Hardly shaken.

She's ain't getting tired of this. Fancy telling me that she understands what it means by "it's not the name people don't like, but herself." and yet what i've seen for myself is that SHE HASN'T CHANGE A SINGLE BIT. Trust her to say she understands... How lame.

Nevertheless, I can't believe i'm seeing dark spirits hanging around my blog again. Scold whatever you want... it's so tiring trying to stop and having to 'scold' you whenever this happens. I had enough... i'm hardly shaken, man. Continue whatever you like... if you dare to mess with me, it's your choice, i can't stop you. But when THAT day comes... don't you regret.

Alright people, i'm here blogging again. I've been running to the toilet quite a few times this morning. I guess it's the whole mass of junk food i've gobbled up yesterday's night. Mmm, had a very slow night 'coz the mattress was too soft i can't sleep comfortably. Yeah, trust myself to think that i will have a fun-filled night discussing about SuperNova Camp '08?

Things that i want to mention have been banned. Can't believe yesterday i saw a bear and i got to fight for a piece of trash matress with it. HAHAHAHA!! O' and i laughed at having to kick Bamboo's butt when i was adjusting my sleeping position. That makes me feels so awake that i can't go back to sleep till i rock myself in the world of "Stranger in Moscow"!

O' and a Sadako appeared in the midst of the night and scare Steven and Ying Hui out of their wits! She went to the kitchen in search of drink and visited the toilet to clear her bladder and then went back to bed. Very funny, huh? so lame lo =.=

Mmm, preparing to work though i actually got to report at 10.30am but look at the time, now! Hahaha... I will spice up my life bits by bits everyday from now on.

Well, to those who are filled with envy and jealousy, i will kindly request you to leave now and never return. To those who wanted to have fun, welcome to my world!

Of course, i've already blacklisted one. Too bad!

Sayonara!

Ciao!

Simply delete Nagging 5.3 and download Violence 2.1

Dear IT Support,

Last year, I upgraded from Boyfriend 5.0 to Husband 1.0 and noticed a slow down in the overall performance, particularly in the flower, gifts and jewellery applications that had operated flawlessly under Boyfriend 5.0. In addition, Husband 1.0 un-installed many other valuable programs, such as Romance 9.5 and Personal Attention 6.5, but installed undesirable programs such as Formula One 5.0, NBA 3.0 and World Cup 2.0. And now Conversation 8.0 no longer runs and House Cleaning 2.6 simply crashes the system. I've tried running Nagging 5.3 to fix these problems, but to no avail. What can I do?

Signed,
Desperate Housewife



Reply:

Dear Desperate Housewife,

First keep in mind: Boyfriend 5.0 is an entertainment package, while Husband 1.0 is an operating system. Try entering the command C:\ I THOUGHT YOU LOVED ME and download Tears 6.2 to install Guilt 3.0.If all works as designed, Husband 1.0 should then automatically run the applications Jewellery 2.0 and Flowers 3.5. But remember, overuse can cause Husband 1.0 to default to Grumpy Silence 2.5, Happy Hour 7.0 or Late Night Teh Tarik 6.1. Late Night 6.1 is a very bad program that will create SnoringLoudly.wav files.

Whatever you do, DO NOT install Mother-in-Law 1.0 or reinstall anotherBoyfriend program. These are not supported applications and will crash Husband 1.0.In summary, Husband 1.0 is a great program, but it does have a limitedmemory and cannot learn new applications quickly.You might consider additional software to improve memory and performance.

I personally recommend Hot Tasty Food 3.0 and Tongkat Ali 6.9.

Good Luck,
IT Support

Sayonara!

Ciao!

Random Picture Party!

Alright, this is taken during the Year End Event - Christmas Charity Night. I just gotten this from Ying Hui so i thought of sharing it here. x)

Hehe, i don't look ugly leh... Awesomely taken!

This photo is a little bit too strange. Mmm, i meant myself. Look at my face... there's something wrong with this face. Hahaha! The two girls look fine. The freaking one is ME. Argh.

And this is taken during the SuperNova Retreat '08. I wanted to take how disgusting Alex was for 'storing' water in his mouth, trying to fill up the bucket in his weird way but he's too fast. You know the Pasir Ris sea water is EW to the max!!! Too hiong but i like the spirit and courage! xx)

This is showing Desmond who is allergic to sea water squeezing water from his clothes... in the end, he ended up having a pair of really red arms. I know how itchy it must be! So sorry! But he should have told us beforehand that he is allergic to sea water lor! I still feel quite bad lah. Luckily, he recovered fast enough!

This is taken around a week ago when Desmond drove me to MJ. EH, the way he drives... SCARY TO THE MAX, RIGHT? But i find him the second best driver other than my dad. x) Sometimes, he didn't use both his hands de lor! Dangerous leh...




This is taken a few days ago when i went to EXPO with my family. The stupid undergarment for kids is so STUPID TO THE MAX! How red it is... how 'lucky' it is!



A close-up on the character on the underwear... FU. So... TU to the MAX lah! Stupid leh... i won't let my brother wear this, definitely. HAHAHAHAAHA!


This is freshly-taken! I had my dinner with my collegues today and we went to eat Mos. Out of curiosity, i ordered a Plain Dog, Ice Milk Tea and Hot Milk Tea. I want to taste the difference lah... but the end conclusion is: No difference 'cept the difference between hot and cold. A photo of the two milk teas.

