what's wrong with her? Can I find a job by just staying at home? How ridiculous can that be.

O' people, I need some luck!

Sayonara!

Ciao!

Christmas Charity Night

Yo my dear dear friends, this is definitely not a prank! If it is, then you can beat me up anytime when you see me x)

Event: Christmas Charity Night
Venue: TWCC
Date: 22nd December '07 (Sat)
Time: 6pm onwards
Cost: $20 per ticket

Highlights:

1. Campus Superstars will be there to sing!

2 . Dancefloor will be opened! (it's optional to dance by the way)

3. Other performances: a cappella, circus acts. etc.

4. A passion card will be given to either you or your family members/relatives!

5. It's for charity!

Interested/For more details...

please email me at: chanyingying33@hotmail.com

Jobless again.

Mmm, felt like being betrayed when i always thought she's someone that has a greater sense of responsibility than me. I alwaus thought this way... and seriously, if my mother ever said those things to me... i'm going to quarrel with her. How can she teach... ...

Haiz, it's a matter of principle... maybe she doesn't know. I cried not because i am afraid of losing this job. Neither do i care if i got scolded or whatever... I'm simply disappointed in her.

The feeling of being betrayed can never be underestimated.

Goodbye, my friend.

Job-hunting starts today!

I guess i'm feeling better maybe ecause i'm searching for a job starting today. Yup, i've decided the only thing that can make me happier and feel more useful is probably to get a job. In one way, it keeps me occupied. In second way, i get to earn money that i desperately need. In third way, i will feel more useful... well, at least more useful as a family member of the Chan.

I've realised factors that have contributed to my losing of self-confidence and depression. They are none other than... ...well, i guess i shouldn't be telling everyone about this. This is private leh.

So currently, i'll just work hard to get a job, learn as much as i can, depend on myself as much as i can... and feel more useful. I really dislike myself for being someone without any confidence. I once said i felt unneeded by everyone... but the truth is, i actually don't need everyone to need me. However, feeling unneeded by people you love... is miserable.

O' well, ... went to visit Fiona's blog to thank her for the awesomely awesome farewell party... though i left early but i still had a great time. Her sister rocks! Hahaha... she is a BBQ pro. And though Fiona is staying way too far, Clementi that is, she is still in Singapore (small, fine city)... shall see her at prom night.

Sayonara!

Ciao!

Strength

I'm a little out of my mind these few days. A little mad at times... a little emotional at times... But seriously the feeling of not being needed by anyone remains so strongly inside me. It made me ask myself my whole purpose of living... Imagine your disappearance won't make any impact on anyone...

I can't make a difference... no gifted talent... no brains... no qualities... simply weak. But don't worry... i'm not going to do something stupid because i fear death.

Even if i pull myself together... and do my very best to change... to make myself stronger... to make myself needed by everyone... that seems to be impossible, right? 'coz I'm never a lucky fellow to be given a chance to do that. Don't tell me opportunity is created by yourself. I think it's a piece of crap. Not all opportunity can be created by just you, yourself, alone.

I watched a Charity Concert yesterday performed by the mute, deaf, blind and physically disabled. They are not stunts performers, they are performing arts. Well, even them, they are needed... what am i? Logically, i should be stronger than them... more needed but i just don't feel this way.

I got to be stronger.

Sayonara!

Ciao!

I'm nowhere near joy.

You know how is it like feeling inferior?

When your presence seemed to be nothing to this world you're living in? When everyone seems to be invincible and you, yourself, are struggling to be like them and yet you know deeply in your heart that you are just different from all of them... a weakling which no one will want your pair of helping hand when you've already take initiative to lend it out.

This... is inferior.

K-box was F-U-N!

I never expect the k-box trip to turn out so fun! Man, well guess if you didn't hold any expectation, anything will turn out just well... maybe even better!

Mmm, though i forgot to bring my phone and feel uneasy the whole day but singing helps me to forget all about my phone. x)

Yesterday, we actually agree to meet up at 12.45pm, tampines MRT Station and i didn't even know about this! They have been discussing and sort of 'reminding' each other the time and place we're suppose to meet but as usual, i'm a little bit out of mind this few days so i didn't even hear that once out of the many times. Understand?