Enjoy the photos! Yup, this is the time to clear the memory in my com and phone! x) I'll post more photos the next time! Oyasuminasai!

Sayonara!

Ciao!

Pay Day x)

I've just received my pay yesterday but other things are too exciting that i simply forgotten about MY PAY. Yeah, money isn't everything... but without money, you can't do anything. Eh, HAHAHAHA!!

Mmm, before my dad reach Marine Parade, i went to withdraw half of my pay. Okay lah, i thought i will feel heartbroken but in fact, i felt a radiating glow on my face... kind of proud that i can contribute some money for my sweet home, finally. Though it's not a large sum of money, it's the thought that counts. I'm learning how to manage my finance you-know? HEHE.

Yeah, 'coz my first month pay (which is $135) is barely sufficient for my expenditure the next month so i didn't contribute my pay to my family. And i felt so bad so for the whole of next month, i didn't want to take any allowance from my mummy.

Thinking of how i should give my parents the money... Mmm, tough leh. I've put the cash into two envelopes and i'm planning to leave on on the desk and drop the other one into my mummy's bag. x) Sneaky, yeah? Just want to give them a pleasant surprise and of course, hopefully, my blur mummy will not drop that envelope when she's digging her bag for something or treat that envelope as litter and throw it into the bin.

I can't believe what will happen! Still, i'm taking this risk... Can't be bothered, man. I want to give them a surprise! xx) Excited... Whahaha.

I've not tender my resignation letter but i'm not planning to work anymore. I think it's time i take a break, tidy up the place, exercise daily, focus on kicking away my bad habits, do whatever i feel that i need to do for the next three weeks before the posting result comes out.

1st February... i will be giving my dear Altos a treat to pizzas. Man, i wonder how things will turn out lor! That xiao xuan... she's going to make sure my pocket really kena burnt a hole! HAHAHA!! Nevermind, they deserve this treat lah. O' wait, i must remember to bring a camera! This is consider as Altos' outing!

Sayonara!

Ciao!

Over-blogging.

It has been a high day. And i know i've been over-blogging but i still wanted to share my day with everyone here. x)

Yup, i went shopping with my cousin, her boyfriend (Mr Rare i always called him that) and her friend who is called Sumei. Mmm, i thought things will turn out badly but unfortunately... it didn't! Though i didn't buy anything in the end... i met new friend. She is a nice girl, steadily. A little shorter than me... very skinny... very friendly. Whahaha...

Heard lots of old stories by my cousin but they are really very entertaining as always. Her courage which i never will have... i kind of envy her. I'm actually very timid. And i really really wanted a heart filled with more courage.

I'm like broadening my social circle very fast ar... Hahaha! I love to make new friends!

Eh, but O' My God, i really don't know i know this Jian Hui guy during newspaper collection leh! Until today when i heard him mentioning about being in the commando group and find this word so familiar then did i realise this Jian Hui guy is actually the one who 'helped' out during newspaper collection.

O' MY GOD LOR! what coincidence! And i can't recognise him when i met him the other day when i went to watch the friendly match between YEC basketball team and MJ basketball team.

And during my journey back home just now i told him everything i wanted to complain about him and his friend. x) Abit too straight but steadily that time i was quite mad at the two guys who just sit there and slack and i (a girl) got to carry those heavy newspapers and clothes. So i purposely left loads of newspaper on the void deck table, sit down and slack and wait for the two men to carry the newspapers back to the collection point. x)

Kind of guilty when they came to help carry the newspapers but when i heard he is a commander (actually it's commando, an elite group, but i heard it wrongely)... the sense of guilt vanished into thin air! Poof! HAHAHAHA!!

I know i'm mean but i would have gone straight to the two men and chided them off if i know them lo. Next time... if there happens to have a next time... >.<

One more story to share:

At first i agreed to meet Jinguang (today) and it was because i wanted to witness him JIAN FEI. I was shopping with my cousin and received a call out of a sudden. "Ronnie Wu" appears on the screen and when i picked it up he told me WO ZAI JIAN FEI blah-blah-blah and i was so excited to see him JIAN FEI that i told my cousin i have to leave first.

In the end, it happens that i've heard it wrongely. Still, i had a fun-filled day.

I've been very chatty today... but i can't help it. Bleah!

Sayonara!

Ciao!

Ain't flying! No, I shall FLY!

No one's found FLYING at the moment... Congrats! Hahahaha... you-know, I want my friends to be safe and sound. Yeah, i'm exergerating. xx) HAHAHAHAHA!!

Jason's sister is going TJ. O' my god... She's so smart lah! x) And i find myself so stupid. Kind of regreted not studying hard... Nevermind, no point regretting, okay? Hahaha... i shall start afresh! Cedrick is considering TJ... maybe you'll know her leh. She will be a nice friend, steady lah. HAHAHAHA!

Singapore Youth Flying Club... here i come! x) I'm going to be a pilot. Anyone interested? Join me on this flying journey. If i'm not learning how to drive, at least i shall learn how to fly! My mummy didn't say no... YAY, so i stand a good chance flying in the sky.

Whahaha... alright, i've decided that i'm going to work hard to get myself a place in MJ. If not, no matter how far it is... i am going Nanyang Junior college. See ar, if i'm going Singapore Poly, the journey is about the same lor. So why not Nanyang JC? Sorry baba, i've decided. Then, i'll choose Singapore Poly's business course and lastly, Temasek Poly's business course.