Of course, someone as clever as me will take initiative and ask them again. x)

And i end up being one the the earliest to reach. Freak. I thought i was the earliesi but well if that's k-box we're going, i suppose there will be two possibilities... one would be cedrick is too excited so he will reach early. Another would be shi han is also too excited so she will also reach early. Out of the two guesses, i manage to got one right! HAHAHAHAHA! Reach tampines MRT Station and saw one greenish cum skinny boy with a grey sling bag... that boy... i DEFINITELY Cedrick Poh Ah Ming! Hahahaha!!!

But you know even if there are two of us, there's guarantee to be leng chang... so we went about guessing who will come next and each of their 'habit'.

Guess 1: Joel will be the next one who will reach and he might even have already reached. Just that he thought he is early and have gone to Tampines Mall shop-shop. (We got it right!)

Guess 2: Shi Han will reach on time, perhaps. Not very sure because she is unstable de... got black records de. (Shi Han considered to have reached on time lah... so we got it right!)

Guess 3: Hayden will either reach on time or be late... Erpx, bullshit, right? Hahaha! My guess is he's either on time or the latest one. (Yeah, we got it right again!)

Guess 4: Ah Mor Leen... no need to say or think... she confirm plus guarantee WILL BE LATE just that we don't know if she's going to be REAL late or JUST late. Hahaha! (Yeah, got it right!)

When Ah Mor Leen reached, she straight away pass one mike to cedricK. Note: Mike = Microphone. Shall explain what's the use of the mike later on. HAHAHAHAHA!!!

Alright, then we proceed to the Platform and waited for the train... and boarded the train... and talk a lot and aloud on the train... and dui lian on the train and leng chang on the train... and feel sleepy on the train... and alighted the train... and transfer ourselves to the north line (hahaha!)... and boarded the train... and alighted the train... and walk out of mrt station... and reach cineleisure... and take escalator slowly there... and push the Head of Big Mouth to the counter... and went into the room... had enough of 'and'? I had enough so let's move on without 'and'. x)

The room was huge. Mmm, it's big enough for ten people i-suppose. We ordered ice lemon tea and got ourselves three small bowl of snacks. Then we start of with singing... I don't have a very good memory to be able to remember ALL the song we've sung but i know i laugh a lot and very loudly loads of times. Ah Mor Leen, as usual, is a good singer... who outshines all of them (but not me... HAHAHAHA! just kidding) Because we had five mikes or most of the time four mikes... i can't really hear her voice but SHE IS GOOD!

And we actually brought our own mikes to k-box because we thought it would be terrible to have six people and only two mikes. Other than waiting for your turn to sing, it's not worth the money... Surprisingly, k-box provided us with four. So it's like... waste effort bring mikes... =.= HAHAHAHA!! Plus it's sure was dui lian to the MAX!

And very soon, we ate up the snacks and wanted to call for re-fill but no one is willing to do that until Head of Big Mouth call. With the four mikes, we blast the room and the whole k-box! And 'coz everyone singing can't hear their own voices, we are like unkowingly screaming into the mikes! HAHAHAHAHA! So the 'audience' had a miserable time listening.

Then, it was when we started to pick oldies songs. Mmm, actually, people still sing them now and we're not singing those super ancient 'lu bian yi ge rong shu whatever..." or "yue liang dai biao wo de xin..." we practically stick to just as old as... Mmm, "guan huai fang shi", "xi shui chang liu"... those songs lor.

Actually, i also forgot why i laugh so much but it's sure super funny if not, i wouldn't have laughed so much so loud! Hahaha! We got sing out-of-tune de... and everyone cannot keep to the beat de... and our bodies have to move to the beat like retards to keep to the beat... and choose the song but forgot how to sing the beginning de... and loads! It was fun, really. I never had such a great time at k-box before lor. This was the very first one!

Oh! And this time mike hogger is none other than... (*drum drum*) ME! HAHAHAHAHA!!! Those songs they choose are quite familiar to me and so, i just hog on to the mikes and sing lor. HAHAHAHA!! Ah Mor Leen must have passed her hogger spirit to me... since i was sitting with her throughout this year in class. HAHAHAHA!!! Told you... i'm easily affected.