My cousin says it's better to take engineering course in Poly then business in University. But after thinking through... even though i know that might be an advantage but if i have no interest in engineer... taking engineering course will be a road to HELL. x) No motivation to study... i experience it once and i'm not going to experience it again. I hate that feeling... it's like wasting your life away.

I'm going to fill up my form now.

Sayonara!

Ciao!

I'm steadily troubled.

In order not to sound like cassandra... i will replace the word 'serious' with 'steady' or 'no joke'. Hahaha... i'll try hard to adapt to these two words. x) Steady ar... HAHAHAHAHA!!

I'm beginning to like this word, steadily steady. If you don't understand... you can just replace this word with serious. Yeah, you will be able to understand. x)

I might be stressing my brother too much 'coz he cried when i told him he can't even spell like a nursery kid! And that the books i've bought for him are for nursery kids! I admit i'm trying to push him but i don't wish to do it too extreme. So now, i shall take things slowly since my last day of work is 2nd February. Loads of time to prepare him for primary school... >.<

Yeah, due to my friend's request... i've extented my service for 2 more days so that she can get her off-day granted. Man, i realised i have no choice but to agree to help her. That reason is complicated... Hahaha.

My brother is planning to finish the books i've bought for him tonight! I think he's as insane as me! Argh, by tomorrow, i will submit whatever i need to submit. Please, i wish i'll have no regrets!

Though i look fine, i'm troubled... really, really troubled. No joke! I need advice... i need different people's opinions. I need help! Talk to me...

O' forgot to mention i saw Ronnie Wu and Bamboo today. Well, i was so taken aback by their sudden appearance... And i was so excited to meet them after work that i couldn't concentrate, man. I was counting down all the way... Gosh, and then i had a nice chatty trip back home though filled with loads of bullying and teasing and repeatings ('coz i couldn't hear very clearly), not to worry, i am not ALWAYS the one being bullied and teased. x)

Thanks for having the patience to repeat your words. Sometimes, i was also irritated by the fact that i got to spent one-third of my life blurring away.

Sayonara!

Ciao!

Big-headed.

Hello everyone. How's your big day?

I'm not happpy that i get 15 though i expected myself to get 15. But i'm not to the extent of being very depressed over my result. x)

And it was how silly i cried not because of my result but just that i'm too touched to see my friend excel in his studies. Aw man, i'm so so happy for him lah! You never know how happy i was to the extent of crying for him. You've did us proud man, Shi Wee! He has got seven A1s and one B3! Congratulations! I'm really very very happy for you. He's now hesitating staying at MJ or trying out VJ... but if you can climb higher, why not give it a try? That's what i think.

Okay lah, to my dearest friends... Be it good or bad, we all have to move on... Now is the time our rusty brains can be used to think of where we shall head. Hopefully, we can all walk this path together. Seriously, i'm quite worried how things are going to change after Os.

Back to my result: In fact, i'm not happy with my result BUT still satisfied. At least i can get to the courses i've sort of chosen if i want to go poly. Actually, now that i've got 15, i'm considering Junior College. Should i try MJ? Nanyang Junior College also like not bad. See lah, if can't go both... i'll go SP for business course but i'm really having a headache which course should i choose 'coz after reading about the courses, i'm tempted to go so many of them lo!

Haiz, i'm afraid i might not have the dsicipline to study and will just play away my poly life lo. Headache ar... headache.

Argh, fickle-minded me.

Sayonara!

Ciao!

The day before BIG day.

Today, i shall slumber my night away... x) Well, you're wrong if you guess i'll have insomnia throughout the night 'coz the current me is feeling so tired. And my head is spinning away... like for the whole entire day?

And my bladder has been very active today... guess the number of times i've been to the toilet. Hahaha... more than ten times! That's insane, alright? Just tell me what's wrong with my bladder?

O' and yesterday i had a good talk with jinguang. You-know hearing compliments from him once in a blue moon is really a comfort. I really enjoy it... at least, i felt that my efforts are appreciated. Yeah, that also saves a little bit of my self-confidence from drowning. I'm really thankful.

Alright-alright, tomorrow is THE BIG DAY! I was anticpating it a few days ago... i've did some calculations 'coz i couldn't concentrate during work and after re-calculating it again and again... i found out that THERE'S NO WAY I CAN GET LOWER THAN 15 FOR L1R5!

*sigh*

HAHAHAHA!!! A reminder to all: Don't ask, okay? Don't ask me of my results. If i want to tell you... there's no way you can stop me. So... just hush. Wait till you get my SMS. If not, just don't ask. I'll switch off my mobile.

I ever thought of getting F9s for all subject and if that really do happen... you will see me fly. I will not hesitate to FLY. x)

Yikes, don't know what the hell happened but my toe started bleeding again and the amount of blood loss is terrifying... Managed to stop the blood flow but if i give my toe a little push, blood will gush out from the injury. It feels disgusting and i'm quite worried with the time my toe is taking to heal itself... Seriously, i'm scared leh. What if it never heals? I'm scared my toe will rot if it takes too long.

Anyway, i'm not going to tell my parents about it.

The other time when i nearly faint after cutting myself with the pen knife... my dad is already stomping mad. Imgine this time round... No way, he is not going to know about this, definitely. Hahahaha... but how stupid i lost so much blood that i nearly faint in my own house!

It was like silently walk into the toilet to wash my wound then realised the blood didn't stop... feeling so sick and dizzy... decided to go back to the room to rest before i faint inside the toilet... blur blur... can't see clearly... walk walk walk... giddy giddy... then... CRASH! I ran onto the door 'coz i wasn't looking!!! But i feel my way quickly back to my room and to my bed and my superdad came chidding me and tending to my broken finger!

I don't want my dad to know but the noise i've made was loud enough lo! And for no reason why would i run onto the door? So my superdad knew something was amiss! How sweet and stupid can it be! Hahahahaha!!

Okay, enough of laughing!

Wish me GOOD luck!

Sayonara!

Ciao!

Mode switches.

Yup, i'm back blogging again. This morning... i went to have blunch with my brother and just a few hours ago, i went to watch a basketball match between the YEC basketball team and the MJ basketball team. That was an exciting match to me though i heard complaints from the YEC basketball team that it's not shiok enough 'coz they haven't even started sweating.

Anyway, i've made the right choice lo because i really enjoy the time i spent. Desmond drove me there and it was so funny i mean the way he drives - cross-legged. Managed to meet new friends and though they are slightly older than me... it's sooooooo much fun to be with them. x)

Yeah, i'm feeling so much better now. O' and i forgot to mention how i managed to bump into Ms Lye a few days ago at Marine Parade Popular with her kids shopping for books and meeting Joel at my workplace 'coz he wanted to buy the Zodiac notebook. Whahaha... O' yes O' yes, and how i met my cousin at the Tampines bus interchange when i was on my way back home ALL ON THE SAME DAY!

Yup-yup, i was really glad to bump into them 'coz i miss them so much. Hahaha, alright, before school starts... the cousins should organise another k-box outing throughout the night! I'm cheering up... how lucky! May luck be with me on the 24th January '08!

Sayonara!

Ciao!

A roller-coaster ride.

Perhaps it's my friends' encounter. Perhaps i've worried too much about my result. Perhaps it's because of the retreat. Perhaps... those were the reasons that have made me sunk into misery.

Well, i know... they are all excuses. Funny how each day changes so drastically...

It's like:
Home alone - miserable.
With friends - once again crazy.

Sick of this, man. I don't wish to think this much but i'm kind of 'forced' by my brain to think this much. Okay, i must think simple... if not, i'll misjudge him and pass him off with a dead sentence. I'll keep myself away from misery... I'll start to let go.

"miracles" has never appeared in my dictionary before though i've been mentioning this word. I know this word and i understand this word but i don't accept this word. That is what i mean. I don't believe in miracles though i used to. Anyway, that's long long ago...

I wish to be alone but i don't wish to be miserable... And if i'm alone, i'll sink back to misery. Life is so tough and filled with so much controdictions. It's always easy to say but when needed to put into action... it's never easy. When into this topic... the principles you've been keeping for the whole 17 years old is not going to be kept the same anymore. You're submerged in chaos and confusions... you hear voices echoing everywhere but you understand not a single word.

Even though time is ticking away and everyone around you seemed to be moving on... your images run in slow motion and your world stands still. It's silly leh... to be so emotionally-controlled by someone who doesn't give a damn about you. That's so stupid... it's like self destruction; or to put it simply, a slow sucide.

Sayonara.

Ciao.

Best Bad News

Sharks, this is so shit. I don't wish to say anymore. Miracles don't happen, i told you..............................

Alright, strong me has once again overcome those naughty emo which came knocking at my door just few days ago. I'm once again laughing and leading my once again crazy life. x) But i'm able to predict how emo will make a big U-turn and use the speed-bump card to get back to me again. Hahaha!

Because.........................

Os result is on 24th Januray '08!

Doom time, you-know? I'm able to predict what kind of result i'll get back. I know it's going to be worse than prelim. Say bye bye to my future...

Anyway, to those who read this entry... i will be thankful to you if all of you don't flood my mobile with SMSs or calls asking me how ''well'' i did on 24th January '08. If it's good news, you will automatically receive an SMS from me... If it's bad news, i won't even send out SMS lah. Don't ask, okay? I'm sure i'm going to bump into a few friends who ask me what's my L1R5 but seriously, please do consider my feelings.

I may seemed strong but i'm actually quite weak. Ain't joking...

Sayonara!

Ciao!

Kendrick

I don't know him but i feel so strongely after learning about this piece of news 'coz ''brain infection'' has been repeated many many times through my head when i was in primary school. Why is life so fragile? Why do we all have to go through all these? It's hard for me to accept though i know i need to accept this very fact. I know it clearly that for the past 5 years... but i still can't bring myself to accept this very cruel truth.

Let's all pray for him, shall we?

We can't take things for granted... we shouldn't only learn to treasure after losing. From today onwards, i'll learn to count my blessing, hard.

I don't believe in miracles but please, for this time, please let miracles happen! Kendrick, you have got all your friends and family's support! Don't give up. Though i don't believe in miracles, i believe that as long as you have the will, you will be able to overcome this illness. Don't give up the slightest hope you have... perservere and have faith in yourself and everyone you love. Fight for yourself... for your family... and for your friends!

Sayonara!

Ciao!