And there was a moment, i ate too much snacks and got my throat sore... luckily with Joel's mint tic tac and hayden's spicy till max potato chip, am able to recover quickly! HAHAHAHA! Next time, i shall equipped myself with these two things to prevent getting sore throat during singing. If not, it's a waste of money lor. Imagine you cannot sing at your tip-top condition. Man, i hate listening to lousy voice of mine.

Then there was a point i laugh until peng... but i forgot it's for what liaoz. Hahaha... we ended everything with a chinese version of 'breaking free' since we can't find the english version one. And it was so... awfully WEIRD! I hope next time i visit k-box they have the english version one, okay? Hahaha!

Now let me analyse each one of our singing...
First, Cedrick, the head of Big Mouth, he improved tremendously... must be all the practising during the times he is suppose to be studying for MCQs... HAHAHAHAHA!!! And his voice (singing style), seriously sound like ah di's from energy.

Ah Mor Leen is able to sing those high notes without sounding too airy... so there's only one word to describe her singing - GOOD!!!!!!

Joel's singing is the same de lah... don't know how to describe. He is like pretty good at singing but maybe only to some songs bah... and i think Cedrick can sing better than him. Ooops! Alright, but he can use his falsetto quite well... unlike Cedrick who needs more practising. Hehehe...

Shi han is always thinking her singing sucks and i disagree... she can sing GOOD too. It's just that her high notes sounded airy and she needs to listen to her own voice. If not, she will go out-of-tune easily.

Hayden belongs to bass if you were to put him in choir. Hahaha! Mmm, very deep and he also in tune de leh...

Overall, i think Zodiac all can sing de lor but we cannot form a band. If not, we all go out-of-tune. We can only go SOLO! HAHAHAHAHAAHAHA!!!

Alright, i got to analyse my own singing... I perform normally yesterday and didn't really care much aboiut out-of-tune 'coz i just want to have fun. I realise though i love loads of male singers' songs but in general, i perform better when singing female singers' songs leh... I can't reach too low so it's like well, looks like i need to go back choir and get back to alto. I want to be able to sing a huge range de... be it high or low. Bleah! Don't care... i will practice hard!

Alright, after k-box trip we went to buy shi han's mango pudding pearl tea? I forgot what is it... and went back home... Had enough of being squashed in the train. I had to stretched my hands to grab the support and it was aching like hell. Then it was shi han who has to grab the pole at a very difficult position... looking as though she was hugging joel's waist! HAHAHAHAHA!!! Then Cedrick who doesn't have anything to hold on to and only can stand there and wait to fall anytime. HAHAHAHAHAHA!! When the train jerked he almost fell and Shi Han, Joel and I were like... *grab, grab, grab* and he gave that funny face that makes me want to burst out of laughter.

And we reach Tampines and abandoned the squashy train and bid goodbye to the four who went off. We consists of Ah Mor Leen and I lah... i'm always the one accompanying her to the toilet before the exam, find her bottles when she lost it, and now buy her whatever liquid thingy to wash her contact lens. HAHAHA... see, what a nice friend i am! Bleah! x)

So we went Tampines Mall. Ask loads of optical shop and watson and can't get what she wanted. And Cedrick and the rest came back to return Ah Mor Leen her PORTABLE MIKE! HAHAHAHAHA!! So, in the end, i got to go back home with 3 people! Yay! I thought i have to go home alone seh... which would be a sad thing.

On our way out of Tampines Mall, i actually got a shock of my life to see one bamboo (186cm) and one ronnie wu liao (180cm), walking towards me. And they somehow spotted me when i'm the size of most of the people in the crowd. How unbelievable! I almost went mad seeing them... tried to hide but like i can! *sigh* Hahaha! Okay lah, bamboo was wearing the wheel the olds shirt... looks like he ran out of shirts to wear like that. Hahaha! But fancy meeting them at the place and time like that! Gosh.

Mmmm, then Ah Mor Leen got no choice but to buy another brand de liquid and after that we went home happily lor. Hahaha!! Hope that liquid is better than her brand de. Contact lens so ma fan... Anyway, Ah Mor Leen got mention she wanted to do some volunteery work so i was trying to recommend her to join SuperNova. As usual, she is not interested in SuperNova even when i told her got loads of shuai geS (that was a lie! HAHAHAHA!!). She's only obsessed with her Super Junior nia...

O' yeah! Regarding the Christmas Charity Night tickets, i still have no one to buy from me! This is bad... and worse, i have no time to do loads of advertising... Gosh, busy busy after Os!

Shall stop here. I'm getting too whiney.

Sayonara!

Ciao!

Brrr... cold.

It's raining now. The weather is freezing cold. I'm going k-box later on. Actually, i should be out by this time 'coz i got basketball game in the morning but the weather is bad and it is postpone to this coming Friday.

I don't even know what songs to sing... really, i've not been listening to chinese songs since the starting of exams. Michael jackson's songs are all i've been listening to. If i were to sing his songs during the k-box outing... everyone will stare at me with eyes like this: =.='' HAHAHA!!!

I did try to do some research on the latest songs but don't really know how to begin with leh... A bit sick and lazy to do anything. Shall make a detailed plan on how i should spend my holiday when i come back home today. I got to find a job! Damn, but how do i start off? This is freaking annoying...

I'm still not forgetting about the room choir has gotten in the new building. I wish i could crush this whole school with my palm. Let them rebuilt the school and give us, choir, a nice, big and comfortable room... this is, after all, what we deserve! Looking at the size of the room, it's only fit to be storeroom! Maybe choir can have that as our storeroom!

Argh, i'm really pissed off. It seemed like the school just pick a corner that has space to build a room and just give it to us. What do they treat us as? We can't even have a room of our own... and do what we like to the room. Choir members definitely won't feel a sense of belonging, we won't... i won't. I just feel a surge of anguish rising up from my toes to my head and i'm kind of qi dao yao bao le!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAh!!!!! Hate this... B(((( *sulk*

I guess after watching Naruto i've changed a lot. A little more crazy, a little more rude, a litte more crude, a little more easily thrilled by just little things in life... *sigh* Hardwork can never beat Genius... this totally crush my belief. It makes me feel worthless... and i'm losing faith and confidence in myself. It's how pathetic i am to be so easily affected by some stupid anime... I've been tossing and flipping under my duvet since Monday. And seriously, i don't like to witness things that are cruel. Just can't face it. Just can't stand it. Just can't take it. T.T

Naruto... ... ... it's bloody.

I need to get back to life, seriously. One more day is the most i'm giving myself.

Sayonara.

Ciao.

The Unknown Crisis.

Dear all,

Os has officially ENDED!

Bye all. =.=

Never know things have gone so far... but it's okay because i'm still going to face it with a smile and a few more sighs. HAHAHAHA!!! *sigh*

Alright let me just summarise everything that has happened from Thursday till now.

Yup, on thursday which was suppose to be a Deepavali holiday and which was suppose to be a study day for me and which i should avoid switching on the computer and which... Hah, alright, i had a audio conversation with Weslie on msn. Man, it was so cool and it was sad none of you can hear how well he played his guitar... and how horrible he sang. Mmm, HAHAHAHAHA!! Okay lah, not bad but if i were him, i could sing better. Ooops! Just kidding.

Damn it lor, kind of jealous that he could master guitar so quickly, actually. I'm picking up guitar... going to. I GOT TO! Hah, i'm going to beat Weslie in guitar and singing. Don't care! Hahaha, a little overestimating myself. It's okay, you'll never know... you just got to give it a try first.

On friday, it was the meeting lah... it's been a loooooong time since i went and i seemed to miss out a lot i-guess 'coz i couldn't really understand what they were talking about and just pretend that i sort of know. hahaha, the only thing i know is just my a cappella stuff. Hahaha, sianz. I wasn't listening too... and even when i listened and wanted to give my opinions or suggestions... i didn't. Well, i know they are just rubbish that isn't of any help. Just... a waste of time! I end up drawing faces of whiteboard.

There they are:

Family portrait. Erpx, not really family... Just merely look like one. x)

Kelvin... doesn't look like him at all. Hah!


Steven & Ying Hui... too bad i forgot to draw their hands!



Ying Hui...




Millicent with pong pong head. HAHAHAHA!!! Just like rock lee (in naruto)!


This must be gai sen sei (rock lee's teacher) with the same hair style. Mmm, actually it's desmond. HAHAHAHA!!


Cassandra... she doesn't like me drawing her this way. But i can't do anything better! Pai seh!


Shi Chang with that retarded look. he looks like those stupid cum dumb cum blur type and so here he looks...