Losing grip

Had a lousy day, today. Wanted a quiet time alone but went out with my family and cousin instead because i've promised them way beforehand. Got the urge to scream, to shout, to yell, to tear, to punch, to scratch, to cry out hard and loud when i was surrounded by humans just now. I was being squashed, knocked, squeeze, stepped and pushed around by the crowds and i really really can't stand it. I-think i ain't feeling better though i thought i could.

Anyway, i thought i can keep my injured toe a secret but the stupid plaster ain't sticky anymore and sticks out in the evening and my mummy spotted it. Well, i was faking normal but in fact, the pain was almost unbearable. It's still bleeding lo, can you believe it? I'm kind of scared now... i-think a very ugly scar will be left behind. How sad! And i hope my nail can grow back!

The pain comes and goes anytime it likes... I'm wondering how to wear shoe to work the next day. My damn stupid brother didn't watch his steps can walk over my toe this afternoon... it was ARGH! excruciating pain... O' My Goodness! And i got to hide the pain that is on my face so that my parents won't know how serious i've injured my toe. I felt like digging his eyes out lah... i mean seriously lah... this is not the first time lo and even though he's only a kid i don't give a damn anymore. Chided him for having no eyes and if he didn't run away in time, he would have earn himself a few slaps on his face.

Yeah and i know i'm bad but i can't help scolding him for just little things. I'm sorry, brother! You're very down in luck 'coz your sister is feeling so lousy to the max today so she was venting her anger and frustrations on you.

And i'm very unpleased with myself, too, for being such a racist. I'm boiling all over whenever i see people of different colour skin from me and i hate myself for feeling this way. I'M BAD! I'M BAD! I'M REALLY BAD!!!! I can't stand myself any longer...

I need a punching bag.

Sayonara

Ciao

Conclusion

Went through a lot these three days. I felt that i've gained a lot and lost a lot. Losing things precious and little in me. Gaining things that i've been wanting no more.

One thing i am clear of now: Organising activites or events is not my cup of tea.

Sayonara

Ciao

Raging Fire

Man, heard that someone in choir doesn't really like me. Well, i know it's impossible to be liked by everyone but this piece of news breaks my heart, man. Yeah, i'm curious to know and wanted to ask but i shall refrain myself from doing so. 'coz i believe i will be so unkind to that person when i visit choir everytime.

I love choir, really. So it's really dreadful to learn about this piece of news. Just hope that majority don't think this way, yeah? No one is perfect and though i tried to be nice to everyone i'm sure i will miss out a few. Being someone who goes with the flow most of the time... smiling and laughing everyday and yet, deep inside lies a perfectionist... How true can that be! I belong to the family of virgoS. Heheheh...

I may seem ambitious but that's only to fulfil what i think needs to be done for Virgos are really responsible people. I'm not boasting about myself 'coz, in fact, i don't know how to handle praises and compliments...

Yeah, really, i understand no one in this world will gain everyone's liking but i still can't stand knowing somewhere in this world stands people who doesn't like me. Alright, i-know i-know... i really know there bound to be these people existing but please keep mum and don't let me know about this very fact. Keep this secret a secret and bring it to your graves. I'll thank you very much for doing so. If not, you can tell me the reasons for disliking me... i'll appreciate it very much. You can;t hate someone without a reason, right? That's ridiculous and i will not let this person off, seriously serious. O' and a reminder... not too harsh on me, please. Tell me the reasons gently, seriously (not stern) and in a NOT sacarstic way/joking manner... x)

I'm having quite a bad day today, really. So i'm in a really foul mood now.

*sigh* Visiting choir tomorrow 'coz it's CCA open house. I hope that the person won't go about back-stabbing me 'coz i won't be able to spare back-stabbers. I'll thank you for having mercy on me.

Virgo is a person whom you can make friends with BUT never an enemy. Think thrice before offending me... I'm a 100% true virgo who is very protective against myself. x)

Not wanting to hide what i really wanted to say inside: Don't let me find out who you are. Seriously, just come straight up to me and tell me your reasons for not liking me... don't hide yourself man. 'coz i hate hearing such things through echos. They make things hard to swallow and enrages the fire burning within me.

Sayonara

Ciao

Re... Freshing!

Woke up too late today and find the sun too strong for a jog in the park. So, i was racking my brain, trying to think of something else i can do to replace jogging. O' and brainy me thought of climbing the stairs! I-know it might sounds stupid but you must try it! I managed to sweat a little and most imprtantly, i don't have to be scared of tanning my skin. I never want to be mistaken as someone of another race again! Hahaha... People speaking to me in another language that i don't understand... kind of breaks my heart. Hahaha...

Alright, this climb wakes me up a little and i'm feeling so ever refreshing! Please... i want my muscles to ache tomorrow! Miss that sensation, man. HAHAHAHAHA!!

I've loads to do later on and i intend to sleep at 10.30 tonight. The dark patches under my eyes have been so obvious lately... i'll try to sleep at 11 from now on. And when the dark patches go off a little, i'll try on the eye patches to get rid of them TOTALLY! Whahahaha!! Sounds good, huh?

O' and i forgot to tell you guys about the wonderful breakfast i had at PastaMania yesterday...It was bloooooooooody nice. I ordered the Ham and Sausage Baked Rice which costs a bomb but after eating it, i find myself satisfied with the meal. I think i'm addicted to it lo! The cheesy taste and cheesy smell... So awesomely awesome! Yummy to the max!!!!! The whole meal costs me around 14 bucks so i-guess i won't be able to eat it often. =( SO SAD!

Now, i'm trying to remember people who owes me a meal. Then, i'll get them to treat me at PastaMania! Please... those who owe me a meal, own up, man! I can't remember who since so many owe me a treat! x)

Sayonara!

Ciao!

Cassandra's Birthday is Today!

Yikes, i'm still in 2007, December. I've been taking each day this month some days in December last year. How strange can that be... I must be mad after all the working. Alright, today's cassandra's birthday! Happy Birthday, girl! x)

Don't know why she keeps calling me girl. I know i'm a girl but it sounds like she's speaking to some three years old kid. Hahahaha... So weird. I'm trying to abate a nuisance here... but there's one thing i need to ask today.

Will ants die after falling from forty storeys high building?

Hahaha... what a question! I tried throwing ants before but they are still alive so i was thinking if i throw them down from forty storeys high building will they just die... It's such a tough question, seriously.

O'and i went on checking the dictionary on the pronunciation of abacus... guess what? The real pronunciation is AIR-BEAR-CAST (without the T-sound). I can imagine everyone will find me a freak if i pronounce abacus this way.

Feeling kind of lost after having a long talk over the phone with my friend at Popular. She was such an awesome speaker and i find myself the world's no. 1 listener. 'coz i've been hearing from loads of people recently. Hahaha, i really enjoy their stories, man. And i'm glad they find me a suitable person that they can confide to. You-know, when you're laughing like crazy everyday, people find you unreliable so you're the last one they can ever think of if they wanted someone to confide to.

And though behaving crazily every single day... There is still some things i find it inappropriate to let anyone knows about it, especially people who are close to me or are close to my friends. And i have a reason. That is why i'm pretty good at keep secret a secret. 'coz i have the brain to make things right (not any other things but just keeping secrets). Hahaha... Man, overloaded with the deepest darkest secrets you can ever know!

Sayonara!

Ciao!

Peeps!

Hey peeps, it has been two days! How's life?

Man, i had a damn good time catching up with my brother yesterday night. I'm finally out of the mountain turtle list! Yay! But i'm still unable to get out of the auntie list. Time for a make-over. *sigh* I'll change my wardrobe when i got my pay, alright? x)

And i finally has got the time to check through the files stored in the thumbdrive. Some files are missing... I just can't find them! Too much folders i-guess so it's making me dizzy having to check through them one by one.

I've sms people whom i'm suppose to call up to inform them about the upcoming retreat. I know it's wrong to do that... but well, i know what i'm doing. Heh, 'coz if they don't reply, i'll call them up in the evening. You-know, i don't feel like talking to anyone so early. My voice sounds horrible in the morning...

O' and i'm still here... at home! Argh, i can't believe i overslept. Now isn't the time for exercise. I'll make it up perhaps tomorrow before i go to work. Yikes, i hate myself for being so lazy. Shouldn't have watch video till 2 yesterday... it stops me from waking up early.

Mmm, and yesterday i knocked off from work at 6.30pm. Well, i'm suppose to leave at 6 but i can't possibly leave those tasks i'm assigned to aside... Reach TECC at 8 which was a perfect time! Hahaha, and found out that out of the so-many cassandra and kelvin called, only four came and that includes me, cassandra and kelvin! I was kind of disappointed and cassandra was jumping mad. Nevermind, don't take it to heart, okay? Just think "I can't be bothered" and that's it! Hahaha!

We did some discussion. Then, Cassandra went to buy a pair of slipper since the strap of the pair she was wearing snapped. O' and i got myself cup noodle from 7-11 since i was craving for it at that very moment. Met the rest later at night and Jinguang went on tattling to casasndra about the whatever system. It's dampening cassandra's mood lo and like what she said it's like falling from thirty storeys high building.

I experienced a few times of Jinguang's ever lasting talks. It was so very 'cool'... and can last for one or two hours. What i can say is... i never want to experience that again! Errr... speechless. I don't really know how to explain this but you just got to try it out once and you'll understand me. x)

Surprisingly, yesterday he made an exception 'coz the talk lasted only for i-think at most half an hour. HAHAHAHAHA!! But i can see Cassandra was feeling so down already. Imagine what i've been through... one hour to two hours leh! It must have been tumbling down 1000 flights of stairs! WHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

One more thing for today:

At around 11, i watched a tv program on the different religions... the opinions of people learning the wisdom of a particular religion. It's not appropriate to mention them here but i sort of disagreee with some of them. I-know there's nothing wrong to be spending many years to grasp the meaning of fuo xue but when he said that witnessing how his brother and father spend their lives leading a normal life, he finds this mei you yi yi... so, he decided to remain single to study fuo xue.

Well, to me, without his father, he wouldn't be standing in this world learning about fuo xue that he loves so much. You-know, this sheng lao bing si logic? There will be people out there living in a 'normal' way to keep this world breathing... Haiya, i'm not good at words to express myself leh.

Need to do some serious thinking today...

Sayonara!

Ciao!