This big guy with a belly would be Ronnie Wu Liao lor... Wahahahaha!!! Erpx, with half a hand missing! Ooops!

As for Gao yang... i got to apologise for missing taking his individual photo... i didn't realise it leh! So sorry! Hahaha, but you did appeared in that family portrait. Yes.

You-know.... when you're kind of bored, your hands just start to itch... x)

Okay, Saturday is special because i had a laidback day. Special? I must be kidding, right? Hehe, i watched Naruto till 3am... never even touch any books! Good O' ying ying! i'm sick of books, really. I love Naruto so much... but it didn't stay long.

And on Sunday, I finally saw my granny (miss her loads!!!!!!!!!!!! I wanted to hug her but didn't have a chance)... and i met CHARMAINE when i went for the Silver Connect induction. Had a really great time chatting with the kids and auntie and charmaine and everyone i know! It was talking all the way! I got charmaine's email now but shall add her later on... heard she got exams... don't want to disturb her. x)

Oh and i witness old folks choir. Gosh, pretty amusing... they sang with their mouth open so big. How i wish choir could see how they sing... Well, but the hearing part... maybe it's not up to my expectations. i thought i would hear better things. Alright, i know i can't expect much from grandpas and grandmas... they sang for leisure. I got a comment, actually... Grandmas shouldn't stick with their old ways of singing... it's too screechy for ears. The guys are great, certainly!

Still, i learn something from them.

Monday, Physics and Chemistry paper 1... kind of flunk physics. I only touch chemistry... and for physics, i touch those MCQ before Os. The formula and theory has all become so blur. No matter how long i flipped and tried to zoom in... the image is still blur in my mind. Should have stored a magnifying glass inside my head... but i didn't. Too bad! Just hope i got the correct one!

And i spent the rest of the day watching Naruto and i stopped at episode 50. I swear i'll never watch it again. I don't like it at all... cruel. T.T

I hate to be emotionally affected by things showing on the Tv... but i can't help it. I had a sleepless night... and took bio paper 1 with 3/4 eyes closed the very next day. No more Naruto! I quit!

Tuesday... which is today... (bio paper 1)... i went in to the old campus. Mmm, it was a sneaky act. HAHAHA! No lah, how can i by-pass a security guard without being noticed? Obviously it's impossible. I had a great look at the school and a great shock with what we've gotten. Argh! This school sucks! I truely deeply hate pasir ris secondary school for giving us such a small room! How can seventy of us squeeze into such a small room for practice? This is driving me so mad, real mad.

I'm going to protest about this. Even that damn music room is so much bigger than our choir room. We can't even put chairs inside... and just a step in you can hear your own foot step echo. It's SO SMALL!!!!!!

That's what we deserve for getting a Gold for SYF? Damn, even the toilet is bigger than our room... even a classroom is so much bigger! There's no air conditioner and the place is so COSY and STUFFY. I'm being nice here to use the word 'cosy' but i'm really really pissed off by that school. And we even have to share with the malay dance! I rather we have the music room since no one will need to attend music lesson after curiculum time.

TINY YOU KNOW?

ARGH!!!!! *STOMP STOMP*

Sayonara!

Ciao!

Updates (edited)

Yup, i've so much to tell yet i'm so lazy to type it all out. Just wait till the mood comes, alright?

1. The guitar day on Deepavali holiday!
2. Friday's meeting... Mmm, almost slept at the beginning. x)
3. The laidback Saturday watching Naruto till 3am on the bed.
4. Sunday: Friendship choir & CHARMAINE!
5. Monday: Naruto sucks. Quit Naruto.
6. Tuesday: Os has officially ended! Back to Old Campus.

Freedom is approaching... The End of Misery! (Update: Freedom is here!)

But it's the start of boredom unless i can find a job to keep myself occupied.

Sayonara!

Ciao!

P.s. Oh yeah, wonder is it because of the cops 'coz peace finally returns. Oh well, thanks to O' Heaven! >.< Just kidding.

Don and .... READ THIS.

Since you got the nerves to spam then you should have the courage to face the police. I'm reporting the prank calling and online spammer to the police together. Don't be surprise if you see a bunch of police officers knocking at your door. Cheers!