Journey to the West

Marine Parade Popular has now change to be called the World of the Journey to the West tale. I can't be bothered to explain much but it was so funny... If only you guys understand... *sigh*

Nevermind, today i was planning to turn in early but i'm here to blog again so i guess i will drag till 12 and still awake! As usual, my craving for Night Cycling is surging back and forth. It's like a smoker craving for a puff but if he perserveres and get through it, the yearning for it will stop... eventually. O' My! But you know how hard it is to bear with those ''side effects''?

You-know, my body is itching for a day of sports! Yeah, i'm feeling very uncomfortable now and it must be the lack of exercise. This Saturday will be a good time for an hour of jogging... i-hope! And i will get to taste, once again, the ultimate sensation of muscles ache... Mmmm... Mama mia! Erpx, sounds pervertic. HAHAHAHAHA!

Alright, weslie's present was a little bit useless here since there's no Night Cycling till maybe the end of this year... Mister Weslie... =.= HAHAHAHA! Nevermind, since i've got you one damn useless present, too. x) You're going to love it, man!

Oh and that stupid xiao xuan never read my message carefully. When did i tell her that i'm giving Alto a treat tomorrow? It's the midst of the month leh, miss arh? And other than not getting my pay, i got to work! O' My Goodness... Her eyes arh... *shake head- shake head* she better get herself a new pair of glasses, girl.

Okay, off i go! Oyasuminasai!

Sayonara!

Ciao!

Jealousy.

Who knows? It might be the sucking ghost of jealousy lurking within me. I'm so sick and tired of this, man. Why does it seems like i'm feeling so damn annoyed by everything he does? Mm, most probably he has offended me somewhere.

*sigh* I felt so threaten with him around. Yeah, he is just like an obstacle, preventing me from doing whatever things i want to do. Nevermind, i am not alone. I have friends... Sooner or later, he is going to vanish into thin air and i will not want to see him ever again!

My sister is sick, so she has been behaving like the Queen the past few days. How wonderful it is to be healthy! I had already forgotten what it feels like being sick... Haha. But well, even if i'm sick, i can still carry out my faily routine... for my sister... yikes, she has been lying on the bed for two days and still ain't feeling better. Bless her! (Mmm, not being sarcastic but i use to thought she has the same body as mine...)

I know i've been mean today but i just can't help it. Just let me be mean today, alright? Feeling so rebelious... i want to be bad. =(

Sayonara!

Ciao!

An early good morning!

Sorry with the vulgarities i've used few days ago. I was really alarmed when i read back... That was written when i was so mad so i guess i couldn't control my emotions very well. x)

Mmm, now it's 11.42... i just did some planning of the retreat. Actually, it was so fun to be typing those acitivities out. I think i'm sinking back to the joy of organising stuff. You can't blame me... I've been working since december and other than work, there's nothing for me to do! And i wasn't really in the mood of doing the blogskin... So... yeah.

At least planning an event is a brain work. I had enough of being mentally tortured by stupid customers i've met. Hopefully, the games i've came up with will bring everyone's mood up and let them enjoy themselves. I really really hope i can bring the spirit of joy and motivate more campers to be more committed to SuperNova in the future... That's the last few things i can do.

Alright, heard from Alex there won't be any meetings till the retreat. That basically means the organising group of the retreat will have to organise their own meeting. Bad thing is... cassandra and i are working. Nevermind, let's just prove it to them using just e-mail can be sufficient to plan.

Today is 5th of January '08... 13 more days to retreat. Way to go! I'm looking forward to it... and i don't want to be bossing around that day when i actually didn't help in planning or preparing of the retreat. I'm going to fuel up starting from today!

Shall go now... 'coz i'm meeting up with my OLD friends later at East Coast Park. Damn it, miss them so much!

Sayonara!

Ciao!

Delightful Day.

Yay, today's choir practice was a good one. It was soooo much much better than the previous one when i visited the school. Well, they are acting like a Gold Choir. Good one! I'm really glad lah... a very super wonderful job! Hahaha, if anyone of them happen to see this entry... i really want to thank you guys for making my today such a delightful one. I'm so happy for the choir... Yes, the sectional leaders and cwc members are doing such an awesomely awesome job. Hahaha. x)

I can see so many opportunities opening up for the members unlike in the past. Looks like the system is starting to work... and the teachers and students are cooperating very well with one another. I truely madly deeply (erpx!) wish Choir all the best with the new instructor and exceling in all areas. O' My God! I can see such a bright future... Whahaha!

Man, i believe we will be able to reach our goal in no time! Keep it up, people!

Sayonara!

Ciao!

'D' Aunt-Axe-Speck-Third

I wonder if you understand the title of today. Mmm, met an old brat... just my luck! Felt like doing the following things:

1. Kick him on his backside.
2. Roll him into a ball.
3. Dump him into the washing machine.
4. Turn on the wshing machine.
5. Lock him there till he kneel down infront of me and beg for forgiveness.
6. Laugh at his wrinkled skin.
7. Give him a tight slap on his face till his cheeks swell up like a pumpkin.
8. Make him apologise to me a hundred times.
9. And lastly a good bye gift: Give his nose a real good tight hard pinch till he yells in super big pain!

Felt like swearing right now, man... No pseudo-intellectual bullshit, just 'great visual' communication. I'm boiling all over till the top of my head... BLOWING UP!!! I really can't stand that damn attitude of that F****** DAD!