Force to spam? Don't treat me like a three year old kid. That someone doesn't have a gun pointing to your head to force you to spam. Brainless! If you really got the guts, show yourself! I'm not afraid to straighten everything out face to face. I welcome you... anytime! Don't behave like a mouse, only know how to hide behind the computer screen and do stupid things. Scaredy cat! Gutless!

Sayonara!

Ciao!

Happy Deepavali!

I hope i spelt it right! I'm so happy today... without a reason! Most probably because i've been spending two very 'relaxed' days without anything to do. Well, yesterday i went to the library and can't borrow any books! Damn, i found two books but sad to say, i didn't pay the fine and can't borrow any book. Worst still, i'm broke and can't afford the 10 bucks fine. Freak... I can't believe i owe the Library 10 solid dollars!

Anyway, i went to the CC twice. First trip to help myself focus on Chemistry and second one to get the Silver Connect T-shirt. I saw the list... so many aren't coming... so why bother to go too? I thought of skipping it man. And thinking back, it's been a month since i visit my granny... miss her a lot and i know she misses me a great deal too (it's true hor! Hahaha!). But i heard the three kids are coming and i'm trying to contact them 'coz they got to get their shirt before Sunday. *sigh* Nevermind, if i'm attending this event, i shall ask permission to go visiting early... like reach granny's place at 1pm and leave her house at 4. Hope my mom agrees to it.

Well, actually there's another the reaon for not wanting to go. I got to try digging my wardrobe for long pants. Oh and tried on the shirt... it was huge! If i get a small one i scared it won't fit... Forget it. Mmm, oh yeah, my mom and dad is planning to sell the flat. Damn, i hate to leave this place. I've already adapted to this neighbourhood and i really really really hate to leave. TECC is just a few streets away... my old school is just a traffic light away... my cousin's house is just one road away... everything i love is just so near!

Alright, just pray hard the price of this damn flat falls and they can't sell it. Bleah! Okay okay... it's their flat i know... my strong stand won't make anything happen. I just got to leave. After eight years... MAN!!!! Forget it, just hope even if i got to move... i will still love to somewhere in Tampines. If they're planning to move into another town, I'm going to protest! And let's just hope it moves somewhere near to ................. Mmm, shall remain a secret. HAHAHA!!

But funny lah... if we're moving and we moved to the block next to this one... it's going to be a real joke! HAHAHAHAHAHA!! I don't mind, as long as we're staying here... TAMPINES!

Once again, HAPPY DEEPAVALI!

Oh! Are those serving Nation service able to return home today? Man, they have to lah! It's emergency! Urgent! Urgent!

Sayonara!

Ciao!

one whole long chunk of junk!

Aw man, yesterday was a boring day. I spent it so slowly that i just wish Os never end. I've lost interest spending my days... Nono... should be the whole day online with nothing to do! So out of boredom, i actually started reading. And i read Adrain Mole. HAHAHA!!

Alright, i spent the late afternoon till 11, trying to finish the whole book and i succeeded. So much memory filled me yesterday. I can't believe i actually understand this book better... 'coz during sec. 2 or sec. 1 (i can't remember exactly which year)... Adrain keeps mentioning about figures i don't know. Historical figures like Margaret Thatcher, Princess Diana's wedding and weird vocabulary used by American when he met one. Now, i understand everything!

I'm fighting with the mozzies now. Bites are all over my legs and i'm scratching like crazy. I think i forgot to mention that Choir has officially lost our important conductress cum instructress. After Ms Fu left us, now even Ms Lye is leaving us. No, not leaving us... she has officially left two days ago. What a pity!

From the first day i stepped into this choir, i've been reprimanded severely times by Ms Lye... but who cares? I still like her a whole lot! When i just joined choir, at the end of my sec. 1 life, i got to went through an audition... and i got in to Alto. Choir has made me realised things i'm unable to understand in the past. And i'm so proud to be part of this big family.

When i was still a kid, with no sense of responsibility and totally unaware of what is correct and what is wrong... focussing just on my studies... i skipped choir practice and the reason was because i had a test the next day. Well, this was thought to be a reasonable reason but i was wrong. After receiving a scolding... a very painful one by my dearest Mrs Chua, i never skipped choir practice anymore. It was the first one and the very last one... Oh no! Mmm, i didn't even stepped out of the school before Mrs Chua caught me! Hahaha!

And Ms Lye has taught me a lot a lot. She let me witness the power of voices and how amazing different voices can combine into such harmony. Before that, i just thought since my interest is singing, i should join choir... after failing to do well in the school badminton team.

Looks like i'm too long-winded. I hate to see Ms Lye leaving us and i really don't know what will happen to choir in the future. We're going to have another conductor, be it a strong one or weak one... choir will still have quite a tough time adapting to a new one. The teaching method, conducting method and principles are going to be different and we might just read the wrong signal. HAHAHA!

Maybe the conductor is going to be a strict one... and just one minute late, members got to stand outside under the rain and sun... I guess, many members will feel offended and lost interest in singing. Well, just hope this will neve come true! Or maybe, the conductor would be a guy... and a charming one someone... i believe with a charming conductor, the members would love to attend choir practices! HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! Will be great if the conductor is young... 'coz even though he or she might not be an experienced one, he or she will be able to participate in whatever the choir organised (activities and events) and have fun with us, just like friends! Our relationship with conductress and instructress has never been really close.

Wish prss choir all the best and i will haunt choir the rest of my life. Hahaha, even if they throw me out, i'll go right back in! I miss those choir practices when i get to go home at 6... walking home with anna and stopping at cheers to get myself a can of wang wang milk. I miss those days i got to conduct warm ups and singing together with the choir members. I miss those days Alto had our sectional and how we encouraged each other to sing out loud and proud or simply just correct each other's mistakes.

I miss those days Alto members laugh and bear with my persistent singing over and over again... it was sheer torture to them... but pure happinesss to me to see them suffer... MUAHAHAHA!!! I miss those times i see choir members improving in their singing and be able to participate in SYF. That awesome! I hate to see people being left out when we should be singing as a whole! We are able to sing as one and everyone is happy to be able to contribute their voices to choir. Oh and i especially miss those days when the boys are having difficulties singing using falsetto and i had a hard time pushing them not to give up.

Of course, some like stupid dehong and yan jie gave up but people like firdaus, benjamin, alvin and benson never! Able to witness how hard they struggled to overcome the faults of puberty is really touching. See Benjamin... he can't even sing a note well has become one of the best singer in Alto. Alto has produced so many talents! HAHAHA! Alright, let's just say Choir as a whole. CHOIR HAS PRODUCED MANY TALENTS! Benjamin since became the most doted alto member of mine. Well, actually there's also another reason for that. He has been a very quiet individual who somehow don't like to talk to girls. (after all choir have loads of girls) He seldom talk now with Yan Jie gone! Yeah, i used to scold them a lot when they keep talking at the back... hahaha!

I'm not being bias to anyone lah... but i just hope choir members are able to receive sufficient attention and care from their friends. So let's say he or she has been neglected by family or friends. I hope they are able to find happiness in the CCA they belong to. So, i always try to talk to those who never talk... a bit act 'shou' but if i am someone like that, i will also wish there's always someone there for me. x) I believe that's also the only way to keep people like them committed even after they left school.

I'm once again broke and unable to fulfil my promise... i had promised the Alto to give them a treat if we get a Gold for SYF. Now that we did, i got to give them a pizze treat. I told them i only got a hundred bucks to spare! Now, i'm only left with six pathetic bucks! HAHAHAHA! Wait till i get my pay, alright? HAHAHAHA!! Hey, and i forgot to mention Xin Ci has lost loads of weight and she now look so pale and weak. Aw man, she should eat more. I'm going to get her a chocolate bar everytime i visit choir...

To fulfil my promise, after Os, i really got to work. Any lobang?

Okay, today i'm going to the Library to borrow a few nice books so that i can stop wasting time at home thinking of what to do. Maybe i'll visit TECC too and start on my chemistry MCQ... it's been a long time since i visited TECC and that has made me lose interest in Supernova. HAHAHA! Shit right? Okay okay, let's see if my once-again-committment can help to regain my long-ago interest. I'm such a bad kid. I even told Desmond i don't want to take up the main fac's job.

Seriously, 'coz after telling him i am okay with main fac's job, my heart just can't focus. Doubt it likes this job. I know my heart very well... it prefers the assist-fac's job because it can have more fun! I also believe assist-fac can learn more because main fac tends to interact less with their group members and i am someone who loves to talk. Cannot, assist-fac lah, hor? But thinking of the pressure desmond had now arh... telling him that maybe he might BAO or break down sia. So yesterday, i distracted him on another topic after realising the mistake of telling him about this matter. Hope that the Supernova has many people who volunteer to be main fac then they got no choice but to take out a few people... one of them would be me!