Like it's my fault... hello mister, if i got the books i will definitely sell it to you. Why would i want to keep it? And it's my fault that the Popular bookstore don't have the books? Man, i've explained we've placed an order so long ago but the supplier has no stocks for us! What do you want me to do? Go ahead and lodge a complaint... freaking bloody fag. I've never offended you and all the way was using a polite tone so just what's wrong with you? Venting your frustration on me just because your children can't have those stupid books they want? Asshole lo.

So what if you're educated? I mean if you receive so much education and yet unable to act like one then maybe you can start school all over again 'coz even a three year old kid is way better than you. At least they know what polite means and they are acting just like that. Just feel like giving that retarded face of yours two tight slaps... No, a thousand slaps is not even sufficient to piss me off.

Had a disastrous day. Hoping for a better tomorrow. I'm drowsy so i shall say bye for now!

Sayonara.

Ciao.

1st January '08

Today is ending soon... and something feels so wrong. Perhaps 'coz my friends are all GOING BACK TO SCHOOL and i'm NOT! Should i be happy? or should i be sad? One thing i know... i'm smiling right now. Whahahaha! O' My God! I'm actually feeling so happy not having to attend school. Shit... that's not a good thing!

At the same time, i'm very upset for hogging onto the computer for the whole day. It seemed like i've wasted one day gaming... and that game didn't turn out good. I tried to figure out how it was played and i failed. *sigh* Waste of money and waste of time... feel like stranggling myself now. Got the very urge to go Night Cycling... Haha, really, i miss Night Cycling a lot and since i have a few more months before Os result is being announced, i think i'll find one day for one GO!

I'm adapting to working life very fast and that must be because i have very lovely friends there. Hahaha, now then i realised those friends are kind of lovely in some ways. Now, we're like brothers, man! Hahahaha!! Yeah, i got use to be called 'nan sheng' very often so i can't be bothered now. Alright, i'm enjoying myself at Marine Parade Popular... but it's going to end soon since the peak period for textbooks purchasing is going to finish! Alamak! I'm losing my job pretty soon... T.T

Mmm, still feeling so empty than ever... must be because i've spent my today so un-wisely. Haiz, and i spent my 31st December '07 making so much mistakes. Man, how nice! *frowns*

Nevermind, in the future, i will spend every 31st December wisely.

Add on:

1. a veri crazy gal
2. violent at many times
3. great friend to hang out with
4. good listener and some 1 u can talk to
5. talkative but entertains the crowd
6. is veri enthu with wat ever she is interested with
7. loses intresest in things veri fast
8. a veri happy go lucky gal
9. at some times really behave like a kid

Alright, that's what Desmond think of me. What about you? Sharing the same sentiments? Or totally disagree with him? Feel free to tell me on msn. =.=

Sayonara!

Ciao!

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New Year's resolutions.

These are My New Year's resolutions:

1. I will learn to save.
2. I will do the housechores.
3. I will try to be less violent.
4. I will stay truthful to myself.
5. I will learn all sports starting this New Year.
6. I will be kind to my brother.
7. I will be independent.
8. I will treasure (as in really really treasure) friendship and kinship.
9. I will learn to speak cantonese and hokkien.
10. O' lastly, i will learn to watch my weight. x)

I forgotten one more very important resolution which i've thought of last night... I'll update my New Year's resolutions again after i remember that very one.

I never never never know how much i love my family till i started working... i realise how important they are to me and how selfish i've been all these while. Kinship can never be replaced and how foolish i have been the last few years, thinking that "hey, maybe friendship can substitute kinship..."

O' yeah, that was the period i, myself, were in bad terms with my family. I'm sorry, I'm really really sorry to be thinking that way. For now, i shall begin this new year, treasuring my family more than ever. Luckily, it's not too late. I wonder if you know what i was thinking now... if i have to wait till i lose my love ones than will i be able to know how much they are to me, that losing them is like losing a part of myself, that will be all too very late.

I know i love my parents and my siblings the last 16 years but i never know how much i love them so. Now, i finally know... Hahaha, i am so glad. Because they love me so much, i will love them more than they love me. x)

Alright, being kind to my brother is one of my resolution 'coz he is an innocent kid who has been tortured by me by various means. HAHAHAHAHAHA!! I love him so much and i've knew it since the day he was born... so i can't help to be so 'cruel' and 'mean' to him. I know it's very unusual to behave like this since he's only 5 this year and i am already 16 and usually, siblings with such a huge age difference... the sister will dote on her brother so much much more but perhaps, this is the way i dote on my brother. x) Hahaha, excuses.

Okay, other resolutions maybe some of you will know what it means. Hahaha, what are yours?

Hey, see you guys next year... Nah, this year!

Actually, yesterday i wanted to mass-sms everyone this message:
Hey, see you next year! Blah Blah Blah...

It is one long chain of new year greetings i've thought of it myself, okay? And i waited till 12... then i realised i can't possibly use "see you next year" since it's already 2008!!!! How dumb can i be to only realise it when the clock struck 12! Damn it... Damn it. Damn it!

If i were to use it, i go to send it before 12!!!!!! And i thought it would be such a creative sms this year... Out of frustration, i deleted the sms. That's why you only receive one from me at 1pm... almost going to 2pm and it's one simple one without a bit of creativity... 'coz for the last two hours i've been racking my brain and couldn't think of any so i gave up lo!

Very super irritating leh... I can't stand myself for being so stupid last night. Argh!

Sayonara!

Ciao!