Hope you guys understand what i'm trying to say today because i'm very un-english today. I'm stuttering in my brain. Perhaps too happy that makes me stutter even when thinking!

Oh and i think i'm turning into a half-vegeterian. My throat's condition is worsening and i don't intend to see a doctor. Last time, it used to be just banning large amount of chicken. Now, it has refused even pork or duck! So sianz, just two pieces and i can't sleep for the rest of the night! It itches the whole night yesterday! Freak. Haiz, cutting down on meat and see if things will improve not.

I'm missing someone real badly now. It's been months since i last talked to him. See him soon!

Sayonara!

Ciao!

Last resort: Call 999

Man, i'm not sure what to do now. I just know this is something out of my control and, of course, the teacher's as well... So after a month, i guess she really thought of a good way to answer me. Hahaha... and i was dumb enough to believe it. Alright, my bad. Even so, i think i ought to think logically. Since she denies it then i guess i should not convict her. One more call from stranger and once i got the number from the caller ID, i will report it to the police and track the person down. Even if he or she uses someone's phone, i think he or she can't be naive enough to think that she'll only get that person or particular shop into trouble, right? Hahaha!

At that time, if it's really her, even if she denies, there's evidence. Maybe she got some sort of a split personality. That's why in front she doesn't know what she really did behind when her personality 'split'. Hah. The truth shall come to the Light!

Actually, i strongely believe that even if it wasn't her... it's someone related to her. So if you (i hope you know it's you) read this, it's better if you go and check it out before you're brought into this matter by the police. Yeah, and after thinking though this matter, maybe there's someone out there who's out to sabotage you. Mmm, to that someone. she has really got her way. But not anywhere further. You will be punished for whatever you've done.

Oh and regarding my blog's tagboard, i must say it's related to the prank calling incident for sure. That's why i'm going to report it to the police as well. Please take note that the IP address is being revealed... thanks to the good service provided by cbox. Even though the IP address changes, it doesn't mean the police can't solve this problem. And even if he or she uses an unknown computer from some cyber cafe, i doubt the police is so inefficient to be unable to track people. Well, never underestimate what police in Singapore can do 'coz they have the updated technology and efficient system. x) Oi spammer! Please continue to spam 'coz i need your IP address!

Since you got the courage to sabotage/spam and do whatever that upset humanity. Then, you should have the courage to face it and receive the punishment.

I'm blogging this just to remind you that you're given a LAST chance. Stop all the spamming, prank calling and distributing my numbers online and you'll be alright. If not, I just got to get the police involve in this and i'm sure it's something not good for both of us.

Sayonara!

Ciao!

8 more hours to Hell.

There are simply too much to memorise!!!

Time is Running Out!!!! Help me!
Someone HELP! I'm going crazy...!!!!

ALL THOSE FREAKING PLANTS AND ORGANS ARE DRIVING ME CRAZY!!!!!

What education system? What health care system? Singapore? Britain? Switzerland?

Man, too much.

Suffocating. I just can't bring myself to memorise... what's with me? BUCK UP! BUCK UP!

sayonara.

ciao.

Os' slave

Pathetic Higher chinese is making me feeling real lousy. I'm beginning to really understand how weak i am to be so easily influenced by the surroundings. I'm vulnerable to changes. Even with a strong foundation, you can never beat changes. They easily affect you and shaped you into someone you hardly understand. And i know how it feels.

After watching hours and hours of channel 5 and speaking so much English to myself everyday to boost my confidence and to comfort my soul... I hardly know chinese. Chinese has become such a stranger to me. I speak them just to communicate with my family members and worst of the worst, i hardly communicate with them. I want a change!

But wait, let's wait patiently for Os to bid us goodbye... T.T I hate exams. I truly hate them.

Physics is stabbing me.

Biology is kicking me.

Social Studies is drilling me.

Slaving away for Os. How terrible it is!

I'm upset. I want to be destructive.

But still, i got to tell myself, "Chiong bah, my friend, you got no time to be destructive!"

Sayonara.

Ciao